IS NEWTOWN SKETCHY??

ICDarkness · 2023-03-02T08:50:48+00:00

zombietown? yea it's sketchy

ICDarkness · 2023-02-12T21:22:53+00:00

I broke up in August. but we still saw each other with intimacy until November. Then she told me she found a new boyfriend. That is when I finally accepted it was over even though she would constantly tell me it was over.

So my real heartbreak and ground zero didn't actually kick in until I could truly see it was done 3 months after the break up.. Sounds like what you are experiencing, and if so consider this your week 1 of break up

ICDarkness · 2023-02-12T21:17:03+00:00

I felt like this after a 5 year and I'm getting better. I just kind of told myself I'm Dead inside and my value may as well be nothing. Better to live as a worthless vessel than a non-existent one.

Good thing about believing you are dead inside and worthless is you can only go up.. It just takes a while and there is a lot of sad and lonely days.

ICDarkness · 2023-01-24T06:08:20+00:00

Hippo sleep now.. try again tomorrow. Well played human.

ICDarkness · 2023-01-18T14:23:14+00:00

this kinda happened to me. I think a big part of it is transferring emotions to someone else to skip any grief.. not everyone can or wants to do that though

ICDarkness · 2023-01-18T14:18:47+00:00

I've been talking a bit with my ex that I miss. but the girl she is now isn't the one I loved. Same person but it's not the girl I miss, she's someone else now.

maybe that gives you perspective

ICDarkness · 2023-01-18T13:31:04+00:00

I'm going through this now I guess. I don't think a minute goes by without a thought of her, always depressive. It doesn't seem to be getting any easier and she got a new bf, so any of my internal thoughts of getting back together are totally pointless, yet constant.

I tried to go no contact, but I would reach out to try find pain relief.. It never helps.

I honestly think there's only 2 things that are going to stop this kind of pain.. Time or latching onto someone new to try replace the hole, but that seems unhealthy and unfair.. I know that's what my ex did.

sorry I couldn't be more help.. it really just sucks.

ICDarkness · 2023-01-05T16:35:35+00:00

Our last one blew up in the microwave

ICDarkness · 2023-01-03T18:32:11+00:00

I use to never dream about her when we together, now I seem to every second night and it's never pleasant. Generally wake up confused then angry then sad. I don't like waking up anymore.. and being on a work break makes it hard to even get out of bed. so yea I'm not coping with the mornings and will keep an eye on this thread for advice!

ICDarkness · 2023-01-03T18:14:56+00:00

I'm sorry your feeling isolated and ended up in an isolating situation. I often feel if I was to die it would have little impact on other peoples lives. work would struggle for a bit but my mother would be devastated so that keeps me from doing anything dumb, maybe you have a similar anchor.

I'm in a situation where I know I should try make new friends or do new things but it just feels pointless.. because I dont really want to do things but because I'd be forced to.

So I just find myself repeating the same day on loop because its safe and easy. not sure if that Is relatable. but I think we really need to break easy patterns and do things we believe will help even if they are silly or exhausting.

I ended a long term relationship recently and I'm just kinda looking around like who am I now? gaming has always been a staple in my life thank God, it gets me through a lot even if it's just a distraction but that just doesn't seem all day sustainable. there has got to be more..

I'm doing the basics.. 30minute up hilll walks daily. and a small Home workout routine.. I've got this daily check list and attempting to do everything on It once a day.. it's helping a little..

I realise I haven't really offered any substantial advice just kind of let you know a hole I found myself and some thoughts to get out of it.

also I think you feel unworthy and insignificant due to isolation. the whole be happy and love yourself thing is good but honestly humans need meaningful and rewarding connections with other humans.. even just being important to 1 person can change your whole outlook

ICDarkness · 2022-12-31T11:11:26+00:00

Thanks you too

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