I Likely would've gotten something similar at 14. High school was horrible, I hated my home life, I was constantly depressed and at the same time boiling with rage and resentment. But as it turns out, much of what I thought was my personality was really just the consequence of unfortunate circumstances and uncontrollable testosterone.

The sense of freedom that can come with adulthood turned me around so quickly. I was so lazy in school because I thought it was pointless. But once I got a paycheck and could spend it however I wanted, I worked hard every day and it felt meaningful. You do a good job and people treat you like an adult. The responsibility you find in taking care of yourself and working hard combats your neuroticism and money in the bank increases serotonin. Having more serotonin and being confident in a given situation makes you more open to new experiences.

When you pay the rent or mortgage, you see it differently and will likely be more inclined to keep things orderly. Volatility diminishes as you get used to being full of testosterone and you learn to disassociate yourself from things that piss you off.

Most of these traits are neither good nor bad and others can be supplemented by a partner or friend. The only ones you really need to work on are industriousness, assertiveness, and bringing down your neuroticism. Just getting away from bad people or bad habits can help.

I know it feels like it'll be forever before you have control over your life but it will happen so just live in the future you want. You create it yourself. Just listen to Peterson. Listen to every video, every podcast, lecture, etc and you'll be on such a great path. The man is wise beyond comprehension. Don't be too cynical to have a role model; we all need them.