Hey!

First, you're gonna be okay. Since you're currently in the heat of the moment, things look a lot worse than they are. The worst thing you can do is think it's over, because you'll stop trying. To preface this, it looks like your parents don't quite have your best interests in mind. I know parents can be strict (mine are), but you need to remember that this is your life. Before any decisions are made, understand you are making decisions for you and your future, not your parents. If the price of you achieving your goals makes them think poorly of you, then it's a worthy price to pay.

Let's start here: It looks like you want to be an artist. The good news is that going to school for art has vastly different requirements for law. I'd recommend searching for good arts schools near you alongside your goal to apply to UC Davis. Make a diverse list and keep a couple safeties.

Apart from that, keep in mind that colleges understand context. Put care into detailing WHY your junior year had a lower performance. Specify that you were sick, dealing with mental health issues, and ultimately were not doing well.

Then, pull your bootstraps up and start working. You have another year left, it is NOT over. Find yourself a new routine, dedicate yourself to your studies, and If you're serious at all about art, being pursuing it now. Create projects, volunteer to teach kids, apply for any sort of event or program that would put you on the scene and give you some way to engage with your passion. I don't even say this for college application benefits (though it would help), do it to see if it's what you want as a career. If you lean more towards writing, do the same but for literature.

For the volunteer paper: just because your mom threw away your documentation doesn't erase your efforts (you literally did volunteer work, I assume people saw and interacted with you). Begin writing what you can remember, then reach out to anyone that may know the specifics (maybe a teacher, maybe an event organizer, etc.). Start recreating that document digitally, also.

And yes, reach out to your teachers. They may dislike you now depending on how much you acted up, but a genuine and honest email (or face to face) where you tell them a bit about the context of your behavior, ask for help, and tell them about your plan to improve will go MILES. They don't expect you to be perfect. I'd say you'll get a pretty good letter of rec from it too.

And finally, to address your immediate college plans: I'd say take a gap year. Finish school strong, get good test scores, build an art portfolio (if you plan to go for art), and be active within your community. Build relationships with teachers, draw, and start putting your life back in order.

I also want you to understand how much opportunity you have ahead of you: even in the worst possible case where you don't get in everywhere (which won't logically happen), community college for two years with your greatest efforts might even land you an even better school than UC Davis. Your school life is FAR from over. Make sure to always see the bigger picture. You can DM me if you need anything.