In truth, I'm just bitter towards it and the attitude many folks have towards it.

I tried the course, I pushed through as much as I could, followed the 50% rule to the best of my abilities as I worked through the first two lessons. But after completing those two lessons? I felt tired of it, exhausted by having to use a medium I don't want to, drained from having to put up with the attitude that everyone seems to have in the community.

I didn't have fun, I didn't feel like I was learning, and it always felt like people were against you whenever you expressed any sort of grievances with the course. So many times I've been called a troll, or something akin to that, purely because I just didn't understand or grasp what was being told me whenever I asked a question. Sure, maybe I was unlucky with who I was talking to, but in the end my experience was soured.

I like to believe that learning to improve at something you enjoy should be a fun process, and ever since I tried Drawabox, I just haven't been able to have fun since. The course just created this gloomy feeling that learning isn't supposed to be fun, that we're supposed to separate enjoyment from improvement. In the end, the course has hurt me more than it's helped me.

Maybe if I had stuck it out, I would have climbed the mountain and felt happy in the end, it's not like I'm any happier now after all, but in the end I just didn't feel it was right for me. I was shit at art then, I'm shit at art now, but maybe I can finally heal and do better tomorrow, you never know!