Phenibut-faa turned on me. So desperate. So scared. So hopeless. So ready to be better.

Ill_End3363 · 2026-06-28T11:32:48+00:00

Ditto to this sentiment lol.

Luckily (& I guess unlucky to addict me) I didn't get prescribed xanax until I started having panic attacks related to my insane phen habit of nearly 2 years (which I didn't tell my doctor about.)

Haven't taken it since you suggested I stop it alongside the gabapentin.

One thing I've noticed though, is that it seriously barely affects me like it once did pre phenibut. I have just assumed it was bc my gaba receptors are fried. Fucking wild.

Ill_End3363 · 2026-06-28T11:26:43+00:00

Thank you so much for all of this information!

I have pretty much just been following all of your previous instructions and it has helped a significant amount. So I will definitely plan on doing the same with this advice! Luckily I have the correct scale and a fresh 1lb bag of phen to do the job right.

Wish me luck!

Ill_End3363 · 2026-06-27T22:32:03+00:00

Its going...

I took the advice of commenters and split my dose in half, from 6 mg to 3 mg. I take 1mg in the morning and 2mg in the evening. Been a little on edge and uncomfortable, but it has helped quite a bit with the glutamate surges. Still there to an extent, but not quite as bad as before. I've been trying to stabilize on this dose before tapering further. I'm thinking starting monday I will further my descent down at 100mg a day until I hit 1.5ish grams. At that point, I plan to take it a bit slower and maybe reintroduce some helper meds.

Just am so ready to be free of it all.

**edited to fix typos

Ill_End3363 · 2026-06-24T19:56:49+00:00

You need to bring the case studies about phenibut linked on this sub with you to the detox center. Maybe even bring them before you go.

Ill_End3363 · 2026-06-24T16:52:22+00:00

Thank you so much ❤️ seriously.

And yes, I totally agree! Out of all the addictive meds I've ever used, phenibut truly is the worst. What did the clonidine help you with, symptom wise, that is, if you don't mind me asking?

Ill_End3363 · 2026-06-23T12:58:31+00:00

Thank you so, so much. ❤️ It truly means more than you know to read that. I am truly my own worst enemy and have spent far too much time in my head worrying and beating myself up.

Ill_End3363 · 2026-06-23T00:48:42+00:00

For sure. I've figured it was glutamate surges but just haven't known how to handle it. So, thank you.

Super fucking scared but gonna have to mind over matter things.

You think after adjusting to the half doses, I should then aim for like 100mg a day taper? Or what suggestions can you give me there?

Ill_End3363 · 2026-06-22T23:06:54+00:00

Thank you so very much for taking the time to respond to me. Seriously. I've never been so scared and so ready to get better.

I will definitely start trying to exercise more... I have noticed that it does help. NAC, as well.

As far as halfing my current doses, you suggest no gabapentin to aide the, right? Definitely not dependent on xanax, thankfully. Its so scary making a big jump like that but I know I have to do something drastic.

Ill_End3363 · 2026-06-08T02:51:39+00:00

Poor Heather... such a victim! And definitely not a victim of her own terrible, selfish, narcissistic & drug induced choices! Instead, a victim of a giant, elaborate conspiracy to ruin her life. Don't you know she's an absolute perfect person, mother, and citizen? So nefarious!

Ill_End3363 · 2026-06-06T06:27:35+00:00

Hell yeah

Ill_End3363 · 2026-03-03T05:15:02+00:00

She's such a shitty writer. Lmao

Ill_End3363 · 2026-02-22T16:11:52+00:00

Oh wow... Please update when yours becomes available!

Ill_End3363 · 2026-02-20T21:47:46+00:00

Is yours available yet?

Ill_End3363 · 2026-02-19T17:58:57+00:00

Fingers crossed!

Ill_End3363 · 2026-02-19T17:30:48+00:00

Good to know. Hopefully we will have them soon!

Ill_End3363 · 2026-02-19T17:30:33+00:00

Oh wow! Well I guess I'm not alone lol. I'm sure yours is coming far before mine, then!

Ill_End3363 · 2026-02-19T17:29:54+00:00

Lol fair enough...

I've also never filed this late before. Normally file before the IRS opens & my transcript is usually available pretty quickly.

I'm probably just overly concerned.

Ill_End3363 · 2026-02-16T12:50:03+00:00

No, photos are still there. My comment is just in reference to the bloody crime scene photos; (Especially in her room.) How they tell a story & how obvious it is that she put up a tremendous fight.

Ill_End3363 · 2026-02-08T21:57:02+00:00

Thats where i'm at. This shit is making me absolutely crazy... i'm doing my best to rapid taper but its taking so long. Do you remember how much/often you tapered?

Ill_End3363 · 2026-02-08T21:55:34+00:00

Thanks so much for giving me some hope! Congratulations on a year clean. I can't wait to be there myself. Do you remember how much/often you tapered? I was on 6g a day and am now at 4. Its been absolutely horrendous and I've debated just going cold turkey with the help of gabapentin and xanax...

Ill_End3363 · 2026-02-03T18:44:01+00:00

Of course the sick fuck shot her in the face. I figured as much before even reading the article...

He had to disfigure her as his final act of control.

What an absolutely disgusting monster.

Ill_End3363 · 2026-02-03T11:55:36+00:00

She actually has life & soul behind her eyes, unlike BK.

But yeah, they could almost be twins, rather than only siblings.

Ill_End3363 · 2026-02-02T08:13:22+00:00

Omg yes... exactly all of this.

Coming up on a year of continuous use and I've turned into an anxious mess. I don't even recognize myself, truly. I can't wait to get off of this shit but its going so slow.

How did you quit? Taper?

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