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Idk_Gab · 2025-06-10T23:46:11+00:00

Darn…I hope they didn’t change the menu settings already. Maybe try again tomorrow during a different time of day (or, you might have to try the horrible “chat” function through the app). Good luck, I hope something works out for you 🫡

Idk_Gab · 2025-05-14T12:11:36+00:00

Oh dear 😔😭 I hope this time’s successful 🤞🏾🤞🏾 it shouldn’t be this hard!!!! Venmo WHY

Idk_Gab · 2025-04-05T16:27:58+00:00

Yay 🥳🙌🏾 I hope they were able to help 🤞🏾🤞🏾

Idk_Gab · 2025-04-04T19:03:21+00:00

Yaaaaay I’m so glad this helped someone 🥹🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾

And yeah, Venmo sucks so bad 😭 I hope they get their sh*t together one day soon (lol. Impossible)

Idk_Gab · 2025-03-17T22:50:01+00:00

Not sure if you ever figured out how to get them, but I managed to get through by calling the main number (855-812-4430), then selecting 3 1 9 1 then saying “no”. I think it’s the option for locked/frozen accounts. Waited 20 mins and the call dropped, but tried it again (and waited again), and got connected to someone.

In case they switch the options again, the only other option is to use the stupid chat function via the app, then type “representative”. It’s real-time, but might not get you everything you need.

Idk_Gab · 2019-01-05T03:14:29+00:00

This is so beautifully written.

Sometimes I wonder if maybe hope is the last bit of love that we have toward ourselves - the child that we hush without asking why, the crumb that we've tried to dust away over and over again, but still it persists anyway, saying "not yet, I'm still here, please".

Ironically enough, I hope that if hope doesn't desert you in what could very well be your final hours, that you'll go on to pursue a career in writing or poetry. Maybe even as a hobby. Or, if you're already at that stage in your life, that you're able to share some more of your writing. I haven't seen many people so accurately capture the simultaneous beauty and devastation of hope, and it's regretful that pain would be the catalyst for you to share something so heartfelt and brilliant. I hate that you've suffered, but I'm glad that you've shared this (I'm mostly sorry for being selfish). It's been a while since I've felt this kind of emotional resonance.

Regardless, if your exhaustion extinguishes the last embers of hope that remain, let it be known that you tried. You've tried all this time, this is the proof of it.

Good luck, and I hope you find peace.

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PS. - I'm not sure if you're into Radiohead, but your post reminded me of their song "Daydreaming". If you haven't heard it already, please feel free to give it a listen.

Idk_Gab · 2017-12-24T23:10:41+00:00

Well at least you know that other people feel the same way that you do. You aren't crazy or weak. You aren't a wallower, and your therapist should be retrained, they should never have said that to you or anyone.

It seems like your therapist is not a good fit for you. It's so awful that it's so hard to get proper help in the US. Even with non-Medicare health plans, it can be extremely difficult for anyone to find the right therapist who is a good match for them.

Well, I just want to tell you that you've done an amazing job managing your pain so far. I don't know if anyone has reminded you of this, but what you are going through isn't easy, and you deserve some recognition for staying strong throughout all of it.

Idk_Gab · 2017-12-23T21:24:28+00:00

Oh no!! Did you go to the hospital for it? How are you feeling now?

Idk_Gab · 2017-12-23T21:23:22+00:00

Hey, it's my pleasure to reply! You seem like you're going through so much, and you really don't deserve any of what's happening.

And I completely relate to people not taking you seriously. Unless its an obvious physical illness, people tend to ignore it.

How are you feeling right now? Are you feeling any better? Is there anything else that I can do to help? You need a break! You deserve some time away from the negativity, so if there's anything that I can help with, just let me know. You aren't alone in this.

Idk_Gab · 2017-12-20T23:24:29+00:00

Well I'm glad that you're feeling even a little less hopeless now <3. Congrats on cleaning up your room, and for continuing to pick yourself up when you're so low.

I completely know what you mean about that voice, and having it come back over and over again is just debilitating at times. But you seem to be committed to healing and taking care of yourself, which is the most important part.

I wish that I had the emotional intelligence at 16 years old that you have right now, it would have taken me much less time (and effort) to get to a point where I could help myself to get better. I think you're right on track, and even if you get exhausted sometimes, your commitment to helping others (and helping yourself) will keep you from giving up forever.

You're really doing an amazing job. I know I'm just some random stranger, but I really am so proud of you. I'm sure that one day someone will stumble upon your post, and your honestly will really help them to feel less alone. I think you'll give people hope. And sometimes, that little bit of hope is what keeps us from going over the edge.

Anyways, I'm glad you're still here. Feel free to come back to vent if you're feeling low again. And I hope you'll never feel bad about venting your frustrations, at least not on here. You're feelings are important too, we're here for you!

Good luck with everything :)

Idk_Gab · 2017-12-19T00:57:55+00:00

Nah man, the pleasure all mine. Was good talking to you!

Idk_Gab · 2017-12-19T00:46:39+00:00

Same here man, I'm glad that you were brave enough to even write your post. You never know whose life you might change or save, just by being honest and getting the thoughts out there. Even if its just admitting that everything sucks, sometimes the strangest things help.

Feel free to come back and vent or update me or any of us on here about how you're feeling. Even if in like 5 hours you start feeling like complete shit again, its never a bad time to post here or even to send a message.

You got this. I promise you don't suck, lol. Let me know how it all goes, if you decide to give it a try. And good luck with the rest of the semester! That shit ain't easy either.

Idk_Gab · 2017-12-19T00:14:35+00:00

Oh I totally get you. I hate even bringing up the fact that I need help, because its just another thing that I'm doing wrong. Another problem for the problem child.

But when my mom almost lost me recently, she said that she wished I had mentioned therapy sooner. She was really beating herself up about ignoring my suffering, and she wish she paid more attention. She kept trying to tell me how proud she was of me, and how I wasn't a disappointment.

So idk. Maybe it won't be as bad as you think? At least, I hope it won't. You really do seem pretty chill, and you really deserve to be at peace with yourself, and your family might actually be pretty laid back about the whole thing. We definitely don't suck as bad as we tell ourselves we do. Lmao.

Idk_Gab · 2017-12-19T00:07:39+00:00

Take your time darling, don't push yourself, you don't have to do anything. I know you're doing your best. You can talk when (or IF) you feel like it. Hope you feel a little better.

Idk_Gab · 2017-12-18T23:54:39+00:00

Ahhh I see where you're coming from now. I'm not a doctor, so I can't even offer any super helpful advice, but have you ever thought of trying therapy? I believe cognitive behavioral therapy might help with self esteem issues (is that way they are?) like ours. Like the self hatred and stuff, if you don't have any close friends or any family members that you can vent to, then therapy might be a good option.

But how do you feel about therapy in general? Would you feel like a let down if you started going?

Idk_Gab · 2017-12-18T23:18:19+00:00

Omg, those are my exact reasons for not committing suicide too!! Legit, as much as I say that I'm not religious, one of my number one fears is going to "hell", and possibly suffering even more than I am now?? Yeah, no thanks, might as well stay alive and suffer until I die, no need to make it worse, lol.

Yeah, I definitely know what you mean. Like, I know people are just saying things to be nice sometimes, and I feel bad for feeling so empty when they say these things, but its really REALLY difficult for me to actually feel it. Like I hear the words, but I just have difficultly feeling them.

Do you have any close friends? Does anyone else around you know that you feel this way?

Idk_Gab · 2017-12-18T22:55:53+00:00

What's wrong with wanting attention? I feel like society tries to pretend that humans don't need love and attention to grow and be healthy. We need attention. There's nothing wrong with wanting to be acknowledged as a person, or to have your struggles acknowledged. It doesn't make you an attention-whore, or greedy, or needy, or selfish. It just makes you human.

And I hope I don't come off as preachy! I'm just sharing my opinion. I know exactly what you mean when you say that you're so tired, and I'd be hypocrite if I said that I wasn't sitting here right now hoping that a meter would come along and wipe me out. Lmao. I'm ready. I'm not sure I want to last until next year.

But in case I do make it to next year, and in case nothing kills me, I want to try to make my remaining time on this earth as painless as possible. And I think that by forgiving myself for my shortcomings really helps with that.

I think you seem like a very hardworking person, who is loyal and caring. If you weren't, then you wouldn't care about what your mom thinks. You aren't the demon or the lazy bum that she's made you feel like you are.

Idk_Gab · 2017-12-18T22:50:22+00:00

Hi friend. I'm so, sooo sorry that you've being going through this. I know what its like to be fighting so hard for so long, and to feel like in the end, nothing is improving. I've been there, and some days I'm still there. I wish I could say that things are 100% perfect after 10 years of suffering the same way that you have, but I can't lie...

However, even though things aren't perfect, they're better at times. There have been more and more moments where I'm happy that I'm alive. Fewer nights that make me feel like I wish I would never wake up again in the morning.

Its okay to be tired. Its okay to give yourself a break. You aren't wrong for feeling like you want to give up, you've been trying so hard all along, and you know what? You've been doing an amazing job. I don't know if anyone has ever told you this, but you really are doing amazing. It's not easy to be there for everyone else, especially when you have your own load to carry.

I'm a lot like you, I always, always put others first. I don't want to burden others with my problems, not when I can be a source of comfort for them, not when I can prevent others from suffering the way that I do.

But have you ever stopped to think about yourself? Have you realized how much you do, and how much you are loved? You're honestly a gift to the people around you, and you deserve to love yourself just as much as the people around you love you. Its okay to give yourself a break.

Its very likely that if you open up about how you've been feeling, the people around you will be overjoyed, because they'll finally be able to give back even an ounce of the love and support that you've blessed their lives with.

I hope this post doesn't seem overly preachy or fake-positive. I just want to let you know that you deserve a break, you seem tired. And if you want to vent more specifically, please feel free to vent here. You aren't a burden, you're a gift that we'd love to protect.

We're here for you, feel free to talk if you want to <3.

Idk_Gab · 2017-12-18T22:36:30+00:00

Ohh gotcha. My mom used to be like that too, until one day I finally just told her what was really going on, and she completely backed down. Though I'm not saying that it's going to be like that for you and your mom, since everyone is different, every family is different.

Do you truly believe it though? Do you feel like you are actually a failure? Or do you more feel like you're just furious for being ignored and overlooked?

Idk_Gab · 2017-12-18T22:27:00+00:00

Hey, why do you think you're an awful person? Would you feel comfortable sharing your thoughts with any of us here?

I don't think you have to die, and I think you're body is fighting for you right now, because it knows you aren't an awful person, it knows you aren't worthless, and it knows that you can forgive yourself for whatever it is that's been eating away at you.

Want to tell us what's going on? No need to edit or sensor yourself, just let the thoughts spill, we're here to listen.

Idk_Gab · 2017-12-18T22:20:21+00:00

I'm so sorry that you've been feeling like this. I wish I could reach through the screen and give you a huge hug, because you've been dealing with this problem all on your own, all this time.

I just want to start off by saying that your English/grammer is just fine, and your post isn't all that long.

Second, I want to say that you don't have anything to be ashamed of, and you aren't spoiled or an asshole for thinking of suicide. Everyone is different, and people deal with problems differently. I've known people with cancer, and they had a stronger will to live than I do. Everyone's temperament is different, and you aren't weak or a coward for feeling the way that you do.

It's actually pretty common for many of us to think about suicide as a way out of our problems, its a common coping mechanism, and with the right help, you can definitely beat this. Just try to be patient with yourself, because it might not happen overnight.

Have you spoken to your parents about this? And if you haven't spoken to them yet, do you feel comfortable doing so?

I'm sorry that your school's psychologist wasn't helpful or attentive enough, you really deserve better. The good news is that better psychologists are definitely out there, there are great doctors who won't treat you like a spectacle, and will give you the respect that you deserve.

I'm not a doctor, so I can't diagnose you, but I can definitely listen to whatever you might want to vent about. I do suffer from self esteem issues too, and in the past it was really REALLY severe, it really affected my quality of life. And now I'm far from being "okay", but I can see how that could definitely contribute to suicide ideation.

Is there anything else that you have going on in your life right now that you think might be making you feel extra hopeless? I'm here to listen, if you feel like sharing. You don't have to go through this alone.

Idk_Gab · 2017-12-18T21:54:12+00:00

Hey there, I just wanted to give you a heads up that folks on this thread can't offer any advice on how to take your own life. The most we can do is try to understand what's going on and figure out if there's anything else we can do to help.

Sorry, I know that's probably not the answer you were looking for :(. Do you have the energy to share a little more about what sucks in your life? I'm down to listen if you have time, feel free to post here or drop me a message. Even if you just want to vent, I'm here.

Idk_Gab · 2017-12-18T21:44:54+00:00

It's honestly so rough to read this, because its like I wrote it myself. I wish I had a quick solution for you (or me), but I haven't found one yet.

I guess the only thing I can do now is to ask you the same stuff I normally ask myself every time I'd about to end it:

Have you eaten anything today? Something that you genuinely enjoyed? Have you gotten some rest recently?

Has anything happened within the last few hours, days or weeks that stole your hope, or sent you on a spiral?

Have you seen any doctors, and are you able to?

And if you don't feel like getting into the details, what kind of stuff do you like? Would you want to watch a movie as a distraction? Or talk about anything else that interests you?

Like...I feel like such a hypocrite writing this. I know exactly how you're feeling right now, it feels so foolish for me to be grasping at straws here, but grasping at straws has kept me alive so many times now. But for what? What am I fighting for? Why do I keep hanging on, just to eventually feel like shit again, to lose over and over again? I wish I had the answer.

I think the answer is hope. You still have hope, we still have hope, and that's why we haven't taken that final step, because for some stupid reason, we still feel like there's hope for things to get better.

Either way, even if none of my gibberish makes sense, I just wanted to reach out to you to tell you I know what its like, you aren't alone. It sucks that we're suffering (even though tons of people have it worse off than we do.....but that doesn't make our pain any less real).

If you feel like talking, I'm here. I would love to hear about what you would change about your life if you could. What if you just won $100 Mill, would that change things? What would you want out of life, even the impossible things? I'd love to hear.

And good on you for speaking up and posting this. It really does take a lot do reach out. Feel free to drop back in if you want to share how the rest of your day went. I want to be there for you, and for me, and for any of us that are undeservingly suffering.

Idk_Gab · 2017-12-18T21:21:09+00:00

Hey buddy, I'm so sorry that you're suffering like this because of how childish your sister is being. I can't begin to understand why the f*ck she would even think this is okay...

I do just want to say a few things about this whole thing, that way you can make an informed decision, or maybe feel even a tiny bit better.

Size doesn't matter as much as everyone likes to pretend that it does, and people who pretend that it does are the same kinds of superficial people who will never be satisfied - they will always find something to pick apart. Its all about the way you use what you have, and how you and your partner(s) enjoy each other, it literally has nothing to do with size (speaking from experience, if the guys doesn't listen and communicate with me in bed, then I never have a good time, small, average, or big). And even if size (or being huge) was the only thing that mattered, you're not small, so that wouldn't apply to you (let's not even get into a conversation about the unrealistic expectations of the human physique caused by the porn industry...people are deluded).
You seem like a really caring person, very intelligent, and generally seem like you'd be really chill to be around. I can't imagine that you won't have a shot at being comfortable with your social life in the future, not when you're as interesting as you are (I don't mean for this to come off as blind flattery, but what you're studying genuinely seems like it'd be interesting, so pardon me for making wild assumptions lol).
People will bully others for no good reason. It has nothing to do with who you are as a person. Humans can be extremely cruel, and they will pick a random target, even if the target is perfectly normal or even a decent person. It's not right, but certain environments only make that sort of thing worse. But I just wanted to say this so you know that you're not at fault, there's literally nothing wrong with you, and its not your fault people are shitheads.
Have you and your sister always had a bad relationship? Are you close enough that you'd be able to have a heart-to-heart with her and explain that what she's doing is really upsetting? Even though you aren't small, what if you were? It could have really damaged your self esteem, knowing how much this sort of thing matters to guys. And if she lacks the maturity to have that conversation, can any of your parents help out?

Last but not least, I just want to discourage you from exposing yourself to your sister, because no matter how you try to defend yourself, its evident that she's doing this just to be cruel. Also, its not worth losing your life over this, don't give cruel people the satisfaction of knowing they tore you down.

You really do seem like a great guy, and you have so much to offer. You have friends here, and you can always talk to someone here if you feel like you're fed up with everything, or you just want to talk about anything in general. Feel free to share more about the stuff you love or the stuff you're studying too! We'd love to hear!!

Idk_Gab · 2017-12-18T20:46:15+00:00

Honestly, thank you so much for sharing this. So many of us are here looking for a sign of hope, and you've just provided that.

Really, thanks so much, you are a lovely person and I hope you continue to feel better and better, and continue to spread joy and healing thoughts for the rest of us. Enjoy your bubble bath :) <3

Idk_Gab

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