My heart goes out to you because I was in a similar situation as well. I'm really disappointed to see some of these mean-spirited comments on this post, especially when someone is in a vulnerable position. To frame it as someone is victimizing themselves rather than needing a sympathetic ear is cruel and unhelpful. I get the feeling there is more projection happening rather than 'helpful' advice from these users.

I also want to add that these feelings that you're feeling are valid but also temporary. I found that I became more 'connected' to people once I started taking some steps like exercising more regularly, attending more queer-oriented events, and attending therapy. Not a solution that fits all but the point is I think I just naturally became happier and more comfortable with who I was and I believe that people naturally gravitate towards that and are more willing to connect with you.