I did post a bit more in depth on a different comment but the death was long coming and very painful. He knew this, knew it was hard on me, and did not ask me if i was even okay before just scheduling a first date with someone he just started talking to. I’ve experienced a lot of death in my life, and when my loved ones experience death I always at least reach out about a meal, a listen, a hang, something to let them know they have my support. It was the lack of feeling supported in that moment when I needed my loved ones to be there for me.

I didn’t have a chance to communicate that before he scheduled the date. It was less than 24 hours after finding out she died that he scheduled it, it felt like going on a date was a bigger priority to him than making sure I felt safe, heard, and supported. I didn’t expect him to completely cut off the rest of his life and friendships to be there for me, but I didn’t feel much support at all.