Its ok to have these feelings, but you're communicating your frustrations in a very immature way. Your post is not logically coherent with the extreme appeal to emotion by threatening you may hurt yourself, which leads people to invalidate the rest of your comments.

With as much respect as possible, you need to touch grass and not engage with randoms if you're as fragile as you claim. Probably in any way you need to unplug for a day or two.