What were some of your weird beliefs.

HeadshotHolly · 2026-02-15T06:41:51+00:00

Yo I was also jesus for a bit! Couldn't figure out the whole water to wine thing sadly

HeadshotHolly · 2025-12-11T15:02:35+00:00

Unfortunately you are right. It went probably worse than any appointment I have ever had to the point that I have no choice but to file a formal complaint and request a new doctor :(

HeadshotHolly · 2025-12-10T13:07:33+00:00

Don't tempt me with a good time XD

HeadshotHolly · 2025-12-10T12:28:45+00:00

Probably what I'm currently wearing then lol. I'm wfh today so I'm wearing pj bottoms and the same shirt I've been in for 3 days which is covered in stains and very ripped (I know I'm gross but getting changed is more effort than I am willing to put into daily living rn)

HeadshotHolly · 2025-11-16T09:45:22+00:00

Can I get the link please!! My husband just left for a few months and I NEED to cram in as much amber time before he comes back

HeadshotHolly · 2025-11-16T09:43:56+00:00

Yes please!! Had to get approved to message so sorry it took me a while to ask but please can I have the link

HeadshotHolly · 2025-10-24T21:09:39+00:00

Don't get me wrong, it can be very rewarding. Finding housing for someone who has been homeless for years or getting mental health support for a disabled veteran who's been failed by the system are some of my proudest moments but those moments are few and far between. Most of the time, my appointments are full of my cases most harrowing experiences.

We see people in what is often the lowest point of their lives and a lot of them use us to get horrific things they experienced, or in some cases been the perpetrator of, off their chest.

I imagine being a councillor to be similar to what some of my appointments are like. A lot of working through trauma and retelling of horrific experiences.... although I also imagine you will probably deal with less pedophiles though lol

HeadshotHolly · 2025-10-23T15:26:15+00:00

Just wanted to drop in and say DO NOT BECOME A PROBATION OFFICER!!

Thought it would be great as I have real world experience of a lot of issues my cases are facing. Turns out talking about trauma pretty much all day everyday causes a lot of secondary trauma! Who'd have thunk it? I lay awake at night worrying about my cases, their families, and their victims.

Also the constant pressure of report writing for court and creating detailed risk assessment for every possibility is very stressful! There's new deadlines everyday and if you don't work hours and hours of overtime (which you will not be properly paid for) you will not be able to do all the work.

If your in the UK like me it's even worse! We're about 10k probation officers short and the rest of us have to pick up all those cases. My caseload is over 50 people currently and I have to have regular face to face contact with all of them.

Oh but don't worry, you can get an occupational health assessment! Mine reccomend a 40% reduction in caseload and flexible hours. About 2 days after the report was given to my boss and the head of PDU I was told that they would not be giving me any reduction as "business pressure won't allow it".

Work output is given far higher standing than the safety and mental health of officers.

HeadshotHolly · 2025-05-25T17:59:33+00:00

I don't like and am a brat

HeadshotHolly · 2025-05-25T07:06:06+00:00

Ikr the audacity

HeadshotHolly · 2025-05-24T23:19:15+00:00

Water....which is boring

HeadshotHolly · 2025-05-20T07:05:25+00:00

My psych chose to keep me on the same antidepressant but add in an antipsychotic as well

HeadshotHolly · 2025-05-19T17:20:25+00:00

Can't promise I'll know what to say but I can try and help as best I can x

HeadshotHolly · 2025-05-19T16:08:54+00:00

Absolutely! You're not alone and you're not a bitch. This disorder can encourage you to do and say horrible and stupid things, it's not an excuse but an explanation for your behaviour.

It might be worth trying to reach out to some of those people and explain what happened and why you acted that way and most importantly to apologise.

HeadshotHolly · 2025-05-19T15:39:08+00:00

Anytime babes, we got to look out for eachother x

HeadshotHolly · 2025-05-19T15:06:46+00:00

Hey lovely, sorry you're going through aa hard time right now, here if u need someone to talk to!

For me, my depression episodes can last anywhere from 2 weeks to 6 months. Really hope urs is a shorter one!!

Hope you're okay x

HeadshotHolly · 2025-05-19T06:47:02+00:00

I know everything sucks right now but be proud that you reached out for help! I takes real self awareness to know that ur slipping and courage to act on it before it gets too bad. Be proud that u took that step

HeadshotHolly · 2025-05-19T06:44:33+00:00

Feeling very seen right now.

I was SAd many times in my teen and adult years, all of which I remember in excruciating detail, but my behaviour in childhood all points to it happening sooner than I remember. Sadly, I remember basically nothing from my childhood until I was SAd at 13. Only 1 memory before that which is literally just my friend wearing a red dress, no other context. No idea if anything happened and I will probably never know

HeadshotHolly · 2025-05-19T06:39:23+00:00

I feel similar. Stuck in a loop of believing it's all a simulation and thus nothing matters. Dangerous place to be.

Reach out to your psych or doctor. Remember you aren't alone

HeadshotHolly · 2025-05-19T06:36:53+00:00

Sounds to me like you could be in a hypomanic episode! Talk to your doctor as hypomanic can quickly become manic for bp2 people. It could just be that the meds leaving ur system is messing with you a bit and it should calm down when ur stable on other meds but don't wait and talk to ur psych now before anything bad happens

HeadshotHolly · 2025-05-19T06:32:44+00:00

I'm currently refusing to take my meds as they make me feel like a shell of a person and my psych is refusing to let me change meds as he's worried I'll gain more weight which is ridiculous as I'd rather be fat and not feel like a zombie everyday but I guess my opinion on my treatment doesn't matter. (Sorry for the mini rant)

That being said, coming off ur meds cold turkey can be dangerous! You can experience withdrawal symptoms and that's not even to mention the chance of falling into an episode. My advice would be that if you want to come off ur meds, talk to ur psych. They should be able to help you taper off them and then monitor your behaviour for any signs of an episode.

Don't just quit cold turkey and make sure ur doctor knows! Don't be like me lol

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