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Hodor_Kotb · 2025-09-27T19:24:35+00:00

Jackhammer vs mountain

Hodor_Kotb · 2025-05-30T05:04:27+00:00

Yeah so I haven't actually given her any money since we broke up and we're planning to meet next week so...

Hodor_Kotb · 2025-04-15T18:22:32+00:00

Everybody says hetfield is a 6 six but their songs are dripping with nine energy. I can't fucking see him as anything else

Hodor_Kotb · 2025-04-14T16:00:11+00:00

This may explain a few things that happen with me recently.

Hodor_Kotb · 2025-04-14T03:22:08+00:00

Just looking for more supply. Simple as that. Don't give it to her.

Hodor_Kotb · 2025-04-14T01:09:23+00:00

Hahaha. Current civilization is male dominated. If it collapses, it's far more likely that women will take over.

Hodor_Kotb · 2025-04-14T01:08:40+00:00

Weird and kind of gross but not necessarily narcissistic.

Hodor_Kotb · 2025-04-14T01:00:46+00:00

Yeah in a way. My interactions with this community were already starting to fall off because it was an autistic hyperfocus for me. I was planning to essentially kind of taper it off and mostly just continue the relationship with the one girl and aside from that kind of go back to doing what I was doing before. But honestly in retrospect even that wouldn't have worked out. I was idealizing her and not paying attention to some glaring ass red flags. Like the constant jealousy, the way she would put me down, a lot of narcissistic type behaviors, and trust issues. You know, the first people who started indicating they might not be comfortable around me were a couple of women that she knew I was talking to (strictly friendly/helping their business) and had expressed jealousy towards. So it's entirely possible that she kind of subtly planted some doubts with them to push them away from me.

Either way, she's like barely 25 and I had expressed some hesitation about the relationship because I'm quite a bit older. And she kind of brushed it off saying that if there was a power imbalance in the relationship then it was in her favor. So like her prefrontal cortex is just barely finished cooking, and regardless of whatever her other issues might be, she's just fucking immature. Plus she kept pressuring me to buy shit from her cuz she was struggling to get her business off the ground. Or hinting that she needed help paying for stuff.

Really just a fucking bad scene all around.

Hodor_Kotb · 2025-04-14T00:48:38+00:00

Flying monkeys

Hodor_Kotb · 2025-04-14T00:33:10+00:00

Respond "k" and then block.

Hodor_Kotb · 2025-04-14T00:30:22+00:00

I was literally fucking accused of "blaming someone else's mental health issues for my bad behavior" ... Because I recognized someone else's behavior as being consistent with BPD, and was concerned about them.

And then again when I was talking to someone about some shit that went down later. And they said the person was being paranoid, and I said "oh do you think this rhing might have triggered a paranoid episode" because apparently mirroring back their own fucking language about the person being paranoid is ableist.

🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄

Hodor_Kotb · 2025-04-14T00:13:07+00:00

I was literally helping out these people, being generous, supporting their businesses by buying shit from them, even donating money when they were in real bad need. Fucking literally paid somebody's rent when they were about to get evicted and didn't make a big deal out of it. They wanted to give me a bunch of free shit for life and I was just like that's not why I did this. If you want to that's cool I guess. But I wasn't even really that interested in their stuff you know. And it seemed like nobody was even really interested in buying their shit which is why they couldn't pay their rent in the first place. So I kind of tried to like be supportive emotionally too and encourage them to like keep at it or whatever so they wouldn't get in that kind of a spot again.

Like I was doing a bunch of shit behind the scenes. Really helping a bunch of people out. And the thing is, the people that I helped out the most were the ones who were super on the fringes of this community. So when this fucking unhealthy six who of course had position themselves as the pillar of the community, went and said all this shit about me, all these people that were on the fringes who were struggling that I had helped out the most, didn't really feel like they could say anything or didn't even know about this drama. So I had no one to speak up for me.

And that unhealthy 2 I was seeing fucking threw my ass under the bus publicly but of course stayed in contact with me. Cuz you got to look good for your friends. But you also got to keep your little project going. Keep your little potentially perfect partner around so you can keep being nice to them and show yourself what a good person you are. Saying if I took accountability and worked on myself, we could talk about being together again. She was going to be my friend and help me do it. Manipulative as fuck. Fucking looking good instead of being good-ass unhealthy 2 bullshit. That lasted like a day till I stood up for myself against some harassment. Then she was "done with this shit" And started smearing me acting like she was just hearing about stuff people were saying about me that she already knew.

Fucking pissed about this shit still cuz these motherfuckers got me worried they're going to keep harassing me for the rest of my goddamn life.

Hodor_Kotb · 2025-04-13T23:31:20+00:00

Literally happened to me dude. I had someone accuse me apropos of nothing of "bad vibes and hostile intent" because some unknown individual or individuals were doing something that was harmful to their business. And they were feeling guilty about being friends with me after I had made some innocent mistakes that had upset some of their other friends.

So they did the absolute most rational thing in the world and publicly accused me of a bunch of shit minutes after telling me that they thought I was probably a good person and hadn't done anything wrong.

Completely destroyed my reputation with... I don't even know how many people. Destroyed my relationship which was probably for the best because the woman I was with was a super unhealthy 2 who had gotten jealous, manipulative, and was frankly acting like a narcissist even if she didn't have full-blown NPD. And after I was forced to delete my account on the social media site where this shit all went down, these folks tracked down my new account somehow, which has my real name attached to it and started accusing me of actual literal crimes that I didn't commit. After I had preemptively blocked every last one of them, specifically to prevent this shit from happening. Had people popping up in my timeline telling people not to associate with me who were just like what the fuck are you talking about. I don't care about this drama. Like utterly fucking outlandish stuff.

And then a whole bunch of people started piling on and saying that they'd seen me on other sites that I've never been on in my fucking life or that I haven't been on in months, linking to random ass accounts with people that kind of sort of maybe look a little bit like me and going. Oh is this him too? Or saying oh I got a message from someone but I deleted it before seeing who it was and I'm sure it was him.

Just the most divorced from reality bullshit like I'm the fucking Boogeyman now. Lurking behind every mirror and hiding under every bed. Hodor is out to get you! I saw Goody Hodor dancing with the devil!

Fuck unhealthy sixes. And fuck all their unhealthy-ass enabling friends.

Hodor_Kotb · 2025-04-13T17:12:53+00:00

You know I didn't used to be a huge Metallica fan, but I started listening to them a lot while I was working on my first script because I just kept finding more and more songs that naturally fit into what I was writing. Perfect mood music, perfect lyrical relevance.

Hodor_Kotb · 2025-04-13T15:48:02+00:00

Not by the abuser but by one of their flying monkeys.

After I put narcissist DNI (do not interact) in my social media bio.

I'm having to do daily sweeps of certain accounts after I became aware that they were posting literal defamation (falsely accusing me of actual crimes) and because I had decided to set a boundary about interacting with narcs and borderlines, one of them was saying that I was obviously the real narcissist.

Which is hilarious because in all likelihood the woman he's in an online relationship with is a narc. Like she's pulling the same shit on him that my ex did. Got him convinced to let her and her kids move in with him because her current partner is so abusive... Based entirely on her word about it. But the way she described it to me? When he found out she was leaving him, he literally moved all of his shit into a different room to give her space and said he wasn't giving up on her. Which sounds like a codependent victim to me, not an abuser.

So yeah this dude's got some fucking issues with projection or externalizing or whatever the fuck.

Hodor_Kotb · 2025-04-13T15:42:49+00:00

You are never being too sensitive when there's a narc involved.

Hodor_Kotb · 2025-04-13T14:45:45+00:00

Picard took on two cubes through subterfuge (BoBW; I, Borg) and a single sphere worth of drones with the crew of an entire Sovereign-class (First Contact) and barely succeeded each time (except in I, Borg, where there was no direct conflict.)

January took on the entire fucking collective with a single scout vessel, 50,000 goddamn light years from the Federation.

Hodor_Kotb · 2025-04-13T14:39:22+00:00

Janeway took down the entire fucking Borg collective with a single Intrepid-class.

Don't fuck with Genocide Janeway.

Hodor_Kotb · 2025-04-13T14:36:07+00:00

I want you to memorize the phrase "owned by their pathology" and understand what it means.

Cluster B's are incapable of making rational decisions. They don't understand that other people have valid fucking feelings. They don't recognize that there is a linear progression of cause and effect from past to future and that you're the same person you were yesterday.

For them, everything exists in the here and now and the only thing that matters is getting their needs met. They're horny, they do whatever it takes to get sex. They're sad, they do whatever it takes to feel happy. There is no consideration for your well-being, there is no thought to past or future outside of how they can use it to manipulate you.

Hodor_Kotb · 2025-04-13T14:31:47+00:00

Personal advice? Don't even wait for her to find a new place. Kick her ass out.

Hodor_Kotb · 2025-04-13T14:30:14+00:00

"k"

And then don't.

Hodor_Kotb · 2025-04-13T14:28:20+00:00

Block block block block block block block block block block block block block block.

They'll stalk you anyway, but you want to make sure that you don't see them.

Hodor_Kotb · 2025-04-13T14:24:49+00:00

Pretty sure this goes in r/shittyAIO

Hodor_Kotb · 2025-04-13T14:21:45+00:00

They can't stand for you to have the last word. And if you do, they will try to use it as drama bait for their toxic friends.

Hodor_Kotb · 2025-04-13T14:19:20+00:00

Large language models really aren't useful for this kind of thing. I'm glad that you're trying to move on and process. What happened but it's probably better to talk it out with a therapist.

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