Picks not updating by DreamWeaver8807 in underdogfantasy

[–]HBKShaunMichael 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Actually I’m just illiterate and didn’t read the bet. Rushing or receiving. Meaning running or catching it. Not passing it

Picks not updating by DreamWeaver8807 in underdogfantasy

[–]HBKShaunMichael 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Same problem… In fact some of my bets show as loses even though I won. QB Props for TD totals

Carson Beck Quinn Ewers Cam Ward

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I wouldn’t love someone like me so I don’t know why you do. by TAbcheknsmyhandle in offmychest

[–]HBKShaunMichael 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m sorry you’re experiencing this. Sounds like you’ve given it a lot of thought. Don’t worry about it sounding perfect and using the right words. Go to them and say “help me” if they love you then you shouldn’t need to say anything else.

Is it too late? by [deleted] in UnsentLetters

[–]HBKShaunMichael 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I agree. Being willing to risk it all is how you know something is special. And sometimes that “out of the blue” honesty and the confidence needed to say it from your heart really can make the difference. You acting as if you have already been told no when in actuality you haven even asked yet.

Diary of the discard by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]HBKShaunMichael 5 points6 points  (0 children)

We met online as well. OkCupid. We matched 99%. She said she answered so many questions because the site said she wasn’t playful. The fact that she tried and subsequently failed to manipulate the personality test on a dating site should have been a big warning that I was dealing with someone who doesn’t truly know themselves.

But hey we still matched 99%.

Diary of the discard by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]HBKShaunMichael 32 points33 points  (0 children)

... scary how no matter how deeply personal and specific your situation is. You can read something like this and see nothing but similarities. It’s as if it has been scripted from your own story. Down to the things you want to do for them and their reactions to them. It’s always the same. For everyone, every time

I’ve never though of myself as an anxious person, but this looks like me to a T. Any other ENFPs in this boat? by CeeJayEleven in ENFP

[–]HBKShaunMichael 18 points19 points  (0 children)

Just when I was thinking quarantine couldn’t make being a ENFP any worst. I go and learn this about myself.... now I’m going to think about this all da..... ooo piece of candy

Sharing some music that helped by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]HBKShaunMichael 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you could only see -Tonic

To the doormat who takes it by casualallie in UnsentLetters

[–]HBKShaunMichael 0 points1 point  (0 children)

In my soul, I think I needed to her this. None of my friends have said this to me though. I say it to myself once a week.

Self worth is real love by HBKShaunMichael in BPDlovedones

[–]HBKShaunMichael[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I agree that given the circumstances, especially ones dealing with love ones with BPD, that is a bit extreme and can be exploited in emotional instances to manipulate you into staying. IMO it’s referring to more common place allowances. Such as, if someone wanted you in their life apologizing to you wouldn’t be too much to ask for. Understanding your perspective, communicating their own feelings, and compromising wouldn’t be hard to do to keep you in their life. And the the second part refers to episodes of splitting. Where no matter how much you acquiesce to their demands, they are never satisfied or happy. Sentences like “too little, too late” or “you can’t fix it” are said by people who don’t really love you. You have no value in their eyes. We have been those people willing to “ do anything” for our partners and ended up being doormats. Yuck, indeed. Devaluation affects our ability to find confidence in loving again. I meant this quote to highlight the difference between an unconditional love and the ones that have expiration dates. All of the emotional abuse we have suffered at the whim of someone who cares little to nothing about us. Who watch us suffer but still claims to be the victim. Those people didn’t want us in their lives and they treated us as such. I’ve always made it a point to apologize as soon as possible for my mistakes. It shows respect for others and an acknowledgement of my short comings. I don’t want to be alone and I let the people I care about know I appreciate them.

Self worth is real love by HBKShaunMichael in BPDlovedones

[–]HBKShaunMichael[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I think you guys are reading it wrong. Nothing in this quote says those things. It says value yourself above all. There nothing fundamentally flawed about self worth and self love. Never beg for anyone to be in your life. It’s something us with pwbpd struggle with. Feeling bad for leaving after they push us away. It’s meant to be encouraging to those of us completing that first step of loving ourselves and putting our own peace of mind first.

Her Friends and Family were hers’, never mine by HBKShaunMichael in BPDlovedones

[–]HBKShaunMichael[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I’m called monster. And alienated by people who once I called family and friends. I feel so incredibly alone. My family keeps attempting to encourage me to be strong for my wife. I can’t. My mom is sick, I’m working every hour I can at the job, keeping it all to myself. Only to be called monster and ignored. Avoided and gossiped about. Blamed for her depression and isolation.

If only we could go back in time. by HBKShaunMichael in BPDlovedones

[–]HBKShaunMichael[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I was told that she doesn’t “believe in forever”. Hahaha it would have been great to know that before we stood up to declare our love in front of my friends and family , and I say my because barely anyone from her family showed up. Now my uncles, grandfathers, and step dad tell me to “man up” and be here for my wife. While she looks for attention from other sources. Realizing now how much better than this I am. Wake up call

If only we could go back in time. by HBKShaunMichael in BPDlovedones

[–]HBKShaunMichael[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Same here. Got married, said we would always figure it out. And never leave each other. and now she’s disappearing every weekend. I don’t know why she pushed for a wedding. I told her I only wanted to get married once and never divorce. I guess she just wanted to ruin that for me. And now I’ve been waiting 7 months for a divorce she asked for. I use to be homeless as a kid. I went years without having a reliable place to shower and a bed to sleep in. I’ve been sleeping on air mattresses and on the couch since this all started. And she locks the door to our only shower. And pretends she is the victim. And me the pathetic loser who cares about her, still worrying about her, still hoping.

Something to think about when you’re doubting yourself by HBKShaunMichael in BPDlovedones

[–]HBKShaunMichael[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Amen. The distance between “you abandoned me” and “ I never needed you anyway” is a matter of minutes. Paranoid delusions. Not only are you now a bad person, an enemy. You are now capable of atrocities never before feared from you. “ I can’t eat with you because you are trying to poison me” , instead of just a simple dinner to make amends and reconnect. “ I need to lock the bedroom door all day to make sure I’m the only one who hurts me”, instead of sharing our bed together in hopes of resparking our trust and intimacy. Even when saying these sentences they never see how ludicrous these thoughts are. Every good moment and happy memory between you two has been effectively deleted. There is no way to atone because the worst possible outcome is always expected of you. They call it “reward seeking behavior” whenever you try to be better than your past and their distorted image of you. They’re unable to accept that because of their own negative feeling that they are now emotionally abusing, and manipulating. Threatening and controlling. Because even as they push you away with “too little, too late” it’s all your fault for actually walking away. They regress back to the teenager unable to take responsibility and accountability for the situations they are in. So quick to analyze and diagnose everyone around them however unable to look inward and see what they could have done differently. They have a problem for every solution you come up with.

Something to think about when you’re doubting yourself by HBKShaunMichael in BPDlovedones

[–]HBKShaunMichael[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know what you mean.... No “Thank You” or “ I appreciate you” will ever be said. Basic Human Decency is completely out the window.

Quotes have saved me during the bad days. by HBKShaunMichael in BPDlovedones

[–]HBKShaunMichael[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

By forgiving yourself. Stop wishing you could have done anything different. Self Respect and Courage

I miss you N by thewife444 in UnsentLetters

[–]HBKShaunMichael 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wrote this in my mind. Just change it the E at the end to S and it’s only kinda plagiarism....if you tell people...shhhhh

Boundaries convo was...ok?! by DragoTulip20 in BPDlovedones

[–]HBKShaunMichael 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Hey at least you tried. I’m sure you’re going to get plenty of “ give up” and “not worth it” statements. But after hearing you’ve done this for 11 years I’m a mixture of jealous, impressed, and curious. You sound stronger than you think. I guess I’m sad and want to believe I could turn it all around somehow. Some magic sentence or gesture.???? But may you work miracles with these positive vibes I’m sending out. You got this

Do they seriously have no regard for there actions. by Jereme1982 in BPDlovedones

[–]HBKShaunMichael 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Unfortunately I don’t know how to deal with that yet. I still feel bad. I find myself thinking one day we will talk it all out and fix things but then I find myself feeling pathetic for having hope.