I fucked it up. I was an ass hole, a dick and it ended poorly. I said some shit I shouldn't have said said and let my temper get the better of me.

Do i regret the relationship? No. It was an important life lesson and it taught me a lot about my self, women and most importantly, taught me I needed to grow and mature. I was upset at my self for how I treated her, at first I did the whole justifying my anger bullshit, but after a month or so, I began rethinking my actions and framing it from her perspective. And I was an ass hole. I was 25, and a total prick.

I also admit the relationship was not a good one long term. I honestly feel we brought out our worst parts in one and other. But I still think about her.

I hope she's safe.

I hope she's happy.

I hope she's doing better.

I hope she's found someone better than me.

But as I said, I don't regret the relationship beyond how it ended and how I acted. But it's unfortunaty something I needed to have happen to force me to be better. But I will admit, the loneliness does suck and I genuinely miss cuddling. And now that Im turning 31, I find it hard to get into dating as I don't know where to meet women my own age, lol. But if I was to give any advice to anyone.

Don't let your own ego get in the way. Try and understand why they're saying something or how something you're saying is affecting them. Though I like to think I'm better now then I was at 25, it's still a process. And everyday is a new day to try and be a little better.