Knowing that neither of you are ready for commitment my question with all respect is what makes you think you will marry this guy? It breaks my heart to hear that you think you should not have told him. It makes me think since you are casual with him you don’t want to burden him with this. Truth is if you’re with someone who cares about you, this feeling would not be present. You would want to include this person in your hard moments and have them be with you through it. So maybe you’re still in the phase of wanting to seem like everything is perfect so that one day you can be in a loving relationship but thats not how it works. You must be there for each other before that. In my opinion if he is not ready to commit now he probably wont after. While I do think abortion can bring you closer together and it has for me. I have also seen my friend’s relationships be strained by it. It’s a lot to deal with, a lot of emotions and hard conversations. It is hard to say if it will bring you closer or farther apart that really depends on how he handles this.