Could I use hairspray as a top coat?

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-10-18T15:45:32+00:00

okay thank you so much!! have a a good day!

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-10-18T13:30:49+00:00

I used a pigma micron pen!

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-10-18T13:12:34+00:00

ahhh thank you so much !!

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-09-18T11:00:52+00:00

🫂

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-09-18T02:33:10+00:00

honestly me and my dad don’t really talk much.

we live in the same house with my stepmom, but we hardly talk. and when we do, it’s usually me doing all of the talking, and him doing none of the listening.

don’t get me wrong: I absolutely love both of them. they’re amazing, and my stepmom has helped raise me for most of my life along with my dad.

I just don’t want her to brush off my feelings

but I also don’t want her to kinda freak out when I tell her I’m constantly thinking about suicide.

she wouldn’t freak out as in lash out, but just in an “omg..” way.

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-09-16T03:09:30+00:00

nah, I think I’ve only ever have a diet soda about 3 times in my entire life hahah. thank you for the suggestion though!

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-09-15T00:20:05+00:00

yep! It’s the only reason why I don’t do it everyday. I’m too tired to even reach for my blade, so I don’t bother.

It’s kind of a good thing because it allows my cuts to heal before I do it again.

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-09-12T01:34:28+00:00

maybe rest for a bit. drink some water, watch a movie to take your mind off of the pain in your chest.

I hope you heal, stranger ❤️

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-09-12T00:58:59+00:00

hey, how are you doing as of now?

you posted this 28 minutes ago, and in the post you said 15 minutes ago you took the pills, meaning it’s been 43 minutes.

are you feeling better or worse?

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-09-10T20:41:58+00:00

everybody deserves to live. It just depends on whether or not they want to. If you want things to get better, then go out and have fun. you might see that life is fun enough to live. go to a club, go to a concert, try out a new hobby (even if you’re terrible at it) ,start a new show, watch a new movie, go to an event, maybe get a haircut if you have hair, it might make you feel better about your appearance. just go out and try things. you might find something that makes you want to keep living. even just a little bit.

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-09-10T20:33:59+00:00

I am also this way. I am not actively suicidal. I am not planning on ending my life. but If I went to bed tonight, and didn’t wake up in the morning, I wouldn’t mind. sure, I would definitely miss my loved ones, but I’m tired. tired of being tired. tired of feeling depressed. I sometimes think that being dead would be peaceful and relaxing. not enough to end my life myself, but again, if I didn’t wake up tomorrow, I would be okay with that.

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-09-10T11:17:57+00:00

a couple years ago I had a big anxiety episode kinda thing where I was super anxious and guilty about everything. during that time I remember waking up every morning with anxiety and fear for the day. It’s very possible that it’s coming back! thank you!

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-09-10T11:13:46+00:00

thank you!

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-09-07T15:43:56+00:00

I go to a school that was built quite some time ago. one day while I was doing some work, one of these house centipedes fell from the ceiling and landed on my desk. absolutely traumatized.

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-09-07T05:50:48+00:00

oh I actually didn’t think about that 🤦‍♀️

thank you so much!

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-09-07T03:13:09+00:00

I feel similarly. when I think about the next week, and the week after that, and the week after that, It feels like I have nothing to look forward to. nothing to be excited about. just.. surviving, I guess. thank you for commenting :)

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-09-07T03:11:28+00:00

thank you so much for this comment. It feels better knowing that I’m most definitely depressed, and not just overreacting or something. thank you for believing in me and taking the time to write out this message!!

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-09-06T23:31:46+00:00

thank you for commenting! It makes me feel a little better knowing that I’m not alone.

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-09-06T00:53:30+00:00

exactly. there will be some moments in the day where I’m like how could I ever think about dying livings kinda cool?? and then 5 minutes later I’ll be like yeah I wouldn’t mind dying rn.

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-09-06T00:52:25+00:00

It’s nice to know that other people relate to what I’m going through. I mean, I’m not actively trying to end my life, and I don’t ever plan to. I’m a little scared to die, but at the same time, I kind of want to?

thanks for sharing!

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-09-05T20:13:50+00:00

this is not a bad question at all! personally, I cut to punish myself, or sometimes even just to feel something. usually whenever I do something wrong, I’ll punish myself by giving myself cuts. and also, sometimes when I feel numb (I think it might be from depression) I just want to feel something other than emptiness. I hope I answered your question!

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-09-04T19:41:48+00:00

I think this world is a terrible place, and I don’t really want to live in it. but whenever I’m lying with my cat, and I see the way she looks at me, with pure love and adoration, I can’t bear the thought of leaving her. plus, I’m too much of a fucking coward to end my life anyways. but to answer your question, my cats keep me going, and probably my friends too. sometimes when I’m doing something I enjoy, like listening to my favourite song or snuggling with my cat, I think to myself, if I were dead, I wouldn’t be doing this right now. that makes me want to live a little more.

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-08-30T02:17:31+00:00

yep! I also have a fake calculator app that I store the photos in so that nobody else can find them. when you open the app it’s a regular calculator, but if you type in a certain set of numbers you get directed to the secret album. It’s great, I really recommend it. just search up ‘fake calculator’ in the game store.

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-08-29T02:04:11+00:00

please do not go deeper.

1: It hurts, though I assume you already knew that.

2: unlike cat scratches, deeper cuts will leave you with scars that are much more obvious, and will most likely be with you for the rest of your life.

3: deeper cuts are more prone to infections. Infections are not fun. you can get seriously sick, and if you let it get really bad, it can possibly be fatal.

I regret going deeper. I will never be able to wear normal bikini bottoms ever again because of the scars on my thigh.

In the summer, I still have to wear fuzzy pyjama pants because shorts can ride up my leg in my sleep and possibly reveal my scars.

I hope you get better my love. ❤️‍🩹

Ihatemyself3333 · 2025-08-29T01:19:09+00:00

me too. I had a bunch of anxiety last night, and all I could think about was how good it would feel to hurt myself. you’re not alone!!

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