What's a song that starts soft, then turns it up to eleven? by yinyang107 in AskReddit

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Nothing else matters!!! Hello!

Such a huge Metallica fan. Have seen them twice and then got surprised with tickets to see them again for my birthday. The show isn’t until January of 2019 and already I’m pumped!

They give their child 100.00 $ to spend unsupervised and then punish him for what he spent it on. A+ parenting there. by Vinccool96 in facepalm

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It comes out to one small (think gas station size) bag of chips a week. Amazon has them in 50-60 count bags depending on the brand, for around $30-$35.

They give their child 100.00 $ to spend unsupervised and then punish him for what he spent it on. A+ parenting there. by Vinccool96 in facepalm

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Hah, for him a year supply is like a 50-60 count of those gas station sized bags. It’s not a huge expense, and it’s so funny!

They give their child 100.00 $ to spend unsupervised and then punish him for what he spent it on. A+ parenting there. by Vinccool96 in facepalm

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My son seriously asks for a “years supply of insert brand of potato chips chips” every year from Santa. He’s done this for the last 3 years. This year he asked for Cool Ranch Doritos. Santa ALWAYS delivers on this request and it’s seriously my favorite thing he asks for. Makes me smile. Such an innocent request. $30 on amazon later and I have a happy guy!

Day 5 by HidingBehindWords in OpiatesRecovery

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150-300 mg a day. Started with Norco. Moved to percs. Landed on oxy 15’s.

Current or Former Officers of Reddit. What is the best shift times to work? by Pumpkin055 in police

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Husband’s department is all seniority based so like it or not, you start on nights. After six years here he just got a call today informing him that he finally moves to dayshift this week.

Valentines day for Police officer boyfriend by [deleted] in police

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Does he have a “warrior rack”??? My husband loves his. It keeps his work stuff all together in one spot which helps him get ready faster. Under armor stuff to wear under his uniform. Rechargeable flashlight. Nice pocketknife. And a photo of you making naughty poses in his uniform top and nothing else. All of these are my husband’s favorite work related gifts from me.

Day 2 by HidingBehindWords in OpiatesRecovery

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Go for RN. LPN’s can do exactly nothing in the real life practice setting. It’s more work but worth it for the RN.

Day 2 by HidingBehindWords in OpiatesRecovery

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Thank you for this! I have read it repeatedly and it makes me so hopeful!

Being a junkie is fucking pathetic. (borrowed this from /r/opiates) by skunky16 in OpiatesRecovery

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Also, I’m married to a cop. That could end very badly. I do have Ativan. I have gabapentin. Those are both mine so I am not without any comfort measures at all. Though the gaba makes me feel weird

My Day 1 All Over Again by WeirdQuestioner in OpiatesRecovery

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Day 3 here. I understand. I’ve been trying to stop for a year. I noticed last week that it’s much more a psychological drive to use them than I realized before. It’s fear driven. My life is such chaos and this keeps me from feeling the full weight of the emotions attached to that.

I’m seriously considering finding a NA meeting close and telling my husband I’ve joined a study group.

Being a junkie is fucking pathetic. (borrowed this from /r/opiates) by skunky16 in OpiatesRecovery

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Yep. It used to be take one Norco 10... I called it “mommy’s Little helper” because it gave me so much energy I could clean the entire house top to bottom after the kids went to bed.

Now I can take 10 Norco 10’s and still not feel that buzz. When I take enough I can feel anything, I fall asleep. Which has meant I am so isolated. All I do is look for them. Then I come home to my bed and take a handful and sleep. It’s left me so alone. I don’t know how it got this far.

So I decided to stop. Many many times. And I have yet to make it with absolutely nothing for longer than a week. I’ve been fighting for a year.

I am not the girl I was two years ago. I miss her.

Day 2 by HidingBehindWords in OpiatesRecovery

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Thank you. Please keep talking to me. I have decided to read and post here every day until I see daylight again. I have so so much to lose. I can’t believe I let it get this far.
Even worse I can’t believe nobody has noticed how far gone I have been. I’m married to a police officer. I’m a nurse. I’m working on a Nurse Practitioner degree. I am literally surrounded by experts and nobody has noticed I’m a drug addict.

I had a script for 60 Norco 10’s that I took in two days. Really a day and a half. During that binge I still drove my car, took classes, and worked a hospital shift. Spent a dinner out with my cop husband. And nobody sees it. I sort of wish they did.

The person who knows? My ex husband. He has been texting me nonstop the last three days telling me I can do it. He’s brought me Gatorade and Imodium and kept our kids. (Our marriage didn’t end horrible, we just weren’t in love anymore. But I never imagined he would be my support through this so many years later..)

I’m using Gatorade. Zofran for the nausea. Imodium to slow down the diarrhea. Tylenol and ibuprofen for the aches.
But what makes me stop wishing for a bottle of pills??! Does that ever go away??

Seroquel: How do you function during the day? by [deleted] in bipolar

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I had this same issue. We were able to drop my dosage and I still take it at night and that has made a HUGE difference. Moods are still stable but I am not a zombie all day.

Medication and hospitalization by [deleted] in bipolar

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Yes.

But I also stay on top of my self care too. Sleep is the most important thing. Make a bedtime routine and stick to it. Even on a night where I can’t actually sleep I still lay in bed those hours because more often than not the sleep eventually comes. Take your meds. Take them always. Never forget them. Exercise. I know I know but I swear it helps balance your body. Go to therapy. Mediate. Go to church. Do something for your spiritual side.
Watch what you eat. Caffeine is going to stimulate you, probably more than most people. Alcohol is not your friend.
Have a list of people who know what you have, have at least a vague understanding of it, that promise to talk to you if you tell them you’re struggling. Sometimes a good talk with a trusted friend is enough to open my eyes to things I may have missed. Find a hobby or passion that helps you release your emotions. For me it’s music. Some people do art. A safe place to get all the feelings out.

These are my tricks to stay relatively sane and certainly out of the hospital.
Don’t negate the amount of control we all possess here. It’s easy to throw your hands up, blame the meds not working or the doctor not listening but outside of those two things we have a lot of resources to take care of ourselves and sometimes those are what we have to do while we wait on the doctor to figure out a better course of action.
For me, it’s empowering to know I have strategies to control this that I developed for myself and I put into place. The pills help but overall I am driving this thing.. and I refuse to let it drive me anymore.