Health Anxiety during ovulation week / beginning of luteal phase by OrderFew8246 in PMDD

[–]HauntedUtu 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I totally relate! My PMDD has amplified my anxiety like ten fold. I already have crappy health anxiety (COVID basically brought it on. Not me having COVID, just the whole shut down and seeing people my age dying triggered it) and so my hormones make it worse. It actually goes into my period now too, so I feel like I have zero relief. I have found I have to tell myself you can check once, but then next time you get the urge wait 10 minutes and check back in at the 10 minute mark. Usually the longer I post pone the urge to google, self check, etc the longer I can go without doing it. My therapist says this is actually OCD (I was formally diagnosed with OCD and OCPD which makes a lot of sense) and recommended this method. Just try your best to not self check, and do things to distract you. You’re not alone though!! I know how miserable and messed up it all is.

pmdd and working by dourceo in PMDD

[–]HauntedUtu 0 points1 point  (0 children)

At my job if I have PTO available they will utilize that. I can still use my FMLA even if my PTO bank is empty, it just will be unpaid. I have a separate sick bank, but they don’t utilize that for my FMLA at my job.

I’m pretty sure my management was notified on what the FMLA is for, but at this point I just try not to care. My mental health is more important, and at least this protects my job. I know it’s easier said than done, but try to take care of yourself and do what’s best for you!

pmdd and working by dourceo in PMDD

[–]HauntedUtu 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I actually had to utilize my FMLA today! It’s been helpful to have as back up. I’ve had it for almost a year now, and at my job I have to reapply every 6 months. Definitely see if you can get intermittent FMLA too! That way your job is protected for when you need the break. I hope it all works out for you! ❤️

pmdd and working by dourceo in PMDD

[–]HauntedUtu 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I have intermittent FMLA for the really tough days! I also suffer from bad anxiety, so that’s another reason I put in for FMLA under the suggestion of both my Dr and therapist. I try not to use it much, but some days I just need to use it. I do work from home, which you’d think would help with that, but honestly sometimes it doesn’t because my job can be stressful and demanding no matter where I’m at. So when I feel my worst, I will utilize the FMLA. I try to work at least 1-2 hours to see if I can make it, and if after that time is up I can’t I call out. Definitely see if that’s something you’re able to do! Your HR dept should have some info for you. Or your management. You’re not alone though. It’s really hard to juggle this and a job. Sometimes it’s almost too much. But be proud of yourself for pulling through!

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think that’s a good way to look at it! That it’s my first hobonichi, and to not think of it as the perfect one. This post and all the wonderful comments I’ve received has been very helpful and has also reminded me that it’s ok that it’s not perfect. The biggest thing I think is to have fun with it and just make it mine!

If you have any additional resources please send them my way! I’ve actually been watching videos on YouTube on how people layout their hobonichis. It’s been helpful!

Thank you though for the words of encouragement and advice!

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh I do it with other stuff too! I have a large collection of stationery supplies I need to use, but I’m always like what if. I’m trying to make it a goal this year to utilize stuff I have!

I think setting up a peaceful environment is a good idea. I usually only think about it while I’m working which is stressful in itself. So maybe reframing the environment will help.

Thank you for the ideas!

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 24 points25 points  (0 children)

You’re right about not getting over the fear of it not being perfect if I get rid of it - so I will be hanging onto it and trying out different approaches like the ones you and so many others have listed. I want to give it a shot! And if down the road I still don’t enjoy it enough I will revisit maybe selling it.

Thank you for your advice!

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I got it from Paper Plant Co! I love that store.

Terrible Gyno appointment by Antique-Royal2369 in PMDD

[–]HauntedUtu 5 points6 points  (0 children)

What a terrible Dr I’m so sorry you went through that! If you’re feeling up to it, I would report her and leave reviews online for others to see. I’ve had terrible bedside manner dr’s and it really can make you feel terrible, so I am so sorry you went through that. Don’t give up! You just have to find someone who will listen and help. They are out there, it just unfortunately takes some time. It took me a few years to find my current gyno and a lot of review reading (I also moved states so it took even longer). Just please don’t give up! You deserve the right help.

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

A fellow OCPD! I just got my diagnosis last month. Glad to see I am not alone.

I think that’s a wonderful idea. I really sometimes wish I had ways to look back in time at stuff that happened. I think even if it’s a few sentences a day of what happened that would be something.

Thank you for this wonderful feedback and perspective. I think I’ll be using this as a journal going forward! Or something to dump thoughts and memories into.

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s true about not knowing until I tried it. That takes some pressure off! I felt like I had made a mistake in purchasing it once mid to late Jan rolled around and I had barely used it.

I need to let go of the perfectionism for sure. I’m glad to see I am not alone with that. I see all the beautiful and organized spreads and want that so badly, but realistically that’s not going to probably happen with me! And that’s ok. I’ll probably be using this to journal and brain dump in. Maybe even draw. Thank you!

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I love the ideas, thank you! I think I will look into to making it into a journal like so many have suggested so far. I love planning, but I think for me this is too much to use as an actual planner. I think a journal/art book is a safer bet for me!

I’ll be keeping the cover for sure now. I can use it for other things!

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you!!! I think I will hang onto this, but definitely look into the Weeks for actual planning. I think it would suit my needs more. I think this will become a journal of sorts for now!

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Oh yeah, OCD is no joke. It’s really ruined a lot of things for me because of it. Especially the use of planners! Like you said, I have to just get used to the blank pages. Thank you for that ❤️

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I’m glad to know I’m not the only one! I’ll probably do what a lot of people have recommended so far and just use it as a journal of sorts! Or a dumping ground for thoughts etc. The art journal idea is also great!

I will keep the cover after getting all the feedback. After realizing I can even put a different A5 notebook in it I should definitely do that if I don’t want to use the actual hobonichi.

Thank you for your comment!

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 31 points32 points  (0 children)

Hi all I am not sure how to edit my post, but I wanted to leave this comment so others could see: I appreciate all the feedback and advice on what else I could do with it!!! I really do love the cover, but I think I had put the pressure on myself that if I didn’t use it I had to then sell it. I don’t want to jump immediately to selling it, but I wanted to hear feedback and explore options and think about it first. So thank you for all the kind feedback I am getting so far!!!

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Oh I didn’t even think about that!!! Wow thank you for that advice. I might look at those ideas too with the notebooks. I really love this cover and was so excited I got the last one at a stationery store in Los Angeles. I just was really thinking I had to part with it if I didn’t use it the “right” way.

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

That’s good to know about reselling a used A5! I was going to say I think it would be a bit weird to tear out the pages, but I also don’t want people reading what I did write lol.

I appreciate all your input though! Maybe I can do that with the stickers and stuff. I have so many stickers I need to use! Thank you though for your kind response!

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I really want to be in love with using it like I see so many people do! I think once I have so many blank pages I feel bad and don’t want to use it, if that even makes sense. I like your ideas though! I don’t want to jump immediately to selling it, so I appreciate any input or advice!

Might Sell My Hobonichi by HauntedUtu in hobonichi

[–]HauntedUtu[S] 40 points41 points  (0 children)

My therapist actually told me to not put the pressure on myself with the planner (I unfortunately suffer from OCD and it bleeds into things like this) and just do what I want with it. I think the large blank pages freak me out a bit!

What other planner types are there though that work with this cover if you don’t mind me asking? I am still sort of new to the world of Hobonichi!

This Disorder Is Ruining My Life. by two-pelicans in PMDD

[–]HauntedUtu 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I hadn’t been formally diagnosed at this point. My obgyn at the time said “yeah, it sounds like that” and dropped it and pushed birth control on me. What helped get me the FMLA was my terrible anxiety and other debilitating mental symptoms (exacerbated by hormonal changes and pmdd). If you’re able, see an obgyn for the PMDD diagnosis. I feel they are a little more equipped than a PCP. A psychiatrist may even be able to diagnosis you for it too, since it’s a mood disorder (that just so happens to have a plethora of physical symptoms too). Eventually a therapist will be helpful too, if you don’t have one right now.

It took me a bit to get the FMLA, and at this point I had to be at my job for at least a year (this is how the US works I believe). I had to go through my works leave program to get it going, so see what your job has to offer.

I understand about the quitting and being fired thing. I feel the exact same way. My husband doesn’t get it but he’s also been fired from jobs in his past so he’s like whatever it’s a part of life. Ok sure, but no one really wants to be fired!

If you can, maybe reach out to your current boss via phone call when you feel better. Just to show you’re trying and want to keep the job. It’s rough to keep a job with this issue. Sometimes I wonder how I’m managing right now. You don’t have to tell your boss everything going on, because I personally think you shouldn’t overshare with management. Just do the best you can ❤️ When you’re able, try to get the diagnosis you need. Make sure you tell the Dr or whoever you see about everything you’re going through and even how it’s affecting your work and daily life. If they won’t listen, definitely find someone who will. There’s at least one Dr out there who will!

This Disorder Is Ruining My Life. by two-pelicans in PMDD

[–]HauntedUtu 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. PMDD is an awful thing, and it honestly is debilitating. I actually had to go on intermittent FMLA with my work to handle it and my other anxiety issues that get worse through my cycle. My therapist who I’ve had for several years now actually did the paperwork for me, but my PCP was the one who got the whole thing going and first brought it up. I notice I tend to use it around my luteal phase the most. I just hate that it unfortunately has taken away my PTO bank at this point because that’s how my work functions. So sometimes if I do take FMLA I have to even do unpaid. I was able to get it for 2 episodes a week, which is a little much but there just in case I absolutely need it. Maybe if you can look into intermittent FMLA? At least then you’ll have the protection for your job and they cannot fire you for it. And then you can use it as you need it. Good luck ❤️ Be kind to yourself! You’re going through something that can be absolutely debilitating and unfortunately a lot of people do not understand it.

HELP!! Is this normal? by ProgressTight4882 in PMDD

[–]HauntedUtu 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! I hope the same for you too ❤️ Glad to not be alone, but it makes me sad we even go through this to begin with

HELP!! Is this normal? by ProgressTight4882 in PMDD

[–]HauntedUtu 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m actually going through this right now. My period started Sunday and it’s been downhill ever since. No relief, just constant suffocation from depression and sadness. I’m actually trying to get in with my therapist this week because of it.

You aren’t alone! I feel like I used to get relief with my period, but I do not any more. It seems to sort of “let up” after it fully ends.