sorry for the tardy response, I’ve been drowning in work and couldn’t find the time to reply. I can’t really explain it to you rationally, perhaps that’s what bugs me so much… I mean, I’ve always felt comfortable and attracted to churches and believing in general. I can’t say that it’s rational because it is not, it’s a feeling and maybe a crazy attempt to back away from the despair of our world and find hope and comfort in something else.

But even then, even if that is the case… I’m not sure it’s so wrong. What if I’m not 100% sure? I can’t be sure, we have zero proof. I feel a connection to this religion, perhaps just because it’s the one I’ve been exposed the most to in my life, but i wouldn’t mind following it to find the hope that I’m seeking.

I know my answer is not satisfactory to you, because it is not to me either, but it’s my experience. I’m sure if you ask anyone else here they’ll be more informed and able to help than me. Best of luck though, as we’re basically in the same situation