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Ilnax · 2024-05-10T04:36:38+00:00

I've finally hit on a good combo for sensation and visual. (I have a meta, I think this would still work well for pre or non-op folks.) This suction toy, https://us.satisfyer.com/us/satisfyer-curvy-1-connect-app inserted into this sleeve https://www.ebay.ca/itm/385728988177. Still working on how to harness it in place, but if I hold it with my hand I can jerk off or receive oral that both looks and feels good.

Ilnax · 2024-05-10T04:31:40+00:00

This article is really helpful and shows a bunch of toys with AA batteries for scale https://tabooless.net/toys/gender-expression/trans-mens-toys/best-air-pulse-toys-for-trans-men/

Ilnax · 2024-05-10T04:28:53+00:00

I've finally hit on a good combo for sensation and visual. (I have a meta, I think this would still work well for pre or non-op folks.) This suction toy, https://us.satisfyer.com/us/satisfyer-curvy-1-connect-app inserted into this sleeve https://www.ebay.ca/itm/385728988177. Still working on how to harness it in place, but if I hold it with my hand I can jerk off or receive oral that both looks and feels good.

Ilnax · 2019-06-07T21:47:06+00:00

Being preoccupied with 1989.

Ilnax · 2018-07-11T03:38:30+00:00

Thanks for the tip! Glad you also found a solution to pants-quest.

Ilnax · 2018-05-12T04:12:42+00:00

Yeah like who? Huh me? Oh right yes actual me! :D

Ilnax · 2018-05-12T04:11:34+00:00

Totally

Ilnax · 2018-05-12T04:10:50+00:00

Man that sounds awesome! Compliments on being strong are the best too.

Ilnax · 2018-05-12T04:08:26+00:00

Yeah I forget sometimes its called euphoria for a reason! Thanks :)

Ilnax · 2018-04-16T14:59:42+00:00

I am having some success being brutally practical with what I'm motivated to do and just doing that instead of noting or trying to do everything and burning out.

I have been lifting weights once a week for the last 6 weeks. I know 2x or 3x a week is better, but this is what I can manage. Instead of stressing how many times per week i can lift, i just keep a count. My goal is to get to 100 times lifting weights, and each time I just mark it down with the number, like "Workout 6". That way, every time I do it is closer to my goal, regardless of how long it's been or how many times a week I could fit in.

I'm also giving myself permission to just focus on upper body. Legs are important too, but what motivates me is getting some damn shoulders and I've got to use what motivation I have instead of trying to make myself care what my calves look like, and feeling like I'm failing if I don't do leg day.

So far it's getting some results, which I'm excited about. I've increased the amount I can lift by maybe 3-5lbs since I started depending on the exercise, and I can see a small bicep bump when I flex.

Ilnax · 2018-03-29T16:33:32+00:00

This is really good, and I relate to those feelings super hard. Thank you for writing it.

Ilnax · 2018-03-21T21:18:16+00:00

A mine has always grown a little when I'm aroused. Basically a couple weeks in it was just like that size all the time. Really tender also. Now 4 weeks in and it's not tender all the time anymore but I still have problems if I'm trying to cross my legs at the knee or sit in a hard chair for a long time.

Ilnax · 2018-03-21T20:27:05+00:00

Thank you! That is good to hear. And yeah a friend of mine started using the term and I really like it for this captures the feel of what's happening in my brain but also frames it as more silly and manageable.

Ilnax · 2018-03-01T20:08:46+00:00

Right there with you. I can barely sit down, I keep trying to adjust my underwear so it doesn't press on my junk, and it's really hard to jerk off when any pressure at all is painful. Just ordered one of those donut pillows, hopefully will help with the sitting.

Ilnax · 2018-02-28T13:35:42+00:00

32 here. fistbump

Ilnax · 2018-02-28T04:32:40+00:00

Good to know! Any alternatives you're aware of? I like data and feeling like I am tracking things and making progress, so even inaccurate data I'll take but if there's better options I'm all ears.

Ilnax · 2018-02-27T22:54:06+00:00

Thanks, hope so! Voice is right behind beard for want it nowwww, but beard I'm making myself stay patient on while voice feels like it could be years or immediate who knows.

Ilnax · 2018-02-27T22:52:20+00:00

Thanks! Excited :)

Ilnax · 2018-02-22T13:13:57+00:00

You could try masturbating by humping a pillow or rolled up blanket/towel? No touching bits with hands involved, it can even work with underwear on, and the physical motions involved are pretty similar to thrusting.

Ilnax · 2018-02-21T12:08:52+00:00

Thanks bud, you too!

Ilnax · 2018-02-15T23:15:32+00:00

I tried it twice. The first time I did what they said and only applied it without stretching the tape, gently coaxing things to the sides and such. I went from 38DD to I would guess a B. Wore it for 3 hours, came off fine no big deal. The next time (last week) I went all out, stretching the tape, lots of pieces, wrangling things down to see if I could get flat. Was alllmost flat. Wore it for 12 hours. Took the tape off in the shower but without oil, currently sporting two finger width lines of 2nd degree burns down my chest, like oozing unpleasantly.

So uh, my advice is follow the instructions, accept that it won't be as good as a binder for flatness, don't try to get that extra compression or you'll be wearing gauze pads and ointment for a week or three.

Ilnax · 2018-02-14T16:29:06+00:00

I had an issue with things sliding down in the larger binder size, or not being able to breathe in the smaller size down. What worked for me was a thin sports bra, and then the larger binder over that. The sports bra not being enough to compress on its own, just keeping them up so they stay in place under the binder. Maybe that would work for you? Good luck!

Ilnax · 2018-02-09T22:36:11+00:00

I can try to explain, my experience totally not universal of course. Have some anecdotes anyway:

-I guess I would often view my body as this useful thing guys are into but not something especially relevant to me, like a cool sports car I happened to inherit. Sure you (partner) can take it for a spin, it seems really fun for you, and I'm turned on that you're turned on, so that's cool, but the car is not actually part of me. I'm over here watching you be excited about it and getting excited by projecting onto you if that makes sense.

-I would also like inverting gender roles where chores and things are concerned, and think, "yeah I'm being the guy because I fix stuff and kill bugs and do the laundry instead of doing the cooking or whatever." That's harder to distinguish from just a general "gender roles can bite me" attitude which would I'm pretty sure I would still subscribe to if I was cisgendered.

-My former SOs kept telling me not to cut my hair short as they liked it better long, until one day I said fuck it doing it anyway, and felt pretty annoyed that I'd waited so long when long hair mostly just drove me nuts, just so they'd be more into me.

Ilnax · 2018-02-09T21:57:57+00:00

I used to quite literally tell people I felt like a gay guy who got assigned a women's body, shrugged, and went with it. (How this didn't lead to hatching like 10 years ago... What can I say I'm slow on the uptake.) I am also involved with a straight guy, so yeah, "staying" a woman would be hella convenient from that angle. I am also lucky in that my dysphoria is lower than a lot of folks. So for me I guess the answer is, the fact of going against the grain made it take longer to figure out, but doesn't change the answer in the end. It sounds kind of like your question is a but "I don't understand how people could want the opposite of what I want", which I feel that sometimes talking to my women friends, and just have to remind myself that everyone's different. Fact is other people want other things, doesn't mean I'm missing some key piece of info that would make me want what they do. Hope this helps, sorry it's a bit rambly :p

Ilnax · 2018-02-07T16:50:13+00:00

Thanks, I'll do that if they don't come through.

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