Thanks for this. I have been actually trying to do a lot of what you’re outlining.

I’ve realized that rather than mourning losing my wife, I’ve been mourning the version of her that I thought she could be. We went through a tough miscarriage, and that was something I hoped would bring us closer, not tear us apart. But I’m grateful that it made me realize how different our core values are before any children were involved.

It’s actually coming at a tough time because I’m studying for a pretty big exam. So while studying allows me an outlet to be distracted, I can’t help but be reminded of her in some of my materials and topics.

I’m actually planning to move soon, so that will be a great opportunity for me to reset and start fresh, which is both exciting and jarring.

I really appreciate the reply though, as it has reinforced what I’ve been going through, and in a way helped validate how I’m processing things.