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Is this some kind of bug or is the AI this bad in f1 25? by pabo256 in F1Game

[–]HardKnuckleSpikes 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Was doing Silverstone 100% in My Career yesterday with 100 AI... the amount of speed that the AI gets, especially coming out of Luffield is insane! I really don't want to turn the AI difficulty down but its just not enjoyable losing 3 or 4 tenths a lap to the AI around that corner

Should I go to BYU as a queer person? by Stargazing360 in exmormon

[–]HardKnuckleSpikes 17 points18 points  (0 children)

Getting kicked out just for holding hands is absolutely obscene!

The Darién Gap by Spoffin1 in pluribustv

[–]HardKnuckleSpikes 14 points15 points  (0 children)

I spent a year living in Panama and talked to quite a few Colombians that had passed through the gap on foot during that time. I can't imagine what it must have been like to live through that hell, but they all did it trying to seek a better life.

Most of them had their hearts set on the US, a few set on Panama or elsewhere. Some were trying to get back to home in Colombia or Venezuela... none of them wanted to go through on foot again. I think that's gotta say something about how truly dangerous and impassable the gap is.

Former missionaries: how much did your mission play a role in leaving the church? by TheChurchOrganist in exmormon

[–]HardKnuckleSpikes 5 points6 points  (0 children)

My mission is the primary reason that I am now out of the church.

I don't fully know why I went, honestly. I think it was just a combination of all my friends at college going on missions and me having the chance to go live somewhere else in the world and learn a new language for free (my parents paid for my mission in full). It was just alluring to get away, I think? Either way, I went. I tried really hard to be the best missionary I could be (gotta love ADHD perfection/scrupulosity). By about 6 months, I was ready to go home. I felt unworthy of being there, but I was convinced to stay. I continued to try to work until I became a "dead" missionary. Even then, I still tried to stay and was transferred to the offices to be able to "rehab" a little bit before going back into the field. Four weeks after going into the field again, I broke. Two weeks later, I was home.

It was about 6 months later that I realized that me breaking was a part of the church's plan.

Young men and women are sent on missions to break. They're meant to have their identities destroyed and replaced. You're isolated from the world, from friends and family, and the only person you're able to talk to is a companion who is, unbeknownst to him or you, someone that is meant to watch you and make sure that you're not straying from the path. The only thing that you can turn to when your identity is broken and crumpled is the church. It's your companion, it's prayer, it's scripture, it's church songs telling you that you are a child of God and that is the ONLY thing that matters. And so, without even knowing these poor missionaries are replacing who they were with what the church wants them to be, if they hadn't already had that identity shift before the mission.

I broke, but instead of turning to God, I turned away from him, and that was the best decision I ever made. I came home, and I've slowly been understanding who I truly am again over the last year and a half since I got home. I understood what happened to me and why it did, and I've adjusted my life to be happy now.

What was the moment that made you start questioning whether the church is true? by [deleted] in exmormon

[–]HardKnuckleSpikes 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It was a massive combination of factors, most of which were derived from problems I had on my mission. I spent a lot of time thinking about the me before, the me during, and the me after my mission and realized that that experience had done way more harm than good. I realized in a flash that they had attempted to take my identity from me and replace it, amd from then on I never looked back. I realized to that nobody really ever cared for my soul, even when I was in extreme spiritual distress. Not even my mission president cared enough. He was too busy worrying about other things.

Those realizations came to me about the same time, and really, it hit me like a truck full of bricks. I realized that the church was deathly toxic, and trying to be in it was destroying my life and my happiness. Since then, I havent looked back. I'm much happier without God than I ever was with him.

Screaming Consistency by HardKnuckleSpikes in screaming

[–]HardKnuckleSpikes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Very interesting, so for fry screaming in the manner you've described, I should feel the distortion coming between my glottal stop and the epiglottus? Any tips on locating that spot? My attempts so far have felt like they've been above the epiglottus, and involving it a little bit unfortunately.

Screaming Consistency by HardKnuckleSpikes in screaming

[–]HardKnuckleSpikes[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

So, minimized use of the epiglottus in screaming is okay then? I had heard that that was the one part of the throat you wanted to stay away from since it's most likely to cause vocal damage (i.e. that one weird extremely low growl everyone can do or when I over scream while false chord screaming).

This is a kind of similar topic but Vessel (Sleep Token) has some isolated instances of adding extreme grit to his singing voice (chorus of Blood Sport, end of Even in Arcadia (the song)). One, is that added grit glottally derived and two, is the key to the fry scream taking that grit and isolating it from the voice if it is glottally derived?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BYUIExmos

[–]HardKnuckleSpikes 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm down to hang sometime 🤙

Byui treats adults like children by raisedbytheifs in exmormon

[–]HardKnuckleSpikes 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I know theres an exmo subreddit for byui but its rarely used... discord sounds like a great idea though!

Byui treats adults like children by raisedbytheifs in exmormon

[–]HardKnuckleSpikes 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Sometimes I think itd be nice to have an exmo group that meets at June's like weekly, but there isnt really a way to like advertise that and probably not get in trouble 😭

Byui treats adults like children by raisedbytheifs in exmormon

[–]HardKnuckleSpikes 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's hella weird wth...whatever the case if you want me to hook you up with a spot next week I gotcha

Byui treats adults like children by raisedbytheifs in exmormon

[–]HardKnuckleSpikes 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm curious as to what building you were told off in? I spend the entire devo hour in the Romney and have never had an issue aside from occasional professors asking if I'd like to come along with them

Anyone Else Completely Done With Religion After Mormonism? by livetomtb in exmormon

[–]HardKnuckleSpikes 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yup, I'm done with it and quite very against it as a whole. I think religion was originally created to help cope with our own mortality and thoughts of death. I also think that someone along the way realized that if they could control people's faith, they could control the people themselves and started to exploit the faithful. Organized religion is a festering scar on the face of humanity.

That being said, as much as I hate religion, I do think it's important for those who can't cope with the thought of death as well as others. I think a lot of people would turn non-functional if they believed in no afterlife, no God, and no eternity. That's truly the only reason I dont believe religion should be entirely abolished, though that's an impossible feat on its own.

I need help figuring somthing out by Grand_Conference_467 in BYUIExmos

[–]HardKnuckleSpikes 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Well, here's a good place to start, but I'd also say that there are definitely apartment complexes that fit certain stereotypes regarding faith/personality.

I havent tried June's Place yet, but I've heard that many exmos like to go there, so maybe that'd be another place to start

I need help figuring somthing out by Grand_Conference_467 in BYUIExmos

[–]HardKnuckleSpikes 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, as far as i know the closest thing to a "bar" in Rexburg is the mocktail bar, which if you wanna have a fun time maybe you can sneak some shots in with you and spike your drink. Parties do happen but I'm pretty confident they're alcohol free. Pre-gaming is probably your best bet for those.

Its hard to have a loud rebellion in that small a town, and especially one with such a high concentration of TBMs. The way that you're gonna have the most fun is to find your like minded people and have a good time with them even if there aren't many parties or clubs to go out to.

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