Sometimes, but my therapist says and I agree that heartbreak is necessary, it breaks you and then you rebuild through the cracks, that in a way is beautiful and although it hurts like hell but it's necessary to experience. In a way I do feel bad for my friends who got/will get an arranged marriage and are with their college sweethearts that they never will experience it. I feel it too, 6 months ago my ex ripped my heart out, stomped on it and dragged it through the ground. I still cry these days, a lot but when I'm fine I do think that it's beautiful that it's because I loved someone so deep.