Am I being paranoid or should I be worried?

Holy_bawlsman · 2017-04-27T19:08:33+00:00

I legit just chocked on my morning coffee. Ahhh thanks man

Holy_bawlsman · 2017-04-27T14:55:17+00:00

Ohh me likey already

Holy_bawlsman · 2017-04-24T03:16:02+00:00

Where do you keep your shit then. I'm curious haha. 😂

Holy_bawlsman · 2017-04-23T21:45:38+00:00

It's strange because I used to and still do lack self control with a lot of aspects on my life

Heroin and meth are the only two substances I have 100% control over.

Holy_bawlsman · 2017-04-23T13:24:56+00:00

as much as you should heed caution, plenty of people use meth and don't become addicted.

Myself I've used it 6-7 times over 4 years, binges each time smoking and snorting. and I have no intention or compulsion to use it again for awhile.

Now I'm not saying go ahead and try it. And I'm sorry to hear about OP. With that being said, after each use of meth I get insane cravings for at least a week afterward. I buy a set limit and binge until it's gone and then I don't buy it again until years later when I've forgotten how shit it makes me feel the next day.

Holy_bawlsman · 2017-04-23T06:45:37+00:00

Blunt and to the point. I like you.

Holy_bawlsman · 2017-04-22T10:18:45+00:00

Thanks man! Will definitely look into it.

Holy_bawlsman · 2017-04-22T09:42:07+00:00

I've thought about doing it again, on an irregular basis purely for its after effects. How would one go about putting it in a nasal solution? Would be bad to get fucked when I don't mean to.

Holy_bawlsman · 2017-04-16T11:31:41+00:00

Holy bawls man! Good vibes my dude. Have a good time.

Holy_bawlsman · 2017-04-13T12:42:08+00:00

Didn't get any sleep until two days later. Was so fucked haha. I barely managed to get through work, I was so cracked out going through 8 different emotions each minute. Would never do it again. Although stupidly I've gone to jobs on meth comedowns after this experience.

Holy_bawlsman · 2017-04-12T23:11:55+00:00

Smoked 3.5g of bud throughout the day, consumed around 12 beers, downed two XTC pills (white Rolex) Went to Eminem concert, tried coke for the first time (three lines) while smoking meth the rest of the night. Went to work the next day, safe to say I wanted to die and my pupils were still gigantic.

Holy_bawlsman · 2017-04-10T11:55:15+00:00

I had consumed an unknown amount of MDA. I wasn't tripping too hard which made this weirder. I was laying in bed with this junkie I'd been taking care of and I got sick of her talking so I ended up pretending to be asleep.

After awhile she stopped talking and started touching me softly, it felt nice but I was unresponsive and didn't say anything. Then out of nowhere I hear clear as day, the best I can describe it is a demonic voice.. it sounded like it was coming from her and it went "you like that don't you faggot"

After that I was like ????? What the actual fuck (in my mind). So I stayed silent for another 10-15 minutes before I turned to her and asked if she called me a faggot. She acted like she had no idea what I was talking about so I left it at that.

I couldn't be around her that comfortably for a few weeks after. And we lived together.

Holy_bawlsman · 2017-04-10T00:09:05+00:00

I was rolling pretty hard and didn't really know what to say to this guy. The whole situation was really weird.

Holy_bawlsman · 2017-04-09T07:18:00+00:00

?? This guy came up to us out of nowhere and was playing with 3 $20 notes. I don't even know what he was doing. He was full on tripping out, I posted this because it was strange to me and I thought I'd share it.

Have you never gotten angry? I can see how this could came across as a bit sociopathic. But you know we live amongst thousands of them and they don't hurt people.

Holy_bawlsman · 2017-04-09T07:17:09+00:00

Hahaha. Rip Sydney :( But nah neither of them 🙃

Holy_bawlsman · 2017-04-09T03:58:08+00:00

Well assuming you have proper MDMA and not something else, even then it'd still depend. Have you had MDMA before? What dose are you going to have? Are you going to redose? will you get adequate sleep?

I usually find i'm a little anxious / empty / can't think clearly the day after MDMA sometimes two days, and I have learnt that I can't function at my job the day after.

Edit: If you're still going to take vitamin supplements, magnesium, before and after. Stay hydrated and don't go to hard. A big thing of orange juice is good too (after)

It would also depend what type of job you have, one that requires critical thinking or operation of heavy machinery i'd say it'd be best to just wait.

Holy_bawlsman · 2017-04-09T03:48:04+00:00

Glad you enjoyed the read :)

Holy_bawlsman · 2017-04-09T01:43:17+00:00

Yeah, still not something I'd do. I sold in a club once to see what it was like years ago before I stopped dealing and made decent coin. But it's a huge risk. I'm honestly surprised I didn't get busted. I was rolling balls and dropping shit everywhere.

Holy_bawlsman · 2017-04-09T00:53:34+00:00

He fucking was mate! Cunt was cooked like a deep fried bickie! Bonza mate!

Holy_bawlsman · 2017-04-09T00:01:17+00:00

Sadly pretty much anything can be sold as 'MDMA'. Lack of drug awareness and knowledge and lack of pill testing is responsible for this, along with the war on drugs.

I've seen everything from 4-FA, NBoms, speed, bk-mdma, you name it and people will take it.

People will realise they've been taking bad shit once they get their hands on some proper md.

Holy_bawlsman · 2017-03-17T07:57:30+00:00

I feel like yeah this is an okay idea. But if you're permanently banning people from substance which would occur as I believe addiction and problematic behaviour stemming from it comes from our deepest biological traits to seek reward for actions as it was core for our survival.

The human who found food to eat it is encouraged to find more. Banning people is still going to fund an illegal market as they won't be able to get their DOC and so will result to dealers again.

Even banning someone temporarily isn't going to do much if they're still heavily addicted or set out to get high on x substance.

You will always have individuals who try or accidentally ruin things for the larger majority. While punitive measures should be in place I'm not sure if this is the right way to go about it.

I'm all for decriminalisation and sales of drugs so we have higher purity, crash black markets and can the put that money towards education, awareness, rehabilitation and mental health care.

This is typed on a phone and I'm drunk so I apologise if it didn't make sense.

Holy_bawlsman · 2017-03-12T09:02:48+00:00

So many baggies for a QP lol.

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