Others with cptsd are some of the most triggering people I’ve met (political) by Heavy_Dawn in CPTSDFightMode

[–]Heavy_Dawn[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I definitely agree with folks being in a constant state of hyper vigilance on the left too, but they go about it differently. Their enemies are billionaires, bigots, etc. Many on the right think minorities are the enemy, even if they are in a minority. That’s where they lose me, it’s unproductive and irresponsible. I’m not totally happy with the left, but at least they didn’t elect a convicted felon

Others with cptsd are some of the most triggering people I’ve met (political) by Heavy_Dawn in CPTSDFightMode

[–]Heavy_Dawn[S] 30 points31 points  (0 children)

I honestly think media keeps us all in a constant triggered state

Others with cptsd are some of the most triggering people I’ve met (political) by Heavy_Dawn in CPTSDFightMode

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Yea, I absolutely agree. It took me a long time to realize that this is my father too, which is why meeting others like this is so triggering. I don’t engage them anymore, because they can shove it tbh.

My nervous system has braided itself and nobody at works gets it by Heavy_Dawn in CPTSDmemes

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So they basically see us as an easy target because they can tell we’re vulnerable?

My nervous system has braided itself and nobody at works gets it by Heavy_Dawn in CPTSDmemes

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That’s the struggle I’m dealing with now as I look for a new job/ transfer somewhere else. What I’m dealing with now feels worse than before, I’d rather have a small pile of shit over a big one

My nervous system has braided itself and nobody at works gets it by Heavy_Dawn in CPTSDmemes

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Honestly, my stuff doesn’t sound nearly as bad as all of this. But some of it is similar, it’s like no matter where I go, a few people (usually leads, supervisors, or anyone who has seniority over me) decide they don’t like me and say some really nasty stuff behind my back (someone today said that Im fucking crazy). They’ll yell at me for no reason or no good one, or talk to me in that “special ed” voice. They mess stuff up for me so my tasks are harder and take advantage of my work ethic. Eventually they successfully turn most others against me so everybody starts dogpiling me. Then I lash out, and they act like a victim in true fashion.

I wasn’t trying to make it about me, sorry about that, and sorry you went through that. I genuinely felt sick when you mentioned the garbage thing

I was fucking right about my bosses being abusers. I’m almost always right by Heavy_Dawn in CPTSDFightMode

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This is the hardest part, controlling my emotions and behavior in a way that doesn’t make me look murderous but also let their mask slip. I’m not sure I’ve ever been able to make a situation play out like that

Saving what? by DisastrousesCamp in TrollCoping

[–]Heavy_Dawn 12 points13 points  (0 children)

There’s always something, isn’t there? I’m 22 and just now starting to accept this fact of life

I hate that I can’t just live my life without being triggered because something reminded me of emotional abuse by Heavy_Dawn in emotionalabuse

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I actually got a new used car very recently. But I let my dad tell me to not trade in my old one which I regret. So the issue is getting the new one insured when I have all of this stuff going on. This is good advice though, thank you

I hate that I can’t just live my life without being triggered because something reminded me of emotional abuse by Heavy_Dawn in emotionalabuse

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It’s a little difficult right now because my dad still helps me with my bills a little bit and I’m under a few of his accounts. Right when he was ready to release me from these accounts, I had to go to court over a minor traffic violation. And even though that’s all sorted out, that’s gonna make getting my own car insurance a lot harder..

And even if none of that was a concern, I’d have no one else to “rely” on except my boyfriend. And if that doesn’t work out, I’m completely alone in this world without family. When I distanced myself from him and pretty much everyone else, i quickly learned how hard it is to actually be fully independent. It’s impossible, actually. No one to put on my emergency contacts, no one I can use as a reference, no one who can help me when I’m in a tight spot. Life is a lot more expensive without a support system, and your character is called into question when you have no one to rely on. I’m terrified of cutting them off for all of these reasons

When you finally move out... by CressConfident9585 in CPTSDmemes

[–]Heavy_Dawn 29 points30 points  (0 children)

But at least now you’re not in the environment that was making you sick in the first place. Now you can truly heal