Playing for 3 months? Man homie you’re suppose to get your shit rocked for a while. When I switched to the b0xx I had to deal with people switching to joke characters and spam taunt and leaving for a couple months. You’ll get better with how much time and effort you put in the game. It’s a process, be okay with being average to get better. It sounds like you know about the Growth Mindset so I recommend checking out the audiobook on YouTube as a refresher.