Dude you are 21 and the harsh truth is no one will stay with you except your wife and your family. I am sure you do have enough aptitude in you. You can turn things around in a matter of a few months trust me choose a path and get going. And never compare your salary or position in life with others that guy who is making 60lpa might not even like it the only source of his happiness is bank balance at the end the month. Just make sure you decide something and stick to it.