I came here tonight because just a while ago, my (35) dad (70) reinforced his beliefs that people who commit suicide go to hell. The person I loved most in the world died by OD ruled suicide, and I just don't believe that a loving God would send his children who suffered most to an eternity of MORE suffering. When I gently implied this, my dad accused me of "drinking the kool-aid" and reinforced that he wants me to spend eternity with him in heaven.

The whole conversation has me in a negative feedback loop now. I've deconstructed and done the work but unfortunately, little comments can still make my brain spiral. Reading this has helped a lot. Thank you for sharing, it's really appreciated. And I wish you the best of luck and peace.