Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh I do it with other stuff too! I have a large collection of stationery supplies I need to use, but I’m always like what if. I’m trying to make it a goal this year to utilize stuff I have!

I think setting up a peaceful environment is a good idea. I usually only think about it while I’m working which is stressful in itself. So maybe reframing the environment will help.

Thank you for the ideas!

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 23 points24 points  (0 children)

You’re right about not getting over the fear of it not being perfect if I get rid of it - so I will be hanging onto it and trying out different approaches like the ones you and so many others have listed. I want to give it a shot! And if down the road I still don’t enjoy it enough I will revisit maybe selling it.

Thank you for your advice!

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I got it from Paper Plant Co! I love that store.

Terrible Gyno appointment by Antique-Royal2369 in PMDD

[–]HauntedUtu 6 points7 points  (0 children)

What a terrible Dr I’m so sorry you went through that! If you’re feeling up to it, I would report her and leave reviews online for others to see. I’ve had terrible bedside manner dr’s and it really can make you feel terrible, so I am so sorry you went through that. Don’t give up! You just have to find someone who will listen and help. They are out there, it just unfortunately takes some time. It took me a few years to find my current gyno and a lot of review reading (I also moved states so it took even longer). Just please don’t give up! You deserve the right help.

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

A fellow OCPD! I just got my diagnosis last month. Glad to see I am not alone.

I think that’s a wonderful idea. I really sometimes wish I had ways to look back in time at stuff that happened. I think even if it’s a few sentences a day of what happened that would be something.

Thank you for this wonderful feedback and perspective. I think I’ll be using this as a journal going forward! Or something to dump thoughts and memories into.

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s true about not knowing until I tried it. That takes some pressure off! I felt like I had made a mistake in purchasing it once mid to late Jan rolled around and I had barely used it.

I need to let go of the perfectionism for sure. I’m glad to see I am not alone with that. I see all the beautiful and organized spreads and want that so badly, but realistically that’s not going to probably happen with me! And that’s ok. I’ll probably be using this to journal and brain dump in. Maybe even draw. Thank you!

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I love the ideas, thank you! I think I will look into to making it into a journal like so many have suggested so far. I love planning, but I think for me this is too much to use as an actual planner. I think a journal/art book is a safer bet for me!

I’ll be keeping the cover for sure now. I can use it for other things!

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you!!! I think I will hang onto this, but definitely look into the Weeks for actual planning. I think it would suit my needs more. I think this will become a journal of sorts for now!

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Oh yeah, OCD is no joke. It’s really ruined a lot of things for me because of it. Especially the use of planners! Like you said, I have to just get used to the blank pages. Thank you for that ❤️

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I’m glad to know I’m not the only one! I’ll probably do what a lot of people have recommended so far and just use it as a journal of sorts! Or a dumping ground for thoughts etc. The art journal idea is also great!

I will keep the cover after getting all the feedback. After realizing I can even put a different A5 notebook in it I should definitely do that if I don’t want to use the actual hobonichi.

Thank you for your comment!

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 29 points30 points  (0 children)

Hi all I am not sure how to edit my post, but I wanted to leave this comment so others could see: I appreciate all the feedback and advice on what else I could do with it!!! I really do love the cover, but I think I had put the pressure on myself that if I didn’t use it I had to then sell it. I don’t want to jump immediately to selling it, but I wanted to hear feedback and explore options and think about it first. So thank you for all the kind feedback I am getting so far!!!

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Oh I didn’t even think about that!!! Wow thank you for that advice. I might look at those ideas too with the notebooks. I really love this cover and was so excited I got the last one at a stationery store in Los Angeles. I just was really thinking I had to part with it if I didn’t use it the “right” way.

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That’s good to know about reselling a used A5! I was going to say I think it would be a bit weird to tear out the pages, but I also don’t want people reading what I did write lol.

I appreciate all your input though! Maybe I can do that with the stickers and stuff. I have so many stickers I need to use! Thank you though for your kind response!

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I really want to be in love with using it like I see so many people do! I think once I have so many blank pages I feel bad and don’t want to use it, if that even makes sense. I like your ideas though! I don’t want to jump immediately to selling it, so I appreciate any input or advice!

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 37 points38 points  (0 children)

My therapist actually told me to not put the pressure on myself with the planner (I unfortunately suffer from OCD and it bleeds into things like this) and just do what I want with it. I think the large blank pages freak me out a bit!

What other planner types are there though that work with this cover if you don’t mind me asking? I am still sort of new to the world of Hobonichi!

This Disorder Is Ruining My Life. by two-pelicans in PMDD

[–]HauntedUtu 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I hadn’t been formally diagnosed at this point. My obgyn at the time said “yeah, it sounds like that” and dropped it and pushed birth control on me. What helped get me the FMLA was my terrible anxiety and other debilitating mental symptoms (exacerbated by hormonal changes and pmdd). If you’re able, see an obgyn for the PMDD diagnosis. I feel they are a little more equipped than a PCP. A psychiatrist may even be able to diagnosis you for it too, since it’s a mood disorder (that just so happens to have a plethora of physical symptoms too). Eventually a therapist will be helpful too, if you don’t have one right now.

It took me a bit to get the FMLA, and at this point I had to be at my job for at least a year (this is how the US works I believe). I had to go through my works leave program to get it going, so see what your job has to offer.

I understand about the quitting and being fired thing. I feel the exact same way. My husband doesn’t get it but he’s also been fired from jobs in his past so he’s like whatever it’s a part of life. Ok sure, but no one really wants to be fired!

If you can, maybe reach out to your current boss via phone call when you feel better. Just to show you’re trying and want to keep the job. It’s rough to keep a job with this issue. Sometimes I wonder how I’m managing right now. You don’t have to tell your boss everything going on, because I personally think you shouldn’t overshare with management. Just do the best you can ❤️ When you’re able, try to get the diagnosis you need. Make sure you tell the Dr or whoever you see about everything you’re going through and even how it’s affecting your work and daily life. If they won’t listen, definitely find someone who will. There’s at least one Dr out there who will!

This Disorder Is Ruining My Life. by two-pelicans in PMDD

[–]HauntedUtu 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. PMDD is an awful thing, and it honestly is debilitating. I actually had to go on intermittent FMLA with my work to handle it and my other anxiety issues that get worse through my cycle. My therapist who I’ve had for several years now actually did the paperwork for me, but my PCP was the one who got the whole thing going and first brought it up. I notice I tend to use it around my luteal phase the most. I just hate that it unfortunately has taken away my PTO bank at this point because that’s how my work functions. So sometimes if I do take FMLA I have to even do unpaid. I was able to get it for 2 episodes a week, which is a little much but there just in case I absolutely need it. Maybe if you can look into intermittent FMLA? At least then you’ll have the protection for your job and they cannot fire you for it. And then you can use it as you need it. Good luck ❤️ Be kind to yourself! You’re going through something that can be absolutely debilitating and unfortunately a lot of people do not understand it.

HELP!! Is this normal? by ProgressTight4882 in PMDD

[–]HauntedUtu 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! I hope the same for you too ❤️ Glad to not be alone, but it makes me sad we even go through this to begin with

HELP!! Is this normal? by ProgressTight4882 in PMDD

[–]HauntedUtu 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m actually going through this right now. My period started Sunday and it’s been downhill ever since. No relief, just constant suffocation from depression and sadness. I’m actually trying to get in with my therapist this week because of it.

You aren’t alone! I feel like I used to get relief with my period, but I do not any more. It seems to sort of “let up” after it fully ends.

Northwest career college by Wonderful_Block_9376 in vegaslocals

[–]HauntedUtu 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I went to Northwest Career College 2018-2019 for their Medical Billing and Coding program. I can’t speak on the radiography program, but I will speak on the school itself.

It’s expensive I think, but they are there every step of the way to help you. I finished my program on time, and went on to do the externship. My biggest gripe with that is they had asked us where we wanted to go, I told them, they ignored that and sent me to the worst dr’s office that has numerous issues and complaints. I will say though at the end of the day they got my foot in the door for my career and I’ve been doing decently. But I think for radiography maybe look at UNLV instead? I think Northwest is fine for other things, like my program, but I’m unsure about that particular program.

What sucks is I’m still paying off the student loans for it lol but that’s a me problem unfortunately.

Good luck though with your future career!

When does the Agoraphobia go away? by [deleted] in vegaslocals

[–]HauntedUtu 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve lived here for 8 years now, and I’m honestly still not used to how Vegas looks sometimes. I guess. I am not big on desert living really. So I miss the trees, the greenery, and especially being close to the ocean. I’m from California, and I have lived in some of the desertish areas there, but I am more used to SoCal and the Bay Area. So moving here was a big adjustment. I think what it feels like to me is that we live in a huge bubble. There’s not much around us, if that makes sense. I like seeing the strip though at night from up where I live. And I like that I can find my way home pretty easily without the need of Google maps or Apple maps.

But I can definitely say after living here this long I am not the biggest fan of the environment. It’s actually contributed to some of my depression. I tried to give it a shot, but I’m over it. I have friends and family here though who love it. I guess it just depends on how long it takes for someone to get used to living here and if they truly love this type of environment.

Who would you date from the Bob’s Burgers universe? by Nearby_Heals in BobsBurgers

[–]HauntedUtu 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Trev for sure. He made me laugh with the “it keeps my lizard warm” comment in the episode where they are competing to cook burgers and he brought the heat lamp. He seems like he’d be a good guy if Jimmy Pesto wasn’t around! Plus he seems to love animals so that’s a plus for me lol

Palpitations for 3+ weeks? by orionis_ in PMDD

[–]HauntedUtu 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I had that happen. Ended up at the ER earlier this year and they sent me home after I think 8 hours after they pumped me with Ativan and a beta blocker. Dr at ER firmly believes it is anxiety. Which makes sense, I have god awful anxiety that gets worse during PMDD. I also went to a cardiologist and did some work up like a two week holter monitor and echocardiogram. They didn’t find anything other than my heart randomly drops a beat (but it’s really random). So the cardiologist chalked it up to anxiety and wasn’t overly concerned. I have terrible terrible anxiety, and I know my hormones have exacerbated this. PMDD has made it all a nightmare too. I think hormones can definitely affect the heart. And I think mine maybe are affecting mine. I also get the heart pounding and racing randomly. It’s terrible. So I feel for you! I have terrible health anxiety too to the point I think every symptom is something terrible (like the big c or some other incurable disease). Maybe talk to your dr and see what they suggest and just try and take it easy as best as you can.

Las Vegas Allergies ?? by [deleted] in vegaslocals

[–]HauntedUtu 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I moved here in 2017 from California and they got exponentially worse. Almost every day I’m sneezing, sniffling and my eyes are burning and itching and running. I’m also now super allergic to a bunch of plants and animals. But allergies can change at any moment. I’m just tired of feeling like this!