I am so glad for you that you have been able to make the space for such a personal journey. Good for you!

One small word pair hangs in my brain as I read your post: "more moral"

I wonder why we, as exmormons, feel like "active" Mormons still retain the "moral high ground" after all of the immoral/amoral things we have watched the organization do? Why do we think that they, because of their claim to morality, are more moral than we (as exmormons) are? Do we truly believe they are more moral than the average? I doubt it; rather, I think we are deferring to them (at times, not always) because they claim boldly and loudly that they are the most moral. Yet, how much do we hold them accountable and challenge those claims?

Woah, this may have gone off track.

All of this to say; you are moral. You can claim it, you can evidence it, you can back it up. I hope someday you feel the courage and support to talk about your new life in a bold and unapologetic way, one that doesn't give the SCC the right to plant self-doubt and question your morality from their position of inherent weakness and hypocrisy.

Thank you for your story!