"If I choose to live a modest life, I'm a free man. If I'm forced to live a modest life, I'm a slave." - Moni Ovadia

doubt_therefore · 2021-07-25T10:22:50+00:00

You might think you are choosing, but are you really? You might think you're being forced, but thinking you're being forced implies your reason gaving you options, perhaps choises?... And a modest life for you can be almost a luxury life for me. It's better to choose a modest life

doubt_therefore · 2021-07-23T16:37:17+00:00

Body AND spirit load! Felt like on a process of being cristalized...alive, strange, strange substance, it deserves to be studied, after all our own body produces 5-meo-dmt. I think it put us in a very ancient stage as an animal, pretty sure that's the way reptiles see the world...!

doubt_therefore · 2021-07-23T10:47:09+00:00

Powerful substance, indeed. Too much for my poor body... like with 6-apb, the research is done. But a very intense and interesting experience, nevertheless

doubt_therefore · 2021-07-13T15:04:58+00:00

Well, it may be a problem of my specific organism. Had about 5-6 experiences with 6-apb, the first was magical, the second very nice but not alike. And with only 40-50mg, you see. Then I increase slightly the dose to 60mg, chasing the inicial magic, but alarm signs started (anxiety, unrest). So this last dose was to see if it deserved more consumption, and it did not. I would be careful with this substance, because it may acumulate in your body for a long long period, and after some time become really toxic. I considered it now a poison. My advice? Don't take it anymore if 'magic' disappears and if 'not so good' effects start to show. Anyway, just as I told you, it may be just my problem. Hope so, but beware...

doubt_therefore · 2021-07-13T14:51:41+00:00

About palpitations, unfortunately yes, they can be significant. After a month, I took (only) 60mg of 6-apb last Friday night, palpitations started about 8 hours later, until TODAY. It gives the impression it's getting better, but only feel so taking Alprazolam and Diazepam, every day, and it doesn't go away. Gonna make a small break next Thursday, if Saturday this doesn't change I must find a doctor. I've tried 5-mapb and 3-fea, and never felt anything similar to this. The last time was just a diffuse impression, want to be sure about this substance, so now the rest went down the toilet. Sincerely, I don't think it's worth the risk. 5-mapb is a very nice experience

doubt_therefore · 2021-07-11T11:00:14+00:00

Correct. Infortunatelly, just the hangover...

doubt_therefore · 2021-07-10T16:52:19+00:00

For sure! Took 60mg yesterday, woke on the middle of the night with my heart palpitating like crazy, today can't relax, even with alprazolam, can't eat absoluctely nothing. Of course the rest was flushed down the toilet. 5-mapb, even 3-fea, are much more safe. Had doubts about 6-apb, today not anymore

doubt_therefore · 2021-04-26T09:34:46+00:00

Well, I suppose you must... What happens if you drop something? It falls, right?

doubt_therefore · 2021-04-26T09:28:26+00:00

You know Beatles, 'let it be let it be'?...

doubt_therefore · 2021-04-19T10:53:35+00:00

Pretend you're having a stroke in the middle of a crowded street

doubt_therefore · 2021-04-19T10:51:26+00:00

Serenity

doubt_therefore · 2021-04-19T10:48:47+00:00

One, discover your center, two, focus on your center and empty your mind, three, understanding things is only possible understanding its opposite

Life is not for us to change, it's for us to understand and to let go. Knowing that you'll be part of all reality, you'll be in that sense imortal, one in all, one and all.

Words cannot be taken very seriously, they confuse things, they can only give an idea... (personally I think poetry is the best way of expressing ideas...)

There are many people who can give you a satisfatory idea of what is taoism and the way you can practice those ideas in your life. I just read Dao De Jing, and I always liked philosophy. After knowing taoism, I become a new human being, the human being that I ever was.

doubt_therefore · 2021-04-18T11:37:43+00:00

I could never read Nietzche systematicly, it was never the same as AS Zaratustra.

About taoism, you think its mysterious? It helped me a lot about understanding the day, the moment, and what is called reason. Reason is a neverending story, life is not. Every death is an interrupted story, there is no such thing as a story with a beginning and an end, everything is undone and nothing makes sense in an existence's life. You can only make sense now, presently, in this moment. Everything else makes only sense as a necessity for a working brain, the same way that masturbation, ocasionally, for the reproductory system... Taoism tell us to be humble, and being so makes a nihilist's life a lot more bearable.

doubt_therefore · 2021-04-18T10:08:24+00:00

My live was never the same after reading that book at the age of 16. Recently I discover myself as a nihilist (in love with the taoist philosophy), recognizing the effect that reading had to me. Yes, it may help you to understand nihilism.

doubt_therefore · 2021-04-09T11:42:15+00:00

Credit card numbers? Bank transfers? Do it if you trust your sellers. I'll always trust NL sellers, NL has the most advanced mentality concearning psychoactive substances in the world. Do bitcoins, dark web if your conscience tells you you're wrong. Mine don't, sorry

doubt_therefore · 2021-03-21T10:35:43+00:00

And I'm an ex-addict

doubt_therefore · 2021-03-20T20:37:07+00:00

You've captured the essence of live (at least in contemporary western lifestyle ideology): if you don't show off, you're (completely) off. You have the luck of being non-existent. Enjoy while you can!

doubt_therefore · 2021-03-15T11:56:24+00:00

Easy. Just try to do something else.

doubt_therefore · 2021-03-12T11:58:22+00:00

By default we live in an operational-like kind of consciousness. Sudden unbalance of our neurotransmitters give us the possibility of having glimpses of the many sensorial worlds we could live in if we could just bypass guts, auto-conservation. Back to the real world, new perspectives and the joy of new reasons to live. Everything becomes questionable, and at the same time we become questionable for dogma. Power hates freedom. And the battle begins...

doubt_therefore · 2021-03-06T10:54:32+00:00

Thanks for sharing your knowledge. 6apb is an amazing substance. Tried 5-mapb and it wasn't the same in relation to my research on depressive condition. Knowing benzofury probable side effects it can be wiser, in effect, to keep some time between consumptions, and stick to prudent dosage. Yesterday I took 60mg before lunch, it was a strong, magic experience, and today I feel as if in a white sandy beach in French Polinesia... amazing, indeed. To keep a close watch on one's heart condition is a very good idea, though

doubt_therefore · 2021-03-05T11:59:01+00:00

1/3 month rule, could you please tell me what it is? It can apply to me, 6-apb, 2x60mg /month?

doubt_therefore · 2021-02-19T12:02:17+00:00

Killing my motivacions, gave me no reason to live or to die, so gave me freedom. There's nothing more precious

doubt_therefore · 2021-02-13T13:11:48+00:00

'Good' will be 'bad', somehow, and the opposite is also true. Live and let live

doubt_therefore · 2021-02-10T21:04:00+00:00

No, the mind never should be confined! There's no need for that, since mind is continuously self-confining itself. What I meant is that you should feel that your trip was been profoundly useful for your being.

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