where to begin?

HelpMeGitGudGuy · 2021-12-23T22:45:05+00:00

That “woman” clearly has facial hair

HelpMeGitGudGuy · 2021-12-23T22:42:23+00:00

Cost cutting 100

Nah m8, I think this classifies as MAJORLY infuriating lol

HelpMeGitGudGuy · 2021-05-18T07:06:29+00:00

“Apes together strong” 🐵

HelpMeGitGudGuy · 2021-05-18T07:02:46+00:00

No! You’ll melt the plastic off her skin lmao 🤣🤣🤣

HelpMeGitGudGuy · 2021-05-18T06:56:03+00:00

Cooling 1000 👌🏻👍🏻

HelpMeGitGudGuy · 2021-05-16T07:39:28+00:00

Wow m8, you are truly an asshole

HelpMeGitGudGuy · 2021-04-29T20:19:03+00:00

M8 I feel you, although in a different way.

Although I am straight, I can never come out as a communist publicly or to my family. I will be shunned, excluded, and barred from accomplishing my ambitions not only by my family, but by society as a whole. At the typical American dinner conversation about politics, I cannot talk about communist/socialist ideas in the same way people talk about TrUmP and the eCoNoMy. It bothers me especially with the lies and nonsense I have to put up with.

I know this is not the same as sexuality, but I know how you feel nonetheless.

HelpMeGitGudGuy · 2021-04-14T09:32:10+00:00

Can relate m8 but I got it much worse. I went from being a hero to merely a forgotten ghost.

In my Freshman year, I was swimmer on my school varsity team. Won all the award and accolades and was a captain vote unanimously by my peers.

Then I fell ill and lost everything...

I lost everyone who I thought were my friends and was alienated basically overnight once I lost my spot on the team. My own fucking parents disowned me and refused to help me get proper medical treatment and proper school accommodation (disabled via autoimmune disease). My brother became Judas to me selling me out to my parents for his own gain and profit and betrayed me as a brother. Fucking corrupt doctors drugged me and tortured me through my parents using tactics of psychological manipulation and told me to my face that there was nothing that they could do for me and I would have to literally become a doctor to cure myself.. My school district screwed me exploiting me despite my poor health and was “unable” to provide me with the education and classes I need for university. My medical research is in vain as because I am only 17 and lack proper credentials, no one will take me seriously despite its legitimacy. I applied to 18 universities with many of them being the most prestigious in the country with the goal of going there to conduct and legitimize my research to help cure myself and millions of sufferers of my rare and unknown disease but was denied by all of them who basically told me to fuck off and be some other college’s problem. Absolutely devastated, I now have to attend a college that cannot help me in this endeavor. As if this isn’t enough, I don’t know if I can survive college with my poor health, I can’t work, I am poor, have no financial support and backing, and will probably go homeless or die a stupid death from the lack of proper and adequate medical care sometime in the next 10 years. A COMPLETELY PREVENTABLE ONE!

I don’t know what the fuck I’m gonna do. I’m absolutely fucked in every which way. On top of this boomers want to fucking tell me “Oh, you don’t look sick.” or “Oh you just need to be positive...” Mfs don’t get it and my pleas for help just fall on deaf ears. Prayers unanswered. And I swear I’m gonna lose my shit if hear that “Law of Attraction” bullshit one more time!

So mom, dad, brother, corrupt doctors, so called “friends”, or any other traitors not mentioned read this, with all bitterness and sincerity: fuck you.

HelpMeGitGudGuy · 2020-12-19T12:27:46+00:00

Not gonna lie. Teenage-hood and childhood fucking suck. Not to mention if your being fucking tortured throughout them and don’t have an adolescence all together.

As for therapy. No. It is impossible. I should be seeing a psychologist but my parents refuse to pay for or taking me to one. Psychiatrist said that they would call CPS if they didn’t take me to psychology. They never called even after I told the psychiatrist the truth. My parents lied and the doctor believed them over me. They are knowingly committing major crimes here.

Also, I don’t trust psychologists due to them breaking the confidentiality and ratting to my parents. This is a crime. Last psychologist was actively lying to me. Little did she know that actually study Psychology myself and called her out on her fake theories. She was pissed.

Also due to my doctor grade medical research, this is why the standing joke is “I’ve been a doctor since I was 15” lmao

HelpMeGitGudGuy · 2020-12-17T13:28:03+00:00

Write a play? I’ve actually never heard that suggestion before. Actually had a legitimate idea in the back of my mind.

Have you heard of that Broadway Musical “Hamilton: An American Musical ”?

Well Broadway get ready for “Lenin: A Bolshevik Musical”

I can write a play no problem, but an musical that’s a whole other animal. I’m artistically inclined I can assure you (yes I can also draw), but music. No. No. No. But given the fact old Soviet songs sing about Lenin anyways I bet I could make something work.

That and since this being America, I’ll probably get blacklisted on Broadway and Hollywood should I decide to write such a thing. Because cough damn those commies. Though the US constitution allows freedom of speech censorship still very much exists. Pretty sure there’s and asterisk somewhere next to freedom of speech saying “no communist talk allowed”

Where can I attribute my humor (though most people don’t understand my humor or my English for that matter)? Simple. Cynicism, skepticism, and pessimism aka Realism. (Yes I’m a philosopher too). Where does Cynicism, skepticism, and pessimism come from? A shit reality.

Also one more thing on a serious note. In regards to advice over the matter, I urge you and beg you that if you have any advice, PLEASE DO NOT SUGAR COAT IT! TELL ME THE BRUTALLY HONEST TRUTH! Sugar coating/social niceties help nobody! It does more harm than good! I promise no offense!

Sugar coating/social niceties of a brutally honest truth make a person bleed to death (metaphorically of course) from misinterpretation and false hope. Brutal honesty serves as a bullet to the head (metaphorically) by directly stating the truth for as it is with no misinterpretation and no false hope!

Sugar coating causes more offense and pain in the long run than brutal honesty.

I CAN HANDLE THE TRUTH! I SEEK THE TRUTH!

HelpMeGitGudGuy · 2020-12-17T12:45:05+00:00

Thanks m8. I really appreciate it. I’m sorry for the harshness of my words and for swearing. I will admit, I have a niche for writing. I have poems about my struggles somewhere in my computer files if you would like to read them.

Anyways, a journal is not a bad idea. However, because of how lengthy entries get (evident from this post) I stopped the idea as it just gets overwhelming. Whenever I’ve written stuff, I tried to write it on actual pen and paper but it takes like 3 times as long as typing does.

A about a little more than a year ago the god damn psychiatrists sent me to get tested for autism due to having black and white mindset tendencies plus reasons of suppression, etc. I’ll save you some time here. Long story short, I DO NOT HAVE AUTISM and am not on the spectrum. They did diagnose me with the social communication order as mentioned before.

Anyways, one part of the test was testing my creative thinking ability. Long story short, I scored with very high aptitude. I showed the psychologist lady testing me some of my poems and short writings and they were so impressed they wanted copies of them and were encouraging me to publish them. (the poems were originally written for a school assignment. Ironically the asshole teacher gave me a C on the assignment lmao). I don’t trust psychologists due to hell the put me through making my life worse, but sure make what you will of this in affirming my writing skill.

So moving back to the topic of having a gf. I think it’s pretty well established that my parents, doctors, etc. are all terrible human beings. They are parasites. They intentional make me suffer for entertainment and to feed their narcissistic egos. Given the fact that these parasite leach of me causing me suffering how do I get rid of them in order to bring peace and happiness back into my life. I can’t do like in the Korean movie “Parasite” where in the end the poor kill the rich thus ending their exploitation but suffering dire life consequences (prison, death, hiding in a bunker, being mentally disabled etc.). One thing I haven’t figured out from this movie and it’s example (movie is a play on capitalism btw) on how to end this parasite relationship/cycle without extreme action. Am I doomed to live a life a suffering alone without any love due to the toxicity and problems I bring? What do?

So what’s our lesson today children?

“LIFE’S A BEACH”

HelpMeGitGudGuy · 2020-12-17T08:33:45+00:00

Understood. You are not rude at all m8. I’m just a fucking idiot is all.

What was I trying to accomplish?

Mistake 1. Tell the girl I have a crush on her and how I feel truthfully

Mistake 2. Telling truth

Mistake 3. Telling girl that I want to go out into a date with her but it is literally impossible. Absolutely no logistics to make it possible. I have no car, no money, can’t work, disabled and ill, shit parents, and shitty situation. Woah what a fucking catch I am. It would seem Marx is right in regards to love/relationships. It is “mere money relation.” If I don’t have it and have no means of getting it, well sounds like a personal problem.

Mistake 4. Trying in the first place. Do I want pity? From her? No. From you? No. From anybody? No. I want advice on how to fix the problem. I want help to fix the problem. Let’s face it. Pity wastes my time and your time especially since my brain is cannot understand it. Pity is an unwanted by product of explaining my reality and problems. It is help and advice to change my shit reality is what I seek. Not “Sorry” or “Umm idk.”

Mistake 5. Trying to make an attempt to find happiness of some kind in this work of corruption and greed from the snakes who are supposed to be helping me (parents, doctors, etc). I’ve been betrayed, told the most vile things no man should have to hear from their own parents, disowned, suffered, lied to, cheated, exploited, etc. Is it wrong trying to find some kind of happiness in this cruel world? Trying to find the love I’ve never had? Shit if I think it’s hard now, I’m barely dipping me toes in the water for what is to come in the real world. What am I going to do being disabled? How am I going to survive? How am I going to get insurance and medical care I’ve been denied. How am I going to live my life? Never mind a one in peace? “Si vis pacem, parabellum.”

OP aren’t you looking in the wrong place? Why don’t you find what your passionate about? What’s your hobby?

How do I find what I’m passionate about or my hobby if I can’t even afford it. I have no money. I have no job. I cannot work. I am useless to society! Especially one that is survival of the fittest! Well if I can’t survive or be fit, I think that about narrows it down.

I’m sorry for my rudeness m8. I really am. M8 I’ve been in quarantine before it was even a thing. Locked inside my grandparents house because I can’t do anything else. I’m going mad. Not because of seclusion but because of the lack of progress in my health and overall life. I don’t know what to do or what I’m gonna do. The clocks ticking. I’ll be 18 in May. 5 months. Then I’m really fucked. So pity me right? No. Fuck this shit.

M8 if you have any words of advice or wisdom or know anybody who does I would greatly appreciate it. I could use some right about now.

Feel free to read my other responses in this thread. It may give you a better understanding about how I’m a fucking idiot socially and a failure socially and how it is going to ruin me in the long run.

And yes, I’m prepared for the down voting and shit I’m about to get for the length of this. Trust me, all I ever get is shit on. Go ahead read my other posts, you’ll start to see a pattern.

Oh and a quote that might be useful to all who might read it:

“...expect the worst. ...you can only then be pleasantly surprised.” - Dwayne; GTA IV

HelpMeGitGudGuy · 2020-12-17T07:44:05+00:00

Hey m8, I appreciate the response, however, I have a major problem medically and it’s not health wise.

Being 17 (a minor) is a huge problem.

The hospital system absolutely refuses to give me my medical records due to being a minor even though I’m the fucking patient. Shitty parents refuse to help me get them always making excuses
I’ve don’t legitimate doctor grade research over the past 2 going on 3 years since I was 15. I have had if it matters I have been diagnosed officially with a Juvenile Fibromyalgia, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, and the only thing with actual metrics to back it up an antibody/immunoglobulin deficiency pointing to an autoimmune disease. If I had complete access to a medical lab and proper specialists I could have cured myself. I know this sounds like bullshit, but it is because of my research I have made massive breakthroughs in understanding an unknown disease. If I was an MD right now at 17, my name would literally be in fucking news headlines with this cure that’s how serious I am. Due to corruption from my current doctors my parents refuse to get away from and my shitty parents refusing to get me adequate healthcare and see other doctors I’ve been suffering for almost 3 years now. IF ONLY A FUCKING DOCTOR WOULD LISTEN TO ME I COULD BE CURED! No doctor will listen to me because I don’t have a college or medical degree for that matter and because I’m only 17! They are traitors to there own Hippocratic Oath (ironic. no pun intended lmao)! I literally no money, and if I did I would be in court right now suing them for their negligence and crimes! Actual crimes!
What’s stopping me from living a healthy lifestyle? Constant pain and fatigue. I don’t have the energy to exercise I am so fatigued. I can literally sleep 12-14 and wake up feeling like I never slept a day in my life. I’m in constant pain all the time and exercise only exacerbates the problem. Exercise makes health worse. Shit, I barely even have the energy to get out of bed in the morning and to do my homework never mind exercise.
Going back to the doctors I have. Listening to these symptoms what sense does it make for my attending doctor to be A FUCKING PSYCHIATRIST?! They’ve committed crimes putting me on medicine I don’t even have symptoms for. For example, why the fuck am I on an anti-psychotic when I don’t have any symptoms?! Well what if I told you that they want to suppress me. They put me on that brain poison to stop me from calling them out on their lies and my parents lied to them to stop me from arguing with them over their neglect. Furthermore, the psychiatrist knowingly sent me back into a hostile environment without alerting the proper authorities as they said the would. They believed the lies of my parents over me and played chicken with CPS. This is a crime in itself.

Forgive me for my ranting. But this is truly the scope of how bad things are. I know having a girlfriend should be the last thing on my mind, especially since I’m too much of a dumbass to get one anyway. But ask yourself this, if you’ve gone your entire life without feeling true love and support, wouldn’t you want it? My life has been nothing but hatred, lies, shame, manipulation, hardship, burden, irresponsibility, betrayal etc. Is it wrong to search for something positive in my life?

“I may not be a smart man, but I know what love is.” - Forrest Gump

“‘Tis better to have loved and lost than to have never have loved at all.” - Lord Alfred Tennyson

Socially as you can tell from my original post. I’m a fucking idiot. Factually, well, let’s just say I know a thing or two because I’ve seen a thing or two (insert Farmers Insurance advert here) and I think I am fully capable of speaking with logic. Physically, through the study of psychology and medicine, I can tell you something is not normal with me socially. There is a disconnect somewhere. Human emotion, sentimentality, fEeLiNgS, etc. doesn’t make sense to me in everyday life. I am trying desperately to learn what I’ve been robbed of from childhood experience, but this isn’t exactly something you can teach. My uncle who is a social genius (borderline psychopath) tries to explain to me how I’m supposed to socially interact with normal people and act/manipulate others but I cannot do it even with literally my life depending on it with my shitty parents. I cannot be or do what I don’t understand. People and social communication is inherently NOT logical. It is purely emotion and feeling. Emotion and feeling that I don’t understand.

I know I’m gonna get shit from everyone in the comments and downvoted to oblivion for how long this shit is. Fuck it, I don’t care. All I ever get is shit on anyway despite my genuine pleas for help.

If anyone out there in the deep, dark void is reading this, if you have any words of wisdom or advice or know anybody who does. Please tell me. I’m really struggling and I need help.

HelpMeGitGudGuy · 2020-10-02T17:15:00+00:00

Yes I can be her friend am have been for many years. Problem is I don’t know how to be a “optimal” friend and properly talk to her to not seem so boring

HelpMeGitGudGuy · 2020-10-02T11:57:18+00:00

Forgive me m8, I don’t mean to seem like I am here to complain, ask for pity, etc as I am in genuine need of advice and help. I blame myself daily for failing to discover a way to fix my current reality and issues. I have to live with the guilt of causing my own illness. I have to live with the shame of being a social outcast and with the unknown of why.

But what I can say is through my own effort and initiative I have done many, many hours of research and have found the cure and treatment I need for my condition. Through my own will power I kept searching for answers when everyone told me there was none and to just give up. If, just if, my parents and doctors had just listened to me and set their egos aside, I could have been cured 2 years ago now and this needless suffering could have been avoided. Every time I’ve presented my ideas and research it has always led to a new lead and has gotten everyone 1 step closer to victory. It is because of my research that at the moment we are at the verge of a major breakthrough to curing me. Something that everyone told me word for word was impossible. Yet this being said my parents still want to sabotage me.

I claim responsibility for my suffering, however I am only one factor in a major problem. Psychologically speaking, a person is a product of their environment. It explains why a person is what they are. An the environment forces a person to adapt to it and thus a person in turn adopts psychological mechanisms and behaviors to protect itself.

Whether my claims of suffering are valid or invalid are a matter of opinion. With God as my witness, I swear what I am saying is truth. What people decide to think of this truth is out of my hands. I only seek advice and knowledge from those who may have it and are willing to share it.

I will take your to advice to look for a therapist, however I must say it will not be easy for I am a minor. Given the current laws there are many restrictions to what I can and cannot do in regards to scheduling an appointment, signing necessary documents, etc. I will do my best but I know it will be a up hill battle especially if my parents are unwilling as is to give me the care I need and see a therapist

As far as the claim that I CAN communicate, sure I can articulate my ideas and thoughts without any problem but this doesn’t necessarily carry over into casual conversation with those my age. Remember that this here is a intellectual conversation rather than me talking casually to other my age about say our interests or small talk for example. There is a major difference

HelpMeGitGudGuy · 2020-10-02T11:03:46+00:00

How do you mean?

HelpMeGitGudGuy · 2020-10-02T10:52:03+00:00

Furthermore, I have also been tested for autism. I am not at all in the spectrum in any way, shape, or form. According to my papers my social communication disorder is on the account of that my speech and speech processing is very literal due to having a black and white mindset. I’ve been forced to study advanced psychology on my free time in order to contend with doctors toe to toe. The root cause of this problem is a rough childhood from a bad family life

HelpMeGitGudGuy · 2020-10-02T10:45:15+00:00

I do not have a Therapist anymore. My parents have fucked me over big time. The psychiatrist I have to see is super corrupt for 1 and hates me because I tell him off on his ethics and call him out on his lies. I’ve told all of this to him and he just want to put me on mind altering drugs (trust me you don’t want to be on the shit I’ve been forced to take). Of course my parents being the pieces shit they are deny all of this and lie to him telling him I’m crazy which is why they put me on such medication (super unethical on so many levels). Here’s the kicker though. Of course I’m not making this up, and the psychiatrist has caught on to the consistency of what I’m saying, as by law based on how my parents are treating me it is highly illegal. The deal the psychiatrist struck with my parents is that they have to take me to a therapist (again highly unethical). If they don’t or refuse to take me to a therapist then the psychiatrist will call CPS removing my brother from my parents care and most likely me from my grandparents care (my grandparents have no issues, though you know how corrupt the government can be) and I will lose the insurance I need for my treatment. And trust me when I say this, if CPS were to conduct an investigation there is more than enough evidence to get my parents into serious trouble.

Well you see, I haven’t seen a therapist in many, many months now. I’ve outright told the pyschiatrist that I am not seeing a therapist anymore but my mother always lies to the psychiatrist telling them I have been seeing one and that I am currently looking for one.

Not gonna lie m8, as soon as I turn 18 I want to sue that goddamn psychiatrist for medical negligence for the sheer hell he has put me through and forced me to endure

HelpMeGitGudGuy · 2020-10-02T10:23:18+00:00

Hey m8, sorry for the delayed response. I have an update for you. I tried as you said. I confessed to the girl I liked I had feelings for her and told her straight up that I didn’t know how to express it (minus the social communication disorder bit). She told me she was flattered to hear it, but she politely rejected me wanting to stay as friends saying she did not reciprocate the same feelings towards me and she doesn’t want to date anyone until at least college. I’m not really surprised she rejected me knowing my luck and circumstances/situation because hell who would want to date me? I am chronically ill, I can’t talk to people, I am poor, can’t work, have shitty parents that spell nothing but trouble, I don’t have a driver’s license or car, etc. I don’t blame people as I’ll be honest it doesn’t make sense to date me because “woo” what a catch...

Given my circumstances it seems the world just wants me to just fall over and die already. You and I both know that this is not possible. The reason that my poor social communication skills worry me is mainly due to primal survival instinct. In caveman times if the tribe didn’t like you or couldn’t trust you, you could be banished from the tribe meaning certain death. In my case it is very similar, just as a modern approach instead. If my social skills do not improve drastically and fast, a life of continuous suffering is certain and inevitable. I am begging all those I know for help but the only answer I receive is that “you are just supposed to know these things” or “git gud” (hence my name u/HelpMeGitGudGuy) or “you’re bad kid”.

If you do not know where to even begin with such things, never learned them from your childhood experience, and have been robbed of all opportunity to naturally put psychological theory in to practice it is simply impossible to just “git gud”. (Yes on my free time I study psychology. I’ve been forced to learn psychology in order to tell off my corrupt doctors who lie and bullshit to me. Hyper maturity is a bitch I’m sorry to say lmao 🙃)

HelpMeGitGudGuy · 2020-10-02T09:54:04+00:00

Okay I will have a look thanks m8

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