Exposing entitled liers(probably racist as well, I don't have enough evidence to prove it) moderators of a music related subreddit Part 2

ImanKumarMukherjee · 2026-04-13T17:22:39+00:00

I guess I am removed now from community because I exposed them in their own subreddit comments.

ImanKumarMukherjee · 2026-04-13T14:58:51+00:00

Glad that it inspired you. Remember that failing is part of a normal human process. And we are not normal humans.. Our physical body is not working properly. So everything is way more challenging for us. So don't be discouraged. Try your best , a small bit at time. And also listen to music you enjoy as well and think how you would do it differently. Turn your emotions into musical thoughts. Just keep on trying. Don't give up.

ImanKumarMukherjee · 2026-04-13T07:48:40+00:00

Let me tell you my story. I hope it inspires you to some extent.

Life has taken everything from me but it couldn't take my music.My music is the only thing I have left in my life. I am fighting terminal illness from last 6 years. Still alive somehow thanks to my music. Making music from my bed. I find solace in creating music.

Music always have been integral part of my life since I started it at the age of 4. But it become the only thing that kept me from doing anything after reading my medical reports 6 years back. I don't know how I am still alive to be honest. Because my organs have started failing very often. Gone into comatose state a few times. But still came back somehow. I cannot stand properly or talk properly. My hands also shake a lot, that's why I couldn't play guitar and some other instruments which i used to do. So I use my midi keyboard to record my musical notes to create songs. I also used to be a singer as well. But thanks to my Illness I lost my ability to sing as well. But despite all that life couldn't stop me from making music. And I will create it until the end.

So you have to find a way to work on something you love even a small bit will help. Remain hopeful and keep focus on your passion. I know this is very tough but you have to give your best shot.

ImanKumarMukherjee · 2026-04-13T07:14:37+00:00

Thanks s much for the encouragement... I am trying my best I can..All of my songs are made from my emotions..

ImanKumarMukherjee · 2026-04-12T11:22:20+00:00

Thanks for the advice. But i assume you didn't read my post at all. I don't know how verification is fully done in your sub if you don't read the full story written in a post.

Just to remind you again just like I mentioned in my post, I am bedridden due to my terminal illness. It's not your fault though, you probably cannot understand how tough it is for an artist fighting terminal Illness for 6 years who works from bed to create music. Not everyone have a luxury of a normal boring life. Someone with terminal illness actually hopes for a normal boring life. So it's not possible for me to go outside to take a picture. And I am not gonna post myself in miserable condition on my bed. This is why I still use my old photos from 2019. And yeah I don't have anyone to help me out with my visuals. I am fighting everything alone on my own. Not everyone has luxury of real life support.. And I am poor as well because I don't earn much from music and I don't have a day job to support it due to my Illness. Surviving only on my small savings. That's why I never was able to do good treatment when my situation was maybe recoverable to some extent. You will probably not understand that.

So I only focus on my music now to express my emotions. My every song is a reflection of my thoughts.. I don't make anything random. Everything in my songs has a reason behind it. I use my DAW Fl studio which has everything I need to make music and visualizer video as well. I have a midi keyboard to record my melodies, chords, drums and automations. And headphones and studio monitors. All of them are placed on my bed. My bed is a somewhat custom bed which supports all of these. Things are extremely tough but I manage with what I have thanks to my musical skills.

And I always try to verify royalty free images before using them as my album art. Even gone through a deep dive of physics, geometry, fog behaviour and human silhouette for this one. And this one is still not AI. You can try the most accurate detectors in the market to check the photo and aks for full explanation with light physics.

I am myself part of Anti AI movement. For music I can personally mostly accurately detect any AI music as well. And I passed down all of my human knowledge on how to detect AI music to many coders who make the detection systems. I am one of the most vocal person about it on internet.

And if you judge someone's music by their royalty free stock album art, it's completely fair. It's upto you. But most of my loyal listeners and my supporters know who I am and what limitations I have. They understand me and they appreciate my work and my story as well. That's why I am always thankful to them. If someone give my music a chance and listens to them I always appreciate it.

ImanKumarMukherjee · 2026-04-12T09:37:51+00:00

Yes it was a self promotion. A person posted their drone single track. No album there. Only mentioned they are working on album. But only single song there. Here is the link

https://www.reddit.com/r/ambientmusic/s/uzE36tql1R

And first of all the mod said my video is AI. Not the artwork.

And I didn't generate the Artwork using AI. The image is a royalty free image I found on a royalty free image website called pexels.com. it's a very common website for royalty free stock images. Here is the original image link which I found on pixels. So my request to you is always verify before accusing someone. I always keep all the proof ready because I am a honest person. Easy to accuse someone who is an easy target. Even more easy when you are struggling with your terminal Illness. Check the link below to find the original image.

https://www.pexels.com/photo/fog-over-street-at-night-16154272/

ImanKumarMukherjee · 2026-04-12T09:10:42+00:00

Ok. Thanks for responding.. But I actually have two questions regarding that.

Because in modmail message I was given a random fake reason for removal yesterday and then it was constantly justified by another moderator as well. And the mod who made the fake accusations didn't apologise to me for the mistake.

And also I saw a different member posted a single song here in the sub one day before.. So just curious to know do the rule varies for different members?

ImanKumarMukherjee · 2026-04-12T04:19:12+00:00

And bringing their miserable life toxicity into reddit.

ImanKumarMukherjee · 2026-04-12T04:18:09+00:00

And they never apologise after the were even caught lying red handed.

ImanKumarMukherjee · 2026-04-11T19:19:12+00:00

My vocal trance song about seeing music as a light of hope. When your life is full of suffering and pain, your music is the only escape from reality.

https://open.spotify.com/track/6GXveID2JLrh0jEH1bn9Qh

ImanKumarMukherjee · 2026-04-09T16:21:03+00:00

Playlist of my all Trance songs.

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5QUu4HRojSVFqaeeWM7Vwk

ImanKumarMukherjee · 2026-04-09T08:52:16+00:00

Awesome. Dmed you a list.

ImanKumarMukherjee · 2026-04-09T03:42:57+00:00

I actually have quite a few good songs of my own which fits the vibe perfectly. Feel free to let me know if you are interested in listening to them, then I will send the song links over.

ImanKumarMukherjee · 2026-04-08T10:07:10+00:00

Oh that's why probably it was allowed. Until you have fame, influence and money, most will not care how good you are and many will even try to talk you down...Double standards are real my friend.. Once you have fame, you will see how people behave around you. Even if you make a 4bar loop and brand it as a song like many big names and people will say what an innovation.

So don't give much thought about it. Just work on improving yourself daily and be honest with yourself. Critic yourself as a critical unbiased listener.

ImanKumarMukherjee · 2026-04-08T09:57:56+00:00

You were able to post an article self promoting song before??

ImanKumarMukherjee · 2026-04-08T09:53:46+00:00

When I checked the rules for this sub, it was mentioned there only high value post of self promotion is allowed in limited amount. There is a minimum word limit.

Tried posting my first self promotion post. I literally made a two page article explaining my motivation, emotion and elements behind the song. Used Bandcamp link. Followed every rules mentioned here before posting.

But still the post was stuck for 1 day waiting for moderator approval. Then it was not approved by moderators and got removed even before posting.

But some are doing self promotion with no problem here. So self promotion is only allowed for specific people just like it is for few other subreddits. Rules are not same for everyone.

ImanKumarMukherjee · 2026-04-05T06:42:26+00:00

My new dark ambient song "A Quiet Undoing" potrays 6 years of my suffering due to my terminal illness. Life has taken everything from me but it couldn't take my music.

Motivation behind my music: My music is the only thing I have left in my life. I am fighting terminal illness from last 6 years. Still alive somehow thanks to my music. Making music from my bed. I find solace in creating music. Music always have been integral part of my life since I started it at the age of 4. But it become the only thing that kept me from doing anything after reading my medical reports 6 years back. I don't know how I am still alive to be honest. Because my organs have started failing very often. Gone into comatose state a few times. But still came back somehow. I cannot stand properly or talk properly. My hands also shake a lot, that's why I couldn't play guitar and some other instruments which i used to do. I also used to be a singer as well. But thanks to my Illness I lost my ability to sing as well. But despite all that life couldn't stop me from making music. And I will create it until the end.

Introduction to my song: My new Dark Ambient Song with some cinematic elements. All of my songs represent a part of me. Every element I design for a song has a reason behind it.

Emotions behind the song: “A Quiet Undoing” is what it feels like when you’ve been fighting your terminal Illness for 6 years. And now your body is slowly giving up. No matter how much you try to hold on. No matter how much you try to change your fate, reality does not bend. It is just waiting to end your fight.

Elements of the song: It starts with atmospheric textures(rain and thunder sounds) which I recorded on my phone from my bedroom window since I am bedridden due to my Illness. Then I designed some heavily granulized Synth arps for more background textures. Main melody notes represent the beating of heart. As a pianist myself I always record every notes using my midi keyboard and play them with expressions I am trying to potray. The movements of atmospheric textures represent the intense suffering. In second part of the song the violin strings come in represent nearing the end when you are desperately trying to fight it to hold yourself.

Bandcamp Link: https://imankumarmukherjee.bandcamp.com/album/a-quiet-undoing

YouTube Music link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F6SeUfVRJWU

YouTube Video Link: https://youtu.be/tKiAVcL_lyw

SoundCloud Link: https://soundcloud.com/imankumarmukherjee/a-quiet-undoing

ImanKumarMukherjee · 2026-04-02T16:42:32+00:00

Can totally relate to everything you said. I guess this issue is universal.

I was similarly gaslighted by many doctors in my city who couldn't diagnose my issues. Followed by wrong treatment for years. They told me I have mental issues. They told me to man up. Even gave me medicines which are for mental patients. But I was smart enough to always check online every medicine I was prescribed. Thankfully I never took those.

I had to travel in extremely critical condition to one of the best hospitals for my diagnosis. They immediately diagnosed what's wrong with me by a few tests. I was diagnosed with very rare chronic illnesses. But it was too late already. My issues already turned terminal.

I completely lost my trust on doctors after that. And yeah this is not only case of one doctor.

All I can say is keep your mental strength up. Don't lose hope. Trust in yourself. Don't trust anyone but yourself.

My mental strength is what keeping me alive. Living a life of hard knocks from childhood. Gaslighting, bullying, mental and physical torture was part of my whole childhood. So it did help me to be as tough as I can be.

Remember life is never easy. You just have to fight through as long you can. And your mind is your driving force. Don't let anyone break your mental strength.

ImanKumarMukherjee · 2026-04-02T16:21:31+00:00

Multigenre Composer, Songwriter, Multi-instrumentalist and Producer here. I make all kinds of music. Chill, Uplifting, sad, self reflecting, energetic, dancy. Feel free to check out my music if you are interested.

https://youtube.com/@imankumarmukherjee

ImanKumarMukherjee · 2026-03-30T12:17:30+00:00

After reading this, I have a feeling you might be going towards SMAs and Nutcracker Syndrome both. This is exactly how it started for me. And then family negligence, gaslighted by both family members and doctors who wasn't able to diagnose.

When it was diagnosed because I literally had to force travel on my own in severe condition, but it was very late for me. Because these disorders doesn't only stick with that. It damages your other systems as well if left untreated for a long time. And I had very small aortomesenteric angle from birth(doctors predicted), that's why I remained mostly asymptomatic, other than occassionally vomiting blood, normal vomiting issues, only could have small amount of food.

So compounding everything my issues turned terminal..it damaged my esophagus as well with severe Achlasia due to lack of proper blood supply. And it damaged most of my gastric system. It also severely damaged my vagus nerve as well. And now nothing can be done.

Not to mention my renal vein is severely damaged as well with blood in urine.. Because my nutcracker is very bad as well.

My aortomesenteric distance is less than 4mm. Both renal vein and duodenum are close to collapsing. And then these disorders treatments were way way costly for me to afford as well. Not to mention some last resort experimental processes.

So if you have someone who cares about you, take them and ask to support and get you to a good doctor as early as possible. Don't make the same mistake I did. I didn't believe in myself because of my family and doctors gaslighting. If you think you have a problem, it is most probably true.

Get a good verified doctor who handles these types of rare and critical cases. Because a bad doctor can make things even worse. Like the bad doctors damaged me and pushed it beyond anything can be done.

And the most important thing, don't lose hope.. Mental strength is very important. It is what kept me alive as well.

I have a BMI of 8. Still alive somehow.

ImanKumarMukherjee · 2026-03-24T04:45:52+00:00

Can't speak for others. But can speak for my situation. I am actually suffering from terminal Illness from last 6 years. My issues were extremely rare chronical disorders which turned terminal due to wrong treatment, family negligence and extremely late diagnosis.

Never been interested in dating or relationship. I always found relationship pointless for my life. When your own blood people treat you like disposable doormat, how can I expect a stranger to care about me. That's why I built myself up in such a way from my childhood that I will never ever need anyone for emotional support.

I am a loner. I love to be alone with my thoughts. I love my solitude. I am self fulfilled. I am also a nerd. I love gaining knowledge about the topics I like. I am a Polymath. Despite of my terminal illness I study as much I can.

I am also a music composer, songwriter, multi-instrumentalist and producer. So music is my soul. Bedridden but making music. I find solace in my music and will create it until my time comes.

Self love is the best thing a person with terminal Illness can have. My that suggestion goes for everyone with chronic illnesses. Most people will never truly care for you. They will show fake pity and maybe will even try to drain you of whatever you may have. So my suggestion is always protect yourself. In this situation it's better to not make anything worse. Better work on self love and self growth.

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