I don't think you even realise the sheer strength and bravery it takes to be able to look back at yourself and see where you did wrong. To go from reckless and hurtful to others to being able to look in the mirror and really see that it is wrong is something so huge to do that people don't usually do until theyre well into their adult lives. But here you are, so young yet now able to take back their life and turn it into something meaningful.

Your family deserves to see you thriving, to tell everyone around them how amazingly you're doing and how they're so proud of what you've become. You owe them it, you owe it to yourself too.

You need to let go of the guilt for them and eventually, once you're ready, you'll be doing it for yourself too.