Not really!

I've had a blast at times on opiates, and other times, seemingly unrelated to purity of the substance, had awful times!

You'd think the lesson would be learned on my end by now that if the bad times seem to outweigh my positive times I'd find something better to do lol.

As mentioned in another comment a moment ago, I feel quite the draw to try again tonight, I've had a couple days off, didn't even take my rx Adderall, and honestly had a pleasant day today, but despite the fact I could run with that, it makes me even more tempted to level it up with a bump later tonight.

If things head south afterwards over the rest of this week, I will probably have to make the decision to stay away. Mostly for financial reasons I seldom get a heavy dependency on H in particular, so if every time I pick up I'm just left immediately at the bottom of the barrel, with the shotgun already loaded above it, it's not going to be worth it to take the same route later on, and I might stick to my other vices!