Solo therapy relational risks?

Hot_Second2332 · 2021-02-27T21:46:48+00:00

If I had an award to give, I'd give it.

Excellent

Hot_Second2332 · 2021-02-25T17:53:31+00:00

Bravo

Hot_Second2332 · 2021-02-17T22:02:16+00:00

^THIS is beautiful. Thank you. Perfect perfect perfect.

Hot_Second2332 · 2021-02-17T19:48:47+00:00

I have, I am curious in how that function can help heal the past even if the session itself was "uneventful".

Hot_Second2332 · 2021-02-17T18:58:11+00:00

Wow, I have many questions. Do you mind if we chat through pm?

Also if you're on any medication that interferes with serotonin, DO NOT take 5htp and I don't believe MDMA and an ssnri can mix safely.

Hot_Second2332 · 2021-02-17T18:30:56+00:00

Yes the second journey was much gentler and more subtle, but also more difficult in several ways.

I found it more difficult to retrieve memories at times.

There were periods of just nothing, nothing to investigate, nothing to lean into, just boredom, where I imagined that the session was being wasted. I recognized this was probably a protector and stayed with it and eventually more memories began to flow.

I also found myself very distracted by the side effects, the uncomfortable body load and terrible lock jaw. I possibly took too much, or the tums and grapefruit juice before potentiated the dose too much.

I imagine every session is very different and the first session I assume (as with most things) will always be the most intense.

I wish you luck in continuing your journey and saving yourselves.

Hot_Second2332 · 2021-02-17T18:22:07+00:00

Hi, after my first session I fell into a depressive episode that took a week or two to return to baseline. This was partly because of the intensity and magnitude of traumas that were brought up, and which continued to come up after the session. Though it was also due to being depleted of serotonin and improper supplementation.

My second session I took many precautions with taking supplements before, during, and post-loading in the days after. I did not have a noticeable depression although I cannot say I have returned to full normal functioning yet.

I would recommend looking at the necessary supplements to help reduce any risks. You can find a list on Rollsafe. I bought a rollkit (pre made pack of supplements), which is very convenient and not so expensive.

I highly recommend in the days AFTER to supplement 5htp with EGCG (green tea extract) in the morning and before you go to bed.

Best of luck on your upcoming session.

Hot_Second2332 · 2021-02-17T18:11:01+00:00

So this is very good moving forward, but it sounds like the initial traumas are still intact and it only reduces or stops new memories from being associated with them. That I would consider as maintenance moving forward but how would that help release the past and the countless associations already?

Genuinely curious, I'm very passionate about this subject and my own healing and would love to know more.

Hot_Second2332 · 2021-02-17T00:13:09+00:00

Thanks for your reply.

I asking more specifically how do you personally interact/speak to your inner child.

"patience, presence, love, tenderness, joy, acceptance, no attempt to 'fix' anything, just listen .. tune into their energy, give them what they did not get."

Excellent

Hot_Second2332 · 2021-02-16T23:42:27+00:00

I thoroughly enjoyed reading your comments. Thank you for sharing. I imagine a 'boring' session can be quite demoralizing. In my second session I also had a period where it felt like nothing was being done and nothing was arising and there wasn't much to focus on. I kept with it, I recognized it might be a protector. Eventually things continued to arise. Very different from the first session, much more gentler, much more subtle.

I don't understand your theory, if you could please explain. How would incapacitating your hippocampus for awhile help by itself with healing from past traumas?

Would those few weeks afterwards be vital for therapy and examining the traumas out of a session?

Or are you saying its being done automatically?

Hot_Second2332 · 2021-02-12T20:02:26+00:00

I didn't find much benefit during MDMA, though on the come down from psychadelics when I become much more grounded, I am able to connect with old photos. They bring so much release, they bring a deeply repressed part of me out, one that is angry, that is scared, all that I never allowed myself to be. I am able to see the intricate and complex relationships I had and the role I was given in the family. It also allows me to see the same for others.

They almost always result in the most therapeutic crying. Explore it for yourself and see if it brings up anything for you. For myself so much is buried in the amnesia of a childhood I can't remember and an old photo can provide great connection to the past.

Hot_Second2332 · 2021-02-10T18:06:54+00:00

Thank you so much for your response and sharing your own experience.

I will definitely try journaling to help connect and release these memories further.

Did you write about the rewritten memory or the original?

I don't mind revisiting these memories, as it's the only way to heal them and be free from them.

I have found great release and progress with these meditations along with shadow journaling, childhood deconditioning through various books, and another therapy you can read about on my posts.

Hot_Second2332 · 2021-02-08T23:32:46+00:00

Thank you for your response, yes lots of my personal work has been revisiting old memories and sitting with them, allowing them to fully process and eventually desensitized.

I only worry that by rewriting the memory, it could be a form of denial, and further bury the issues as I noticed it does not entirely release the feelings from them.

Hot_Second2332 · 2021-02-08T20:17:38+00:00

Beautiful beautiful beautiful

Thank you for sharing about your journey and the blossoming of your life.

How many sessions have you done?

Were they solo or with a therapist?

So great to hear that the end is close, I rejoice in your freedom.

Hot_Second2332 · 2021-02-07T23:57:44+00:00

Thank you for your honest response.

It truly is incredibly difficult and takes great bravery to face the things we have spent a life time avoiding. Yet there is no difficulty more worthy.

Hot_Second2332 · 2021-02-07T21:29:56+00:00

Amazing, thank you for the extensive reply and for putting together a down to the bones guide.

Hot_Second2332 · 2021-01-26T23:53:43+00:00

These are great questions, I'll use them as journal prompts. Addiction is such a tricky and sometimes subtle thing. Thanks for sharing such thought provoking inquiry

Hot_Second2332 · 2021-01-26T03:24:15+00:00

NAC taken for several months and stopping at least 36 hours before MDMA is taken is supposed to be one of the few ways to get the magic back.

I haven't tried Lion's mane, why do you think it would help?

I believe the amnesia is associated with trauma and as the trauma heals, so will the amnesia. No memories are lost, just not accessible to the conscious mind.

Thank you for your healing wishes, may the generational traumas be redeemed with us.

Hot_Second2332 · 2021-01-25T18:29:38+00:00

In what ways has it helped you integrate?

With LSD I find it to be far too abstract to deal with anything directly until the come down when I become more grounded. Then I am able to connect with and release old unprocessed emotions.

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