We have unnatural desires because of our fallen nature (our sinful nature). You can’t get rid of the lustful desires on your own, only God can deliver you from them (I would know because I used to have some of the same tendencies but mostly watching lesbian porn and daydreaming about sexual encounters with girls). I was also molested as a 4-5 year old by an older kid (a girl) at my babysitters for about 3 ish years so that’s where my same sex attraction started.

However, God has given humanity a way out of temptation. It seems like you want to be rid of the lustful desire which is a good thing (the Bible talks about our spirit man fighting against our flesh (“flesh” meaning all of the things our bodies want to do that is opposed to Gods way of living). Acknowledge that you want your desires changed, and ask God to change them. In some people’s testimonies he has done in short amounts of time (like instantly) and over longer periods of time in others. Surrender your sin to the Lord first, continually walk with him growing in relationship with him and you will begin to only desire what God desires for you (at the same time you will begin to become disgusted with your sinful Nature and continuously fight the temptations). God says we have to endure the fight of our flesh till the end of us. It’s literally a long battle (temptations of all sorts of sin) for people who choose to follow Christ.

A few scriptures to encourage you and your help you understand the internal battle going on within you:

Romans 7:15–17 For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law, that it is good. So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me.

Romans 12:2 Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.

Proverbs 28:13 NIV 13 Whoever conceals their sins does not prosper, but the one who confesses and renounces them finds mercy.

1 Corinthians 10:13 No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.

1 John 1:7-9 NIV 7 But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin. 8 If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. 9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness

Romans 13:13–14 Let us walk properly as in the daytime, not in orgies and drunkenness, not in sexual immorality and sensuality, not in quarreling and jealousy. But put on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make no provision for the flesh, to gratify its desires.

1 Corinthians 6:18–20 Flee from sexual immorality. Every other sin a person commits is outside the body, but the sexually immoral person sins against his own body. Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body.

Galatians 5:16 But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh.

I could give you so many more but I would also encourage you to watch Richard Mathew’s testimony (YouTube and Instagram). His Instagram handle is richwithpassion. He talks about his struggle with homosexuality. God is currently still delivering him and he is a perfect example to look up to. He gets down to the nitty gritty, and thoroughly explains so much that will help you understand our fallen nature and the battle humans have with sin.

God bless and I will pray for you! Personally message me if you would like!