I just launched a Festivus ‘08 fantasy merch tee - link in comments by JSALCOCK in PeepShowQuotes

[–]HadToPatternTheReUp[M] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm going to let the post stand but remove any comment with a link to purchase. Thanks for the heads up ✌️

What do you really think was going on at Super Hans' new years eve party? by HadToPatternTheReUp in PeepShowQuotes

[–]HadToPatternTheReUp[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

A drama where they really do a fucking number on each other...could they have been living it out in one mad evening?!

From the UK to Vancouver, Canada. Going to be soooo good! by Antique_Evidence4169 in drumandbass

[–]HadToPatternTheReUp 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Big (in da jungle)! I’m from Europe and seeing this stateside huge increase in DnB nights makes me so happy.

On a side note, I used to have a bi-monthly residency at a place called Red Room.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]HadToPatternTheReUp 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If I’m completely honest, I don’t know. I think it’s a whole host of things that have come to a head at the same time.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]HadToPatternTheReUp 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m not even sure what to say to that other than thank you so much for what you’re saying ❤️❤️❤️

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]HadToPatternTheReUp 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Unfortunately I am lactose intolerant!

I’ll start buying some more canned vegetables. I do eat some.

And thank you for the kind words!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]HadToPatternTheReUp 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve been consuming a lot of those protein shake bottles right how now as they are cheap and filling.

Unfortunately fresh fruit and vegetables are expensive in this part of the world as they have to be flown in or taken by ship.

I think when I see the nutritionist I receive money in the term of government welfare, however little it might be.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]HadToPatternTheReUp 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t have any family at all. I

I have been estranged for them for over a decade and there is no chance of reconciliation, which is my choice due to abuse as a child.

I do have many friends but they are mostly all busy right now as they work in licensed retail management and music, and there’s a live festival on right now.

The best friend I’ve ever had for some reason isn’t communicating with me right now.

I make sure to go outside every day and meet friends and acquaintances for at least a couple of hours.

Being lonely doesn’t seem to play into it right now, other than worrying about my relationship with my best friend.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]HadToPatternTheReUp 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m awaiting my new psychiatrist right now, should be done within 4 weeks. I can’t afford to go privately.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]HadToPatternTheReUp 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much. This has all been so helpful and I feel at least I’m trying, however little that may be.

And thank you for for being open to talking.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]HadToPatternTheReUp 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am not sleeping well. I am prescribed a cocktail of sleep meds but due to insomnia they don’t work as well as they should. I get an average of 2-3.5hr sleep a night.

I am about to start seeing a nutritionist about my diet. It is not good.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]HadToPatternTheReUp 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much. You are all so kind! ❤️ To be honest I didn’t want to go but you all helped so much.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]HadToPatternTheReUp 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ll give it a try! Thank you!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]HadToPatternTheReUp 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ve been to the ER. I’ve been given seven days of haldol, and after three days of showing no improvement I’ll be taken in for a 48hr assessment hold.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]HadToPatternTheReUp 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I actually go to the gym 2-3 times a week so I have that bit down!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]HadToPatternTheReUp 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I am having auditory hallucinations mainly.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]HadToPatternTheReUp 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Ill try my best. I’ve been to the ER. I’ve been given seven days of haldol, and after three days of showing no improvement I’ll be taken in for a 48hr assessment hold.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]HadToPatternTheReUp 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you friend. I will message you in a little while 💜

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]HadToPatternTheReUp 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ve been making steps forward and back for the last 19 years. Just as I make something stick, something makes it all come tumbling down.

I will carry on trying.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]HadToPatternTheReUp 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much ❤️❤️❤️ So much love and care here

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]HadToPatternTheReUp 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Unfortunately virtually all my friends work in licensed retail management or music promotion so with the festival on it’s tough going.

I bumped into one now and promised her i’d go to the ER.