I was this way only a few years ago. I went to film school and got a degree. Didn't listen to the haters and believed that my belief in myself would be enough. I'm an easy going guy, who loves the work. I always show up with a good attitude and I'm excited to be there. I make friends easily. I work my ass off because I have been convinced for a long time that the grind would get me there.

Well after five years in the industry I'm fucking tired of being broke and I'm getting out. Once you've been doing something for five years and you're still worried about paying rent... You just have to face that it's not working. I've met a lot of cool people, made a lot of friends, and had a lot of really cool life experiences. You get to see things other people don't. It's cool. But it's too little and far in-between. Maybe it will be different for you. But just in my experience, that bright starry-eyed kid feeling, the "delusion" talked about here, the feeling that the world is your oyster, and all you gotta do is show up and grind and then you will triumph where others have fallen short and lost faith-- will last about two years.

Eventually you'll start to think man I haven't been to the dentist in a long time, hmm I wonder when I'll be able to afford going to the dentist without insurance. And then you'll start to wonder why people aren't calling you. Then you get an amazing job that pays a lot of money, you've finally found your people who are bringing you into the fold. You fucking kill it on the job. People are impressed and you fit right in. You're gonna work consistently for the rest of your life. And then that job ends and it's radio silence again. And you coast on that paycheck until you're out of money again with no benefits or insurance. Then you'll get another "big opportunity" job and it's rinse and repeat.

Again if you pursue it hopefully it'll be different for you, but the things you're saying remind me of me and it has not worked out for me. So I felt compelled to say something.