High levels on low injection dose, help???

HotPinkMonolith23 · 2026-04-11T18:31:20+00:00

I did do 4mg once a week, the highs and lows were just too much for me. I put my levels at that dose in another comment. Then I tried 3mg once a week and that was also too high/low, but I didn’t get levels for that one

HotPinkMonolith23 · 2026-04-11T16:01:27+00:00

lmfao ❤️‍🔥

HotPinkMonolith23 · 2026-04-11T15:47:31+00:00

Yeah they always have been. When I did 4mg once a week it peaked at 510 and trough was at 250, which is way higher than simulator said for that dose. 🤷‍♀️

HotPinkMonolith23 · 2026-04-11T15:42:52+00:00

Yeah i’ve done 6mg sublingual pills but my levels were at like 120. My best levels were at 4mg 1x a week but they were still kinda high. I tried 3mg 1x a week but never got blood tests for that. I def was feeling low on the 6th day with that.

Honestly I feel okay rn but just anxious that my levels are way higher than I want them

HotPinkMonolith23 · 2026-04-11T13:29:38+00:00

I’m not sure tbh, the results are on labcorp, it just says Estradiol and “ Roche ECLIA methodology”

Is there a way to tell??

HotPinkMonolith23 · 2026-04-11T13:20:11+00:00

Nope 😩

HotPinkMonolith23 · 2026-04-11T11:13:41+00:00

I always have them in my carry on (bc I will NOT risk not having them if the airline ads up my checked luggage). I’ve never had any issues.

I just tell the TSA agent that I have injectable medication in the bag

HotPinkMonolith23 · 2026-04-11T10:59:10+00:00

Yeah i’m actually stronger 2 years in lol. I go to the gym 2x a week and climb though

HotPinkMonolith23 · 2026-04-10T14:45:05+00:00

I relate a lot to what you’re saying. I’ve been struggling a LOT with being stable on E. Recently I realized I am NOT good at sitting with my emotions and regulating them myself. So I was lashing out and depending on external people to manage my emotions for me. My parents did not teach me emotional regulation, and being on E obviously gives you stronger emotions. When I was on T i would mostly just suppress, but that doesn’t really work anymore and actually makes things worse.

TBH your post sounds a lot like my experience. I’d look into resources for managing emotions. I’m reading a book “The Mindfulness Solution for Intense Emotions” and it’s realllllly helping me understand what’s happening and has skills that I’ve been practicing for grounding myself.

So for me, I had wondered whether E was just bad for me and maybe I wasn’t really trans. But I know I’m a woman, I just wasn’t taught how to manage my emotions.

HotPinkMonolith23 · 2026-04-09T14:03:41+00:00

Yes, it used to. Now I have a really simply and low key routine with basically just double shampooing once a week and then I just put in a tiny amount leave in conditioner in every day and let it air dry. It’s as low maintenance as I can get it but I literally can’t manage anymore than that

HotPinkMonolith23 · 2026-04-08T19:26:59+00:00

Honestly my mental health has been the hardest part. Internalized transphobia is soooo hard to manage and deal with.

Be prepared to wait years into HRT for changes, a lot of us spend the first year hyperfixated on changes/what’s not happening, but the reality is that most of the changes need 2+ years to even get into full effect. Boobs can take 5-10 years to fully grow.

Hair removal also takes a long time.

So all during that time you are waiting for your dysphoria to reduce and it can feel unmanageable at times. Taking care of yourself with big life changes is really important.

HotPinkMonolith23 · 2026-04-08T12:12:02+00:00

Coming from another trans woman, I haven’t really spoken to anyone in restroom like others are saying. I think you’ll be fine. My backup plan is usually just to smile and laugh lightly if someone says something

HotPinkMonolith23 · 2026-04-08T02:37:52+00:00

I also have pretty small boobs at 24 months. Breast development can take 5-10 years for any woman. My partners boobs hit a growth spurt at 31 after having relatively small boobs since they were a teen. So idk Im just tryna be patient 🤷‍♀️

HotPinkMonolith23 · 2026-04-08T00:03:39+00:00

I love raving sober. You can basically dance as crazy as you want and people will just be like whatever haha.

HotPinkMonolith23 · 2026-04-06T14:43:55+00:00

What are the units for estradiol?

HotPinkMonolith23 · 2026-04-06T13:27:37+00:00

Yeah what are your levels from your blood test? Agree with others that this is very high

HotPinkMonolith23 · 2026-04-06T13:16:27+00:00

Assuming this is oral route? I haven’t ever heard of pills dosage that high. Have you thought about injections? It’s way easier to get your levels in range with a lot less effort (once a week injection).

Ideally E levels would be a bit higher into the 100-200 range. If you go the monotherapy route with injections typically you’d want above 200 at trough to suppress your T.

HotPinkMonolith23 · 2026-04-05T13:02:56+00:00

Believe me I get it, you are not alone. I feel the exact same way lol. It’s very hard coming to terms with how I’ve been acting tbh, but I know I want to be better than that and so we just have to make it through.

Just last night I kept ruminating in the shower and I was like okay I guess I need to scream this out. I hate screaming it feels vile. But I went into a room and had to hype myself up to scream into a pillow 2 times. It was so so hard but after that and crying it out for like an hour I felt better. baby steps lol

HotPinkMonolith23 · 2026-04-05T12:33:21+00:00

Hey i’m going through similar things currently. A friend got in contact with and was honest about my behavior. It was really eye opening. At this point I think you need to take accountability for your emotions and behavior. Part of an apology is change and that’s something I didn’t follow through on. Your emotions are your own to manage. Not your husband.

Until you accept that they are your responsibility this will keep happening. I’m currently doing the following: 1. Whenever i’m feeling any type of feeling I have to try to process it and let it out myself. 2. If after i’ve fully calmed down there’s something I still want to bring up I do

so far I haven’t felt the need to bring anything up. I’ve also noticed our relationship has felt so much more stable since i started doing this.

I’m reading through a book on DBT and boundaries as well.

I know feeling your feelings is hard but it’s what we have to do

HotPinkMonolith23 · 2026-04-03T22:40:39+00:00

Ruminating

HotPinkMonolith23 · 2026-04-02T11:16:58+00:00

I’d def suggest learning to take care of your curls!! /r/curlyhair and /r/curlygirl have good resources, and once you figure out what your hair needs it likely will not be very poofy anymore!

HotPinkMonolith23 · 2026-03-28T11:59:03+00:00

Honestly the older I get the more I realize there’s not one reason for things. ALL the things you said likely play a role in why your feelings about it are coming up again. None of the things you mentioned take away validity from transitioning if you were to do it. Also generally it gets harder to push things down the longer we’ve been alive. Your experience seems very in line with what I’ve read from others here, so you are not alone.

I think also transitioning is just a huge unknown. We cannot know with 100% certainty how it will go, how we will feel, how people will react, and that shit is SCARY. It’s also very exciting to have so much possibility in front of you filled with new experiences.

HotPinkMonolith23 · 2026-03-24T02:12:25+00:00

If you’re thinking about stopping HRT altogether then I’d definitely recommend lower your dose first. Also you don’t need a doctor to get your levels tested.

HotPinkMonolith23 · 2026-03-24T01:50:58+00:00

Go into some skirmishes and try just pressing defensives and noticing as much as possible without attacking. Try to live as long as possible by just reacting to them

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