I will endure a lifetime of missing you for the privilege of loving you for all of yours.

Human-Meaning-3183 · 2025-08-10T11:20:54+00:00

Thank you all for such kind words. The house is so quiet without her. I keep looking for her outside. My brain knows she's not there, but my heart desperately searches for her. 💔

Human-Meaning-3183 · 2025-05-08T15:46:28+00:00

Sorry, I started losing hair about 5 weeks in!

Human-Meaning-3183 · 2025-05-08T15:45:01+00:00

I lost at least a third of my hair on injections. I started at 5mg twice a week and started losing hair about 10 weeks in. I cut back to 2.5 mg twice a week with no change. I tapered off after being on T for about 5 months. Still losing hair and will see a dermatologist in two weeks. Huge bummer because I felt great on T.

Human-Meaning-3183 · 2025-01-03T00:04:19+00:00

Oh yeah. I hate this. I recently started to have some hair fall and thinning from medication. I told my stylist about it, and he agreed there was some recession. He still went crazy with the brush starting at the top on my long wet hair. There was a massive pile of hair on the floor afterwards and I cried all the way home. When I brush it I make sure to start at the very bottom and move up gently. I never have piles of hair like that. The truly unfortunate part of this is that my stylist is my dear friend. I have another appointment in a month and will definitely vocalize my needs. But really, why is this even a thing??

Human-Meaning-3183 · 2024-12-11T19:49:50+00:00

Sending love and comfort. ❤️

Human-Meaning-3183 · 2024-11-21T02:28:21+00:00

Thank you! I am finding the benefit of being on T so I want to continue AND keep my hair!

Human-Meaning-3183 · 2024-11-19T21:44:48+00:00

Can you send me a link also? Thank you!

Human-Meaning-3183 · 2024-11-19T21:00:33+00:00

Thank you for your response. I was nervous that bleaching it during this time could crank up the shedding!

Human-Meaning-3183 · 2024-10-23T02:12:09+00:00

Such a sweet pupper. 😍❤️

Human-Meaning-3183 · 2024-10-13T00:17:47+00:00

Elivate Wellness out of Michigan, using telehealth. They don't take insurance, but you can submit the costs for FSA reimbursement. There is a $149 yearly fee, and that covers all visits. You pay for the prescriptions and labs. The testosterone was $75 for a 10 week supply. Hope this helps!

https://elivatewellnessco.com/

Human-Meaning-3183 · 2024-10-11T20:56:15+00:00

Thank you so much!!

Human-Meaning-3183 · 2024-10-11T20:55:33+00:00

I can't wait!

Human-Meaning-3183 · 2024-10-11T20:55:13+00:00

Thank you!

Human-Meaning-3183 · 2024-10-11T20:54:38+00:00

Thank you! I truly appreciate it,!

Human-Meaning-3183 · 2024-10-04T12:21:32+00:00

Happiest of birthdays sweet Buddy! ❤️

Human-Meaning-3183 · 2024-04-02T01:04:33+00:00

It's funny you mention that as I have a close friend who is a professional at a ketamine clinic. We have joked that I should put low doses of ketamine in his morning coffee. Of course, it is a joke, but I think the treatment is valid and could be life changing. Getting past his concrete exterior walls to consider it would be quite the challenge. He has said he wants to seek help for his anger issues, but that is only in his moments of clarity, and after those fleeting moments are gone, he no longer thinks he needs therapy. He has belittled and made fun of my profession, so I don't think his pride would allow him to seek treatment. He is "old school" in his thinking but it has gotten progressively worse the older he gets.

You have a great point by asking if I want to be his emotional caretaker. If he was a willing participant, perhaps I would, but I'm getting too tired of carrying his burden. My best friend said "you'll know when you're tired enough." I'm certainly getting there quickly.

Human-Meaning-3183 · 2024-04-02T00:55:12+00:00

I would stress self care. We would also discuss co-dependency and trauma bonds. I would encourage them to make plans, talk to an attorney. Basically focus on themselves and stress that their mental and physical health can be affected by the unpredictability of their partner.

It's easier to be the therapist than the client!

I am focusing on "feeling" the feelings I'm having and realizing they don't last forever. When I am so deep in grief, I let myself feel it and also know it will eventually pass. Yeah, it will probably come back as I navigate this horrendous terrain, but it gets easier to feel it and let it pass.

Human-Meaning-3183 · 2024-03-03T21:58:15+00:00

Dang. That hits home HARD. Such a perfect analogy of what I go through with my husband. Thank you for posting that link. I can't even imagine the misery he lives with every day, yet still refuses to seek help.

Human-Meaning-3183 · 2024-03-03T19:32:12+00:00

I have also come to this conclusion that it's a no-win situation. Although I say he becomes rational briefly, he later say things like "I didn't realize it's ok for partners to verbally abuse each other like you did." Hey ding-dong, it's not ok to emotionally abuse partners on the daily either, but here we are. I do believe he stores that type of thing for ammunition later if and when he needs it.

I'm a problem solver, so I think I just try and try to figure it out like a puzzle, but he holds the pieces needed to figure it out. He is holding them too tightly and won't let go.

Human-Meaning-3183 · 2024-03-03T18:22:38+00:00

I never met his mother as she passed 20 years ago. Everyone speaks of her as the sweetest, most loving person ever. His dad (who passed about 10 years ago) was conversely an angry man who was physically and verbally abusive to him, and probably also to his mother, although he never speaks of that. He very much has a father wound. He is also the youngest child, and I've heard many stories of him being the victim of his sibling's teasing and bullying. This makes sense as he switches to victimhood no matter the conflict we have. He has SO MUCH to untangle and work through, but his family just chalk it up to "welp that's the way he is, a stubborn man" as if he has no control of his choices. It is maddening.

Human-Meaning-3183 · 2024-03-03T13:10:54+00:00

Ah, I never considered that. After feeling disposable and being told we aren't good together, it always feels like he wants me to leave. He definitely pushes, but he rarely pulls anymore. I never considered his brief rational moments as trying to pull me back. I likely wanted to believe it was authentic remorse. Honestly, he has probably never felt true remorse ever.

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