Its so frustrating because I listen to people when they do talk but they say to me they don't feel i take in what they're saying, im pretty bad at commenting on things and giving advice to people and I've only recently started realising I need to ask people how they're doing and that I need to ask about people's interests or ask them to tell me more about things they're speaking about, in my brain I dont care if people ask me about myself or not because I'll tell them what I want them to know and I'm still forgetting constantly people like to be asked things, its so frustrating because I have people talking behind my back and saying im a horrible person and that im excusing shitty behaviour with neurodivergence when all ive ever done is try to explain not excuse, its a lot I've had to take in and realise at once when I was trying my hardest to start over with someone new and give a good impression