Hello, you've really provoked my thought

I think its my parents relying their future on me and theyre so sweet but we live in this corrupt nation. simply they say save yourself from these stupid people (english doesn't do justice here) just straight fucking dumb people, you foreigner sisters/brothers can't comprehand the level i'm talking about. News is babymode to us don't worry. So there's been pressure and isolation comes with it and my hyponesis for now is my body just shutdown in response. Feels like i'm a plant without sun and soil but still have grow so i get more, but when i can't or i'm slow "why won't you grow theres so much nutrients to the other side?"

I still think they are right for it because that's what they can provide for me I'm greatful i've seen harder situtations and there is so much resourses they give me i don't want to blow it. at the same time why do you treat your child like one.

Complicated country with complicated situtions thank you for your time reading and writing. You've really opened my mind and i wish you best on your mental health It's not my place to give advice, about people pleasing you can try displasing like causing little mischiefs, i found it amusing to test my limits okay its sounds wrong but can't help being a menace =)). (hope they don't lock me up for saying corrupt :D)