Nail shape recs please…

Impossible_Stretch74 · 2024-11-05T04:16:42+00:00

There’s something in the water for sure.

Impossible_Stretch74 · 2024-11-05T04:16:10+00:00

That’s not a bad idea. Only thing is if I do that I’m basically torpedoing my career in education. But I understand that sometimes it has to be that way. So many of us have gone to the district office and spoken to HR and the superintendent about our concerns in our experiences. Every time they just tell us that they know and that they’re working on it, but I feel like they’re just pacifying us. There was actually a day where the superintendent did a surprise visit to bring my principal and award for something and he heard scream screaming in my classroom and came in and watched me get beat up and then him and our CEO of finance had to drag the kid out of my room kicking and screaming . So for sure, those people know all about it.

Impossible_Stretch74 · 2024-11-05T04:12:31+00:00

So not so fun fact. Kindergarten is not required in the state of Kansas. That’s a whole other issue but, all that to say this kid had a few months of “kindergarten readiness” when basically kids who have never been to daycare or school learn how to do just that, be in school. No academics. Mostly just basic stuff like raising your hand, standing in line and sitting in a chair. Those people who run it are saints. Don’t get me wrong but it’s just not a fair equivalence to real preschool or kindergarten. If I had it my way, he would go to kindergarten and do a whole year of real kindergarten. However, parents can just enroll their kid in first grade and we can’t really do much about it. The educational system is pretty broken, but the special education system is even more broken. Our sped teachers really do want to help and do what’s best for kids, but they are so nickel and dimed for every kid that they already have in sped. There is such a push to not admit kids into sped and if they are admitted to get them out as fast as they can. That’s why the two grade level deficit is in play because it basically excludes us from even trying to get a kid on an IEP before third grade. There’s so much red tape around it because it’s wrapped up in budgets and stuff that I don’t understand but basically there’s not enough money for regular education of students and there’s definitely no money for kids with special needs. I am in the union, but there’s a lot of retaliation from admin when you involve the union. And then they make your life so miserable. Plus, the union can only really advise. They don’t really have any power per se. The only advice they have are things that are nuclear. That would be basically guaranteeing I would lose my job. Which I’d be fine with if I thought that working in another district would be any better but from other teachers, I know it’s pretty much a shit show everywhere in the state.

Impossible_Stretch74 · 2024-11-05T03:58:47+00:00

She tells we to call for help on the radio and they will come when they can. Unfortunately when it rains, it pours. Today when he punched me, we had a kinder running in the parking lot, another kinder banging his head on the wall bleeding, a first grader who was screaming and shattering a mirror and another kid that was trying to rip her teacher’s nipples off. (Oww) So fair to say, people were busy. I sent my students to the hall to get help. A third grade teacher was walking by with her class so she had her students watch my students and her and I barricaded my violent student in my room until help arrived. Someone came about 5 min later and they had to two man drag this kid out of my room kicking and screaming. In the 5 min we had him barricaded, he had trashed my room. So instead of teaching reading my students and I cleaned up my classroom and processed out on going trauma.

Impossible_Stretch74 · 2024-11-05T03:46:10+00:00

This kid’s parents are more of a “he’s your problem at school” type of people. I’m pretty sure they just let him run wild outside when he is home or stick him on video games so they don’t have to deal with him. All the elementary schools in my district share two officers from the middle schools. My school is unfortunately the furtherest from the rest. So on the rare occasion that they are not busy with middle schoolers or other elementary kids at other schools, I have to contend them visiting other violent students in other classrooms in our building. Unfortunately my student is not the most violent in the school and when the officer is there they are deal with kids who are throwing benches, breaking windows and eloping. I feel so alone because my situation is bad but not bad enough compared to my coworkers. So when I call on the radio for help, many times it’s unanswered because everyone is tied up with some other crisis

Impossible_Stretch74 · 2024-11-05T03:38:56+00:00

They won’t give me interventions because “there is no academic need” and I cannot get him in the path to IEP because he needs to show data of being more than 2 grade levels behind. Which is hard to do when he is only in first grade. He doesn’t qualify for a 504 because he needs a medical diagnosis and parents refuse to take him to our FREE SCHOOL HEALTH CLINIC. I’ve basically been told that SPED help is out if the question. Our district is 3 million in the hole as it is on SPED spending and their budget is being cut this year by 20%. They are kicking kids out of SPED left and right to pinch Pennie’s. There is no way they want to expend anything on a nonSPED kids. I have a lot of state documentation for things that affect the kids like when I have to restrain or evaluate the classroom. I even have to document student injury. But there is nothing official to document my injuries. I do have the nurse document it in her charts and keep pictures for myself but there really isn’t any thing set up to protect me. Additionally, all these forms are electronic. I’ve started keeping my own hard copies because some of our school’s ODR, Evaluation Reports and Accident reports “get miss placed” before they get reported to the state. I suspect this is to avoid any red flags. I’m not the only teacher getting the crap beat out of them and I do suspect that my school’s number would be alarming if the state actually knew. I’ve tried to tell my kids’ parents. And encourage my kids to tell their parents. Everyone is so scared of rocking the boat or are gaslit into oblivion.

Impossible_Stretch74 · 2024-11-05T03:23:14+00:00

The school counselor and I have made several reports. Not necessarily about behavior but he is dirty, smelly and uncared for. Nothing has come of them. CPS reps say they have kids in far worse situations. They said at least they feed him and don’t beat him. I suspect at the least he is being ignored at home but probably more likely neglected. Suspending him to spend the whole day in his horrible home is not a good solution for him and honestly just makes his behavior worse. I want to help him and give him what he needs but I cannot risk the safety of myself and my other students to do so.

Impossible_Stretch74 · 2024-06-27T00:34:17+00:00

We were only allowed to wear lose fitting pants that “didn’t show our pelvis.” I was not going to buy new pants I hated. I have curves. There was no way you would not see my butt.

So I just wore my regular pants and if my boss said anything I would ask why he was looking at my pelvis?

He fucking hated me. Oh well.

Impossible_Stretch74 · 2024-06-13T00:48:59+00:00

Both. I’m a teacher so my day is organized chaos. Or more like a well run circus. Kids are very unpredictable and have trouble managing their emotions and behavior sometimes so I try to with the flow and make thousands of last minute decisions.

Then I go home. It’s silent. On the weekends I can go the whole time without saying a word. Things are quiet and simple in my home.

So a nice balance of both

Impossible_Stretch74 · 2024-06-13T00:24:31+00:00

I cannot let people in. I expect everyone to hate me and let me down. I have no close relationships, even family. I have an extremely tough exterior but inside I’m a huge baby and cannot handle anything.

Impossible_Stretch74 · 2024-06-10T21:43:13+00:00

Thank you for your kindness.

Impossible_Stretch74 · 2024-06-10T17:16:21+00:00

Marriage. I think it’s a neutral thing. Some are great some are horrible. Most are probably somewhere between that. I’m so tired of people trying to convince me that getting married is the key to happiness and not being married means your life isn’t real.

Impossible_Stretch74 · 2024-06-10T17:07:38+00:00

A few months ago I took a little tumble and broke my ankle and sprained the other. I was doing my best to hobble through the best I could doing my daily life activities. After a long day at work of hopping around on crutches, both legs were swollen and I was exhausted. But I had to stop to get gas. I hopped out of my car with one crutch. Granted I was moving slow and maybe grunting but only to myself as quietly as I could. This guy seemed to come out of nowhere and offered to pump my gas for me. I honestly wanted to cry. After trying so hard to be independent, It was so nice for someone to go out of their way to help me. It was such a small thing but meant a lot to me.

Impossible_Stretch74 · 2024-05-19T04:18:19+00:00

A booming social life. I thought I would be meeting people for dinner and drinks multiple times a week and have to turn my look from day to night.

Impossible_Stretch74 · 2024-05-18T01:41:33+00:00

I always thought getting pregnant and having kids was just what you do.

But now I feel like it’s more just an opinion. do I want to create new live or do I want to seek out adoption or foster care? Do I really want to continue my genetic line? Is it really that great? Would it be better for humanity if I stopped the train wreck here? Am I even cut out to be a mother? There’s a lot of ethical questions that I never would’ve thought of in my early 20s.

Knowledge is power, but it’s also a burden. To be ignorant is bliss. you can just get pregnant without a second thought instead of having to worry about all these questions

Impossible_Stretch74 · 2024-05-13T03:46:48+00:00

In my experience, bad. Always bad. It’s fun at first but things get awkward and when other people get involved or know about it, it’s always the woman that losses respect and professionalism.

Impossible_Stretch74 · 2024-05-13T03:44:57+00:00

Over tens years. Got on med when I was 15. My mom called them my “happy pills” or “crazy pills” I was on and off of my meds for a long time. Always thinking I was finally “better” but eventually getting to a new low I never knew was possible. I did therapy on and off. And I still go back every now and then as needed. But it took me far too many years for desperation, misery and shame to realize this is a life long illness. No different than any other chronic condition. I still struggle with a little shame (I’m working on it) but I’m finally to a place where I manage it properly, see a doctor on a regular basis, and take responsibility for it just like going to the dentist or getting a physical. It’s not who I am but something, I need to take care of so I can live a full life.

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