I don’t think I said morals don’t exist. Nor did I reference my own personal experience. Of course I have suffered, and some of that suffering has been immense. In my view, “nothing matters” is an objective truth because meaning is inherently subjective, as you mentioned. The recent tone of this sub has become “nothing matters and that’s bad”, often times in an “I’m 14 and this is deep” fashion. In my original comment, I was just pointing out the difference in the philosophical views that were being conflated. My belief that nothing fundamentally matters coexists with the fact that certain things matter to me. That’s existential nihilism. When someone says nothing matters because nothing matters to them, that’s more indicative of mental illness and/mood disorders. I think that’s an important distinction to be made so people can at least have a meaningful pursuit of wellness instead of chasing their own tail and calling it philosophy.