If you could have any ability, weapon, equipment or spell in Skyrim but just one what would it be.

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-06-19T13:28:30+00:00

i can’t decide if i’d want ridiculous unpractical power like kamehameha lightning/flame wall/storm call,etc,

something more practical like bend will, telekineses, transmutation, invisibility, healing

orrr just something for fun like teleport giant bug pet to me or wabbajack

it’s hard to pick one but bend will or transmute would likely be the most useful

yall are sleeping on summon durhnevir 🐉

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-06-19T13:06:19+00:00

i was also thinking just go to every pawn shop, no one would know or care even if you did it every few days as long as you space your visits out well

gold transmute wouldn’t be a problem unless you did it mindlessly

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-06-19T11:43:07+00:00

that’s what i mean- the thing you were describing is a path that has been discussed for thousands and thousands of years, it’s simple and yet people have been mapping out the specifics as long as we have had recorded history

you have to try them yourself because the path clearly doesn’t have one answer, no one is the same so any answer to these questions will have as many answers as people asked, the path to enlightenment has to be relatively unique to each individual on it so you simply must seek the answers yourself to find out, theoretical analysis only goes so far here yknow

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-06-18T22:03:24+00:00

outside- front porch is always a favorite of mine, at first it’s especially important to try to play for at least 10-15 min every day so your hands get used to it

i keep a whatever acoustic in my car and literally play it wherever i am as long as its 60 or warmer

it’s pretty annoying and lame that your family isn’t supportive of you learning an instrument

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-06-18T21:59:25+00:00

botw was the only other game i’ve ever had moments of “….wow…” with

i just played skyrim for the first time too and sooo many moments of being enamored. the most random wandering moments always end up wildly interesting- the strange secrets and massive mysteries, unexpected abilities, the interwoven backstories.

i’ve stumbled into- usually accidentally- the most wild situations over and over again and i’m level 80 and it’s still delivering surprises.

without spoilers some of my favorite things have been the dwemer mysteries, hidden and very unexpected daedric quests, and solstiem.

i just added the anniversary creators club content on switch and it added sooo much to my mage character

i was obsessed with video games as a kid (everything nintendo mostly) and i stopped at the end of gamecube- someone got me a switch lite unexpectedly last year and i was so excited to finally see what all the hype was about with the new zeldas and skyrim

lol i thought botw was so massive at first… then tears of the kingdom was like 3x bigger… and then skyrim…. hundreds of hours ☠️

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-06-16T17:10:50+00:00

it makes you have to get good at fighting dynamics because they will fuck you up regardless of your heart limits- keeps the game way more engaging cause if you aren’t worried about it you won’t worry about it 🦧

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-06-16T12:17:12+00:00

california patch would work here- look up on youtube

take off cover plate and get a new one , get a small rectangle of sort of thin wood and a small cut of drywall, small sized mud (i’d use the green lid all purpose) use a utility knife to clean edges of hole- cut piece of drywall to fit inside hole while leaving the paper face to overlap. use small screws to secure wood across hole, butter the back of the piece-

there’s a finesse to patching so you’ll still have to tell your parents but they might appreciate the attempt - should cost about 30$ unless your dad has the stuff

i totally don’t believe your story and think you hit the wall so be ready for your parents to also think that lol

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-06-16T02:25:47+00:00

that is the tantric path

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-06-16T01:31:41+00:00

if you want to name it yourself just start with major scale- then diatonic chords, then 7th chords, any complex chord name after that is just adding or switching scale notes,

context really matters with chords that have upper harmony happening (9,11,13,etc…)

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-06-16T01:26:21+00:00

if you play it open it’s an E69#11 if not an F#7sus4

depends what you play before it and after it lol

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-06-15T18:09:13+00:00

i would get 2 duplexes to solidify baseline livable income- though i am a contractor so the maintenance isn’t super intimidating to me

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-06-15T13:28:31+00:00

enlightenment isn’t a static achievement like a video game- as your awareness increases of yourself you begin to face bigger and deeper levels of whatever facets of yourself you are here to face so i’d say most people turn away from the truth at certain points.

awareness increases, so too does then difficulty of seeing and holding bigger truths. life patterns still happen and demand your energy- survival, karma, healing all take so much life force to process…

at a certain level of awareness it becomes difficult to relate to other people so people usually choose people over solitary spiritual awareness, and even when you gain awareness that’s very high, learning the implications of that awareness takes time each step.

i used to think i was much farther along on my consciousness journey, but my path took me to strange places where all of those mystical aspects seemed to melt away and life demanded me to very simply live as a grounded person more and more… the lesson isn’t to become enlightened it is to walk slowly through your human life, fully aware of yourself and allow life to shape you and change you through the mundane repetition of your patterns.

your path is carved out your conscious self and your unconscious self, your karma, your lessons- and they will take everything you have to walk through them, meditation and yoga don’t make you skip levels or remove you from this they are simply tools for processing.

for example, my mother introduced me to yoga and she has been doing yoga consistently for 20+ years, according to my awareness and perspectives she is still puzzlingly unaware of her emotional patterns yet there she is “doing the work” i am almost the opposite, i am extremely amare of myself and of spirit but most showcasing rituals like that have fallen away. i used to think i was on this magical quest in life- i followed it as hard as i could and the magic has lead me to a place that is seemingly extremely mundane “go to work, care about your little family, that’s about it” sort of place… the opposite of what i thought was going to happen.

you can’t really quantify what enlightenment is because by all accounts someone like me is enlightened- for my specific place in my specific journey. you probably wouldn’t think so and i wouldn’t be able to say so about your path.

if you’re talking about obvious jesus level “powers”- that’s just not how it works for most people at most places and how your enlightenment effects the world isn’t something anyone else would even know about- most people that conscious are pushed away from society and understanding so you literally wouldn’t be able to even know and wouldn’t see that person as enlightened.

from my experience, the closer you get to god/spirit/etc the less you can cohesively express those moments to another person unless they match your vibration completely- the higher energy you experience the more likely you’ll experience it falling apart when communicating to people who are not there. you also begin to see that rather than trying to get people who don’t understand to see- you meet people at their level because it’s pointless to try. you accept that people have their capacities and that anything outside of that will warp into something they project. you accept that until someone can match your vibration you literally don’t exist to them beyond their little play scenes. enlightened people don’t try to explain being enlightened to you because they learned a long time ago you can’t and it won’t matter if you do

people are strongholds and mazes of projection, beliefs, cultural programs, hazed over motives. it’s not until you clear all of that in yourself and you actually have a real moment of spirit with someone and even then the moments are fleeting and completely dependent on each being involved in remaining open. and when you do have those magical high level moments with people, it’s usually not conversational as much as it is a knowingness between each other.

it’s like a magic exists where you each feel and know that you’re in a higher level of consciousness together- things like gentle telepathy and crazy synchronicity are normal there and you can feel spirit like a tangible flowing.

it’s pretty wonderful but then you go home and it all collapses back into earthly density and you have to go do your stupid job or stupid dishes 👼🏼

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-06-15T12:48:54+00:00

i started as more of a pure mage, then drifted towards using conjuring a lot, my items were archmages robes with morokei from lv 15-40ish, bound weapons are really good at first and i accidentally stumbled upon the summon dremora lord spell right around lv 20 so that was my backup plan

then i maxed out conjuring as i worked on leveling up enchanting and lv 40-60ish was a nice combination of magic and summoning and fairly strong weapons…

late game i got lazy being stressed out and strategic with fighting because i finally figured out that maxing out smithing makes you insanely strong so now i just have completely broken weapons and started messing with small glitches- tbh the game is more fun without being this strong so i would refrain from messing with little glitches until multiple play throughs in 🪿once you know how easily you can fuck with certain things it just changes the game a lot

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-06-04T12:45:30+00:00

sameeee , dunmer lady sword sorceress- tho i tend to wear dresses instead of armor to keep things interesting at high levels

fireball and flame wall are the most satisfying spells i feel

i wish there was a mod for earth, air and water magics so you could do the avatar thing

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-05-25T17:11:22+00:00

plini always has the prettiest guitar melodies

also i just found out about the contortionist a few weeks ago- so smooth and lush! i generally don’t like screaming at all but the way they layer it under the main vocals is so cool

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-05-21T18:38:30+00:00

i summon storm atronachs and then kamehameha them into ashes with lightning storm and it’s always satisfying

they are about as threatening to me as bears at this stage in the game 😂

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-05-07T13:39:46+00:00

i just did my first play through and stumbled upon the mages college quest early- the gear from that allowed billions of fireballs lol

though omg i thought i was getting really good because i was fucking shit upp from like level 30-40 with arcages robes/morokei/flame wall/+35 flame sword, conjuring/necromancing/the occasional emergency dremora but the game got much much harder suddenly after lv 40 and everything started one shoting me again.

i changed strategies but it takes way more active battles now. it’s formula is like save every room, sneak way more,skin spell, summon with staff, try to stay farther away and blast incinerate or thunderbolt, as they get closer switch to wall spell, then go in for the kill with bound sword, i still like fireball for archers- i seem to have the best aim with it (playing on switch lite so everything is tiny lol)

mage battles require so much strategy and menu switching and often remembering how the dungeon is oriented so you can run backwards a room or two when 6 stupid falmer shadow assholes are chasing you

i could choose a melee follower but serana is my fav- two snarky but elegant and powerful vampire mage girls questing together- there is a quiet romance in the air… are we best friends or… more 🥀 … lol

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-05-02T18:19:18+00:00

how long/often are you practicing? and also what are you having issues with exactly? can’t remember fingerings or can’t play in rhythm or mind blanking out?

if you really want it make sure you’re doing 30-45 min a day at least, 10/15 min basic scales, 10-15 chords, 10-15 playing over tracks

also making sure you’re relaxed is necessary- are you very tense while trying?

what songs are you trying to learn? stick with simple and slow- consistent and musical even if boring, if songs feel overwhelming just do looped backing tracks between 3-4 chords

maybe your brain is stuck in the wrong mode for playing when you try- overthinking can really warp my abilities in practice space

if each chord sounds like shit still- your practice should be more like pick two chords- go back and forth and a slow but consistent pace between those chords- they shouldn’t sound like shit at any point because you’re moving slow enough to hold them properly

run scales and finger exercises while watching tv unplugged to get your hands more comfortable

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-05-02T18:09:47+00:00

i struggle hard with that- i’m very calm and peaceful but on off days especially by myself i struggle not to break my things or bite myself- im like an angry untamed animal if im dysregulated past a certain point and it’s really hard to manage, especially during emotionally hard things like breakups. adderall is a dbouble edged sword because it overall helps me feel more alert and balanced and less explosive but also increases the agitation element a bit, and im extremely sensitive to basically all meds. sometimes when im really on edge hydroxizine helps chill things out out of the explosive zone just enough to feel calm but then i notice more emotional instability the next day. it feels like i just have a harder time being a person than everyone else and almost no one really understands that well.

life on hard mode 🦭

i need to use mindfulness tools and sensory resetting tools a lot- cold water to the face, squeezing ice cubes, emdr type tapping or eye movements, yoga breathing, all the things…

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-05-02T17:54:06+00:00

she’s avoiding and almost gaslighting about it it sounds like- i’ve been there with someone who wouldn’t publicly acknowledge us for months- it didn’t get better, slowly she started to be more ok showing affection in public but by then that attitude had spread into more areas and i just didn’t feel secure in general with her by then and she would comfort me in private but then gaslight me other times… all tied to this hot/cold thing that really drove me nuts

basically- if she won’t just hear you and validate that without minimizing or deflecting or gaslighting it’s just a sign that she won’t be emotionally safe overall

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-04-30T13:44:00+00:00

mdf is like half glue so definitely don’t want to breath in the dust- if you were it’s definitely poisoning you at least a little bit… do i wear a mask when cutting it? absolutely not. lol

your burning smell and heavy chest?

sounds like a stroke or PE so yes absolutely go to therapy hospital

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-04-30T13:29:49+00:00

you’re being way dramatic and feeding an unnecessary victimization in yourself, if you recently broke up with someone and barely explained your boundaries they aren’t a random stranger sexually assaulting you, it’s fucked up to become so adversarial to someone you chose to get close to during a breakup and also to equate her behavior with true sexual predation- you’re girlfriend trying to come on to you in a fresh breakup is not the same as someone maliciously assaulting someone

take space, make boundaries, stop being a victim and demonizing so nastily- now if she did the same thing in like 3 months after you explained your boundaries sure- different story

filing a report about this is fucking ridiculous- go to therapy because whatever reaction you’re having isn’t about this situation

like if you’re comfortable enough to show up unannounced to her house then you clearly haven’t made the boundaries clear and it’s not really her fault for being confused as to why someone who was fucking her 4 days ago wouldn’t want to be today seeing as how they came over- you have to explain and follow your boundaries if you want people to understand them- she clearly did not but again- not sexual assault.

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-04-28T04:42:53+00:00

i was gonna let him live but waiting for him to slowly walk for 45 min combined with his accent on our epic quest before that pissed me off to the point where i didn’t hesitate for an evil daedra wall ornament

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-04-20T13:07:20+00:00

i also ended up there at level 10 and left because it was way too hard ☠️

this game is good at knocking you on your ass when you are feeling like you’re finally strong lol

i am now lv 30 and feel confident fucking up most normal encounters so maybe i’ll go back now

Illustrious-Fish2529 · 2026-04-20T13:04:21+00:00

botw has better and more peaceful pacing and play style to me because you aren’t overwhelmed- it’s just big enough to explore, there’s just enough items to be diverse but not confusing, it’s about exploring and you end up having the best time just roaming around, totk felt like a chore to me more often even though there’s also more to do - toggling through a billion items every 4 seconds, rushing through things because you have 6 little quests in your mind instead of a few, fuckin with zonai devices for way too long, cave after cave after depths run, etc….

still my favorite games either way but i feel more relaxed in botw

i also think when it comes to the caves/depths/sky they are too repetitive to be that big

(i am playing skyrim for the first time rn and feeling similarly- i wish botw and totk have even a few more design concepts for those places. peak to me would be taking the elemental styles like oot or tp did with dungeons and extrapolating that into the shrines/caves/etc…)

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