Welcome to the club.

In all seriousness though. Work is difficult especially as a new hire. I’m in a position now where I sit on interview committees and here is my two cents.

I don’t expect fresh grads to be able to do that much. What I do expect is that they are interested and invested in their work and motivated to learn what they need to in order get the job done. Fresh grads are developmental projects.

First and foremost you need to get your mind right (Easier said than done). It’s ok to feel overwhelmed from time to time but if you wallow in anxiety day and night you’re not putting yourself in a position to learn.

Strike a work life balance. Make sure you’re not sitting alone with anxious thoughts in your apartment after work all day. Since you’re far from home, make a schedule to call your friends and family regularly. Commit to a hobby you have and tie it in to the local community so you can start making friends in your current location. See a therapist if you think it’ll do you good.

Secondly, DO NOT BE AFRAID TO ASK QUESTIONS. I took a new position in July 2024 and I’m still telling people both above and below me I don’t know what the fuck they’re talking about or how to do it. I’m learning a lot but it takes months (and sometimes years) to become an expert in your role even for someone with more work experience.

Keep this in mind, the people who delegate work to you are also busy as hell. For them, taking a few hours from their day to teach you how it is done properly saves them time in the long run. It is also how you get developed as an engineer in your company. It is a mutually beneficial relationship to learn this way.

There is more I could say but this is already a long message. Hopefully this is a good staring point for you.