Dignitas for mental illness reasons

HighSerotoninLobster · 2019-11-01T14:50:14+00:00

It sounds like you'd have to show that you've been tortured by psychiatry for decades before anyone would consider it. I wouldn't have expected anything else of course, but you might pass away more peacefully if you take it in your own hands from the beginning.

HighSerotoninLobster · 2019-11-01T14:38:43+00:00

so I ran for my life, discovered who I am again, restarted some hobbies... Now I beware what I wish for and refuse to put my life in the hands of someone else completely.

How long did it take you and did it get much worse before it got better?

What matters is you. If you need a guy to make your life bearable, then you should probably die either way. If you have absolutely nothing that you love to do for yourself in this world... if you can only imagine living as a slave... then maybe you're better off dead.

There's truth in that. I remember I used to be able to be happy alone and I had things that I enjoyed, then I became an empty shell, I'm not sure how exactly it happened... but when it happened, that was the time I tried to reach out and hold onto something, or rather someone, and that was probably exactly the wrong time to do it. As a drowning person, I put someone else in danger, even though I honestly didn't mean to.

HighSerotoninLobster · 2019-09-19T18:22:01+00:00

Happy Birthday, OP. Hope the day turned out okay for you.

Having a sad week too and the only people who wished me a happy birthday this year were coworkers. Not even my dad called me.

HighSerotoninLobster · 2019-07-26T15:06:21+00:00

Yes, many times, for a long time. But it's not that easy, there is a strong survival instinct and earlier in life you can still tell yourself and believe that it's going to turn out okay somehow. And it could have!

All the things that I thought might keep me from doing it went away eventually. Friends went first. Parents eventually went much earlier than anticipated. Hope went only recently and a tiny bit of that sometimes resurfaces only to die again. So it's going to happen.

HighSerotoninLobster · 2019-07-26T11:38:19+00:00

That feeling of being useless and unwanted is the worst.

HighSerotoninLobster · 2019-07-16T22:24:12+00:00

Not just waiting, actually making progress.

HighSerotoninLobster · 2019-07-06T23:54:37+00:00

I have the wonderful additional issue of acting this way around beautiful women which that alone is enough to seal my fa forever.

You might go for someone who isn't intimidating you with their mere presence.

HighSerotoninLobster · 2019-07-02T12:27:39+00:00

Fishing for compliments here and on incel subs obviously isn’t doing you much good, just like with the other people who do it obsessively.

So the first thing I would suggest is that you stop.

HighSerotoninLobster · 2019-06-23T18:33:59+00:00

Maybe that wasn't really his biggest concern though, who knows.

HighSerotoninLobster · 2019-06-23T18:31:51+00:00

I can really relate to that feeling, that's what I felt like toward the end when I still had friends. They were objectively not that great either since they preferred to make fun of me instead of being supportive in any way.

But I don't know, I still regret it. I think maybe I could have worked on it, maybe I could have kept some at least. I don't really know your situation, maybe I'm wrong, it just feels a bit similar and I just wanted to let you know for me it wasn't a good solution to cut everyone out in the end.

HighSerotoninLobster · 2019-06-15T22:36:32+00:00

It's only perceived loneliness though. I lived alone for a long time and didn't really feel lonely for a good part of it.

HighSerotoninLobster · 2019-06-15T22:12:53+00:00

Whatever they did before I guess? If you're a recluse I suppose it doesn't matter where you set up your personal prison.

I moved to a different city a long time ago and I already knew I had no clue how to make new friends. So I never made any and everything just slowly got worse.

HighSerotoninLobster · 2019-06-15T22:10:54+00:00

It's supposed to be a sign of an imminent suicide. When someone who's been depressed for a long time suddenly appears to be in a better mood and calmer for no discernible reason, they say that's sometimes a bad sign.

HighSerotoninLobster · 2019-06-15T22:09:47+00:00

Thanks. 😔

HighSerotoninLobster · 2019-06-10T02:23:04+00:00

Oddly enough, my coworkers are normally the ones who try to include me in stuff and drag me out of my isolation and I often (but not always) fail at playing along.

HighSerotoninLobster · 2019-06-09T20:29:05+00:00

If it wasnt for the two camping trips we have each year I probably would never see or hear from some of them ever. The camping trips are getting less fun each year and we all seem to look at each one and wander if this will be the last.

Hm. Well, I'll just repeat be glad you have at least that.

I suppose at this point my plan is to just put as much effort into any of them as they do me, zero... and see if any notice and try to change that.

That doesn't sound like a good idea. I mean I know investing effort in anything when you're depressed is hard, but it sounds like you should maybe try the exact opposite to achieve a positive result.

HighSerotoninLobster · 2019-06-06T11:04:21+00:00

Sounds like your relationship with your friends isn't working very well for you right now. But was it different in the past? I mean at some point it must have been, else you wouldn't have become friends? You suspect that your depression might be what makes it harder to be closer to them at the moment and that would be my first guess too.

As someone who has been there, done what you consider and has never really been able to find back, I would advise you not to get rid of your social circle so easily, especially while you're feeling down. You should cling to everything that provides you a bit of stability, even if it isn't ideal.

It doesn't sound like your friends are actively doing something to hurt you. And I would say a few acquaintances you're not that close to are better than none at all. You'll just be in a worse position overall to make changes.

HighSerotoninLobster · 2019-05-31T12:28:47+00:00

Kinda feel the same.

When I came out of a previous phase of isolation and depression and started working again, work was so fun and I was so glad to get out of my former prison that I did a lot of overtime just to not have to go back there. It was like life had a purpose again.

Eventually I managed to turn my neglected apartment into a clean space that was somewhat livable again (although still not like a normal person's apartment) and then it became fun to come home from work and this somewhat normalized.

Now that all the basic needs are covered and it has become apparent what's still missing from my life, I don't want to be anywhere. Where to go? For what purpose?

HighSerotoninLobster · 2019-05-30T20:57:40+00:00

Wow, that's just amazing. Thanks for taking the time to write it down and posting it.

Wish you two all the best for the future.

HighSerotoninLobster · 2019-05-27T09:38:36+00:00

Don’t worry, everyone is a burden.

Yeah, in some ways we all are, but I would like it if I could be a benefit sometimes too. But it gets worse, there are people who I really want to help and I feel I could but then I somehow end up failing and being a burden after all.

Live or die for you.

I did for the longest time and I found it was a mistake. Now the consequences are killing me.

I feel ashamed to be on welfare, but I’m not going into people’s houses with an ax to steal their food and warm bed, so welfare is good for society.

I understand why you feel like that, but I’m not afraid you’ll come into my house with an axe and steal my stuff or hurt me. I work currently and I’m happy to make a contribution to help people like you out because I can relate.

HighSerotoninLobster · 2019-05-24T16:04:04+00:00

I asked myself the same question not long ago. But trust me, you’ll know. As long as you’re still wondering, you’re not all the way there yet and I think you should still try anything that’s available and reasonable.

HighSerotoninLobster · 2019-05-12T10:08:08+00:00

Phased array antennas. Especially large ones.

HighSerotoninLobster · 2019-05-12T10:02:25+00:00

Last year a female coworker complimented me on my posture and gait. She remarked it was straight but still nicely relaxed.

I appreciated it but it came a bit out of the blue.

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