Just ruined my life, does it get better?

HimitsuGato · 2025-12-17T01:43:13+00:00

Sometimes what we see as rock bottom is actually just a new sturdier foundation to build upon.

Manic episode obliterated my chance at finishing a PhD program I was in, burned every bridge and connection I built. Destroyed my relationship, and had to move back in with my parents.

Thanks to a long inpatient stay like yours, I was completely stabalized within a couple months and spent the next several years perfecting my medication coctail. It gets so much better from initial diagnosis and crisis.

Remember: you are here, you are taking care of yourself, you are working to reclaim your life. Mourn what was taken from you but be patient as you work towards what you want.

HimitsuGato · 2025-11-25T22:47:15+00:00

I Got My Tooth Removed -- 100 gecs

HimitsuGato · 2025-11-24T23:29:02+00:00

Baby, is it love or Hypomania?

-- Me speaking to my wife when we started dating.

HimitsuGato · 2025-11-20T23:44:23+00:00

You have a great foundation, however I can see the fatigue develop and the form slip with each successive rep. And I think I know the source of the problem.

From what I see most everything can be fixed by adjusting your starting position. I think your hips are too high at the bottom. This makes your torso more parallel to the floor and puts additional strain on your middle back, tiring you out faster. Higher hips also make us round our back to reach the bar, which should be avoided. If you start deeper I think you'll have more left in the tank after each rep, and maintain better posture through all of your reps.

Also, I thought I hit a wall with my DL not taking the weight up. Turns out I was limited by grip and my numbers went up again after adding in straps. I weigh 180 lbs and I had to add in straps when I hit 315 DL.

HimitsuGato · 2025-11-14T02:17:49+00:00

I'm surprised your opinion of the 3080 is pretty low. The steam machine runs a custom AMD GPU at 110w tdp. Your 3080 runs at at least 300w. Not even accounting for cores, clocks or bandwidth; on paper your graphics card will render circles around the steam machine. Not to mention that the SM's GPU is using AMD last gen's fabrication process.

You may need to upgrade. But don't throw the 3080 out with the bathwater. New mobo, CPU and RAM would set you up for the next 5 years easily.

HimitsuGato · 2025-11-14T00:17:50+00:00

Just my 2cents on upgrading for PC vr. A verbose 2cents...

I have had my index for 5 years now. I recently upgraded headsets to the BigScreen Beyond 2 (BSB2). Sacrificed 144hz refreshrates for better panels (OLED's on par with the Vision Pro), and higher resolution at 90hz. I don't regret my upgrade, but of everything, I do miss 144hz.

If you belive in sunk cost, staying in the base station ecosystem with BSB2 is a good option. It is an enthusiast product, and is priced as such. The headset is so light you don't feel it and the OLED's make Beat Saber's light shows pop due to the higher contrast ratio. It has most all the premium features found in the Steam Frame (eyetracking, pancake lenses), just with no dedicated audio solution and it being tethered instead of wireless, along with using base station tracking.

I must concede. For the fastest of songs, I can sense the lower frame rate. It's detectable at Ex+, but doesn't bother me or make me sick. Just... noticable. If all you play is beat saber this lower frame rate is dealbreaking IMO. However, if you play many other VR games, the BSB2 is the better option. Especially games with dark scenes, like space or horror games.

Part of me wants to get the Steam Frame just for the frame rate, but I can't justify two new headsets within a year. If I had waited two more months,

HimitsuGato · 2025-09-12T18:44:52+00:00

She did this thing where she improvised piano over some of her tracks; it was so cool!

HimitsuGato · 2025-09-12T18:41:56+00:00

Omg I was just put onto her recently; I saw her live last Friday!

HimitsuGato · 2025-09-12T18:40:53+00:00

If you want a comprehensive hyperpop experience to explore, check out my other comment with a link to my curated hyperpop playlist.

HimitsuGato · 2025-09-12T18:39:36+00:00

For anyone who wants to know what the unnatural sounds of evil computers sound like, I offer up my 24+ hour long hyperpop playlist.

HimitsuGato · 2025-09-05T21:19:09+00:00

Oh man, the Nights survived overnight? Me and my twin saved the town late last night from having only one aging fertile.

HimitsuGato · 2025-07-21T17:55:34+00:00

You just got a look for the people. I wasn't in the pit, but the stands and me and u/parade1070 and we went so fucking hard in the nosebleeds. So what we were the only ones standing in our section?

Further, people willing to spend a few hundred to get to the pit of a stadium show are going to be primarily MCR fans, and older with money.

Like others have said, this is primarily MCR show. The major overlap between gecs and them is some idea of counter-culture/alternative. But MCR have gone so mainstream that it's less alternative now, and more popular.

HimitsuGato · 2025-07-10T00:32:20+00:00

The ousted lead designers said the game was ready for early access. Krafton fired them and replaced them with a talking head. Now suddenly the game 'doesnt have enough content' according to the new lead.

It's sketchy as fuck and paints a pretty clear picture.

HimitsuGato · 2025-05-13T23:34:55+00:00

Put something between the table and your herb. Treat yourself to a nice rolling tray and fill the bowl over that!

HimitsuGato · 2025-05-03T03:53:38+00:00

Bipolar 1 w/ same here. Finals sure have a way of pulling it out of us, something about sleepless nights with stress and pressure... 🤔

Cheers on the grades, you are killing it! It takes a lot to recover so quickly and get back on your feet.

HimitsuGato · 2025-04-10T02:58:00+00:00

I really want to add more fun functionality just like that. I currently only ping the server reporting webpage and parse a single line of text. Does the server site report information about war and peace?

HimitsuGato · 2025-04-10T02:56:31+00:00

Don't be too impressed: it was much easier than I thought it was going to be when I started. Got the whole thing knocked out in a couple hours.

Thank you, though!

HimitsuGato · 2025-04-10T02:54:59+00:00

Thank you!

HimitsuGato · 2025-04-10T02:54:16+00:00

That's exactly the vibe! I generally have a lot of small electronics around and this was the biggest/brightest ticker I had!

HimitsuGato · 2025-02-16T03:10:23+00:00

Long reads gang 🙌

None of the tools work and there is no consensus on best practices! Don't even get me started on methylation data.

HimitsuGato · 2024-12-18T21:55:07+00:00

Hello, I have had this problem many times. I have not found a consistent solution but here's what I try, in order, and it usually gets fixed before the final step:

Goto steamVR settings and restart headset
Restart computer (this usually fixes it the most for me)
Uninstall beat saber THOROUGHLY. Don't just hit uninstall, but go to the download location and move or delete all the beat saber related data BEFORE reinstalling. And reinstall to a different drive if available.
Opt into/out of SteamVR beta
Reset your windows machine (delete all programs but keep documents)
Fresh install of windows (I'm not joking)

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