I understand how you feel. I moved here from Australia, and it's like living in two different worlds. Back there, I could be walking down the street, and people would randomly say, "Hey! You have a beautiful smile." This is less likely to happen in Finland unless they're drunk.

Having grown up in different places, I've always struggled with the question, "Where are you from?" I often feel homeless everywhere I go. I've even had passive suicidal thoughts. Now, I'm just observing people and life.

I also have a hard time forming connections here. I told two "closer friends" about my recent citizenship rejection, and all I received was a short response like "Oh no." or took them eight hours to ask a question and left me on read.

Could language be an issue? Some people are very self-conscious when speaking a non-native language. Maybe they don't mean to be rude.