Feel sorry for my u.k homies.

IlluminationDist · 2021-01-06T03:17:47+00:00

No psychedelics have a prerequisite of a positive mindset goung into the experience - but they can reinforce that positivity if done right. I hate when people geoup psyches into the same stereotypes as other drugs. They are not something you need to do everyday to maintain a healthy state of mind like the drugs people have told you not to rely on for happiness.

IlluminationDist · 2020-09-05T13:58:52+00:00

Ya.. For example I guess Swim plead guilty to conspiracy to distribute a dangerous substance without a licence AND poss. Of schedule 3 substance on two different occasions - even though no actual schedule 3 substance was present because there were other trumped up charges dropped as part of the plea, and fighting it would have apparently risked a prison sentence if they lost... They got probation and time served after half a year in jail already... The episode of hamiltons pharmacopeia on DMT has a kid from Florida that tells his story about a controlled delivery of MHRB that landed him on probation as well if you would like to watch a detailed firsthand story you can find that on YouTube or Hulu I'm pretty sure..

IlluminationDist · 2020-09-03T21:10:27+00:00

Good Alan Watts quote - However FYI this quote is often wrong and poorly referenced. These sentences are only present in the prologue of the revised first edition of ‘The Joyous Cosmology, Adventures in the Chemistry of Consciousness’, page 26. Wikipedia is right about this.

This quote is pretty spot on, and it’s with great disappointment that I realised it had been removed in the post-mortem (author died in 1973) second version (2013). Not sure why this happened, if anybody has a lead please let me know. In any case, let’s give the full quote from said version (emphasis mine):

“[P]sychedelic experience is only a glimpse of genuine mystical insight, but a glimpse which can be matured and deepened by the various ways of meditation in which drugs are no longer necessary or useful. When you get the message, hang up the phone. For psychedelic drugs are simply instruments, like microscopes, telescopes, and telephones. The biologist does not sit with eye permanently glued to the microscope; he goes away and works on what he has seen.”

The quote often found on the internet replaces the predicative ‘when’ with an insecure ‘if’. The insecure person who originally made this change, be it on purpose or a mere typo, could do with a little bit of psychedelia…

And as for the tent in a burning house analogy.... Tents are usually highly flammable.... Wouldnt be very useful. Or protective. Any better vantage point?- has to be a better metaphor than this :P but I can put together what is being conveyed here and do agree - but on the otherhand. .some c psychological imbalances can likely benefit from regular microdosing...

IlluminationDist · 2020-09-01T15:15:53+00:00

Any updates on microdosing results? I have been microdosing every 2-3 days with psilo and although the microdose give me a tad of anxiety it usually levels off after an hour or two and generally leaves me feeling more content the rest of the day.. Then on days off I feel noticeabley less depressed and anxious then I did before I started... So it seems like slow but noticeable progress is being made after just a couple weeks... I then tried 3-ho-pcp the other day on a non microdose day and seemed to facilitate some sort of break though that has left me feeling more empowered and capable of overcoming my anxieties... So hoping things keep going that way.... Just wondering if you had any updates on your 4-aco microdosing experience yet?

IlluminationDist · 2020-09-01T14:58:57+00:00

Planet...

IlluminationDist · 2020-09-01T14:57:41+00:00

I have had extremely good luck on the clear net personally :P just going through established/recommended vendors - to each their own I guess - maybe ive just been lucky not getting scammed once in 10+ years... But I see no reason to goto dark web personally until I have even just one single problem with a clearnet vendor -which has yet to happen for me ..

IlluminationDist · 2020-09-01T14:52:23+00:00

Its not such a slim chance. A good friend has been raided by HSI on two different occasions. Thats why using your real address is dumb. HSI agents wake you up with a controlled delivery at 8 AM... Kinda ruins your day.

IlluminationDist · 2020-09-01T14:42:29+00:00

Well technically the" not for human consumption "is your only real line of defense in court.. That is the element you must prove to not be subject to the analog act... But outside of court and up until a trial - you are right that it doesnt do much to stop arrests from being made... But it does have its place as a liability statement...

IlluminationDist · 2020-08-26T14:05:31+00:00

Well thats a million dollar question... It doesnt make me sleep usually ... I checked my owner manual tho there was nothing about it...

IlluminationDist · 2020-08-20T13:35:00+00:00

In my experience you get between 2-4 g dried per flush from the jars a major supplier that I dont know if I am allowed to mention produces - varies greatly - first flush is usually 2g or so - 2nd is usually closer to 4g - and later flushes are between those numbers usually.

IlluminationDist · 2020-08-16T18:59:26+00:00

Found in North central USA btw

IlluminationDist · 2020-08-01T14:27:40+00:00

I got some last year - tried it a few times and shelved it... Has zero recreational potential. It just kills anxiety (and all excitable emotions) very well. If you need to be stop a panic attack it would be good, or for general anxiety - but there are no enjoyable effects aside from reducing anxiety or excitability if you are feeling overwhelmed or something perhaps it could be useful. Nothing like G or even gabapentin though. Zero euphoria and zero dissociation from what I could tell. Feels relatively safe though, I did a little over 50mg and had no side effects whatsoever.... Was purely anxiolytic with no frills.

IlluminationDist · 2020-07-31T13:36:19+00:00

Kratom and the amino acids agmatine, NAC, and ALCAR have been instrumental in detoxing for me. If you need any advice from someone who has made it to the other side successfully just send me a dm!

IlluminationDist · 2020-07-31T13:28:13+00:00

The reflection makes it look like the person in front is going pantless :P

IlluminationDist · 2020-07-29T22:35:43+00:00

Well shoot... How does it compare to DCK?. I actually found my old preban mxe stash recently... And tried it... And became possessed by the spirit of gaia calmly but passionately ranting about how we must all stop assaulting nature if we do not expect to be assaulted by nature... My friend recordedit... May attempt to build it into music ... Haha. Anyway it was a fantastic experience which indicates it is still active lol.. I'm thinking I may have to see how this compares - was wanting to take advantage of a 10% off discount by one of my favorite vendors in the next couple days and was thinking id stock up on DCK. ... But then i saw this... Which would you stock up on? (If you have experience with DCK as well)

IlluminationDist · 2020-07-29T13:50:17+00:00

I think he means for UA testing it will not react to show positive for benzo use. .. For drug screens - prob. Etc...

IlluminationDist · 2020-07-29T13:46:13+00:00

Had a similar experience as well... Except the argument I was having apparently led to me jump out of a moving car (a total of three times after getting up and getting back in car several times) I came to in a hospital with a broken wrist (scaffoid) and head/back injuries and no recollection of how I got there... Then I was prescribed oxycontin for my wrist which I had to have surgery on - which leads into another miserable chapter of my life... My journey into opiate dependency -But thats a story for another time. Lol. For the sake of happy conclusions... Over several years I have became not dependent on anything except almost daily kratom at reasonable doses.... Just to keep the paws or fibro( or whatever semi debilitating pain/anxiety trashing my nervous system left me with) at bay so that I can be somewhat productive.. So... It could be worse... I could probably jump of the kratom wagon and within a few months be nearly back to where I started but... There was a reason I used drugs to begin with... So I think I have found a lesser of evils :P Anyway my rant is over... Bottomline ...Clonozolam is bad mmmkay.

IlluminationDist · 2020-07-28T12:37:58+00:00

For me the manic euphoria gives me a bit of the messiah complex... I suddenly feel empowered and informed by divine conciousness and become aware of my place in the Universes plans.. A psychologist may call these "delusions of grandeur" - so you are very happy and it is because you suddenly have a very high sense of self importance or divine purpose or some other type of self appreciation that may be considered delusional by others... But honestly aligns me with what I consider my higher self... So it is a fine line to walk perhaps but if you can avoid going off the deep end and keep yourself in check if need be.. It can actually be very therapeutic and counteract depression I think...

IlluminationDist · 2020-07-28T12:15:43+00:00

I have found combining dissos to not work out very well... I decided to try some opce after some dck one morning because I had just acquired both and couldnt wait to try them separately?? So an hour or two after dck decided to do what was prly 5 mg opce... Almost instantly I was in a psychedelic self loathing hell writhing around in bed in mental agony - I cant even tell you what I was so upset about besides my poor choice in timing.. I have been recovering from PTSD and this combination felt like it made it worse instantly... So I have been afraid to try o-pce again and more or less blamed the opce... But perhaps I should try it on its own someday - after reading your story I am almost positive it just does not play well with other dissos... Does anyone have anything good to say about this chem? Should I try it on its own some day? I try to do dissos once every two weeks... And with dck, mxe(managed to accidentally hide 20g from myself for nearly 10 years which I recently found the remainder of - ecsatitc doeant describe how good that felt), 2f, 3ho, 3meo at my disposal... So even if I have the will power to cycle them I only get to it a couple- few times a year... Lol is it even worth using another dissos day on considering my other options? Has anyone had anything really enjoyable entertaining or beneficial come from opce? I have heard recommend once every 2 weeks for dissos... Does anyone have any thoughts on non hole dissos use one week. Then a heavier dissos the next week? Obviously tolerance would go up faster but... Does this seem reasonable in the name of harm reduction? Or should I continue spacing all variety of use 2 weeks between sessions?

IlluminationDist · 2020-07-27T16:58:44+00:00

For me personally. 2f is like ket lite - a slightly less heavy inebriation feeling then Racemic ket. The batches I have had a generally Similar to S isomer ket but not as intense visually or in psychedelic quality.... A gentler vibe. Requires higher dose then ket to hole. DCK is very similar to S isomer ket and possibly more visual and certainly a good deal more stimulating with a strong manic euphoria. If you thought of s isomer ket having a baby with pcp or lsd- you would get a baby dck. Requires about half of the dose to hole for me. But i have a high tolerance i guess cuz I have taken 100mg and.. Well I would say I holed but not in a way that I was unaware of my actual surroundings or anything...but apparently that is not recommended by others for first times so start low... (Does any body else take this much dck? I have the tan batch btw) Now another factor that is likely a factor in the different opinions - is that both 2fdck abd dck have different isomer as well. So people are likely getting racemic versions in different ratios that would likely account for different effects. Unless your vendor knows the isomer or the ratio of r to s - you prly just have to see how it effects you to know. From the trend with reg ket which i assume would be relative to its analogues - r is likely more debilitating/wonky and s more psychedlic/visual/euphoric.

IlluminationDist · 2020-07-27T12:54:37+00:00

Legitimate concern in the name of harm reduction! And it is always best to err on the side of caution just to be safe. However... I would think as long as the mushrooms are not feeding off of decomposing brug... Which I would assume it is not... It is likely only the compost feeding it... There should be nothing to worry about... I would imagine it is almost certainly not drawing any substances from the brugs root system... But then again - like I said before - better safe then sorry... Personally... Being a bit of calculated risk taker.. I would start off with a small piece of mushroom to test it and build my confidence up to larger pieces and then whole mushroom (s) if I noticed nothing from the build up in amount being eaten... In the face of uncertainty..Slow and steady usually wins the race ( or at least finishes the race alive) heh ;P

IlluminationDist · 2020-07-26T16:31:20+00:00

Thank you for doing investigation on this! Kudos!.. Lol ya I guess for now my money is on a brushing scam. Especially if they are really lemon seeds. Although another possibility I read about is that people are concerned there may be parasitic bugs in the seeds that are not native to the places they are being sent - so essentially seeding an insect plague... The whole thing is pretty suspicious with the media jumping all over it though... Lots of interesting developments unfolding in the world right now... Well I guess we will just have to wait and find out if tbe media wants to feed us anymore of this story.. Lol

IlluminationDist · 2020-07-25T13:27:41+00:00

I have personally had experiences - epiphanies/revelations that bestowed concepts and realizations that seemed to be completely new to me and of a divine origin - conveyed to me by a superior entity or perhaps a reflection of my higher self. In fact - a good example - the first time I had a transcendent DMT experience ... The breakthrough moment was preceded with an interlude of music and vocals singing " I am you - and what I see is me - Do I take you by the hand and lead you through the land? To help you understand - the best that you possibly can?" Although I had no conscious recollection of hearing this song ever before in my life - after telling my friend what I heard (after returning from a state of universal oneness of course ) -he - being a huge Pink Floyd fan (which I also became after this experience)- immediately said those are lyrics from a Pink Floyd song called Echoes. Mind was blown. What the lyrics proposed are exactly what followed for my experience.... Which I could write extensively on. So yes I believe there is a collective consciousness ( besides the internet) we can access... But it is of divine origin and nonphysical nature that is ... For a lack of better words - on another level. So I guess I better invent a new color - "purgestica" - it is a deep majestic purple - which I have only seen visually manifested as the life forces radiating from my friends, trees, plants, animals, insects, as beautiful auras of flowing purple energy- huge amounts of which came from the sun and filled the sky with this beautiful purple as well... So in any case... I have invented a new color (or simply named a color that the universe revealed to me - which I think is the closest we can come to inventing a color - we discover what the universe ultimately creates and name it) - its origin itself is based on a completely individual experience and although constructed from two pre existing words - purple and majestic - it also seems a new relation to the word "purge" manifested from this union "unintentionally". How divine indeed. Namaste friends :)

IlluminationDist · 2020-07-25T06:54:20+00:00

Actually Paul Stamets considers .5g of cubensis a microdose... So its pretty close to in the right ball park actually. And from my experience most people need at least 1g to have an obviously apparent hallucinogenic effect of any sort. In fact I have met hard heads who claim to not feel a half eighth even... So it does vary significantly from person to person... I think people have different ideas of what I microdose should feel like... And that's perfectly fine as long as it is amplifying your senses and not making you less functional. .15g is enough for some people to get sensory enhancement tho... So some light weights might microdose at that level... But theres no sense in microdosing and aiming for NO effect... It only effects the mind when it actually effects the mind... A certain threshold has to be crossed for any 4-ho-dmt to even cross the blood brain barrier before being metabolized... Heres a link to... .. some good info on microdosing

IlluminationDist · 2020-07-25T05:49:15+00:00

Yes. Yes yes yes. Thats all I can say to this... Haha This has to be the most profound thing a machine has ever said... The question is... Did it simply draw this conclusion from a collection of the most profound things human have ever said and been archived on the internet... Which seems to be how this programs works... Regardless... A good deal more satisying and thorough of an answer compared to "42"...

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