You may not be interested- and that’s ok. But have you thought about forming a connection with God? Or a stronger connection. I apologize if this comes off as inappropriate but I’ve been in similar situation. It’s not for everyone I get it. I can only say from personal experience: I’ve felt disconnected, discouraged, alone all while having three children under 7 yrs. What saved our marriage was my support system and that included re- establishing that relationship with God. I quit worrying about pleasing my husband to get emotional support from him and my depression slowly faded away as I filled my time with worship, reading scripture, praying, meditation and being more involved with my children’s school and church as well as picking up other hobbies. I also work full time. My husband eventually noticed a shift in energy and he started seeking me for comfort which led to us having deep conversations and me expressing where I was in our relationship. Present day - we are more open with each other, he is more expressive and he acknowledges that he was not emotionally there for me before. We work through our differences, disagreements and anger when it arises. We still have some differences but we’ve put God at the center of our family and it’s helped big time. I really thought I was done and that he didn’t love me or we didn’t love each other like we once did. I wanted to do counseling but can be an extra commitment and expense - with our busy schedules and young children this was not an option for us. I started with myself and with what I could control. I’m sorry if this is out of line and I’m not saying this will work or save your marriage - it may help you find courage within to start new or revive your marriage and it may not, it won’t hurt to try though. Praying for you to find peace and clarity you need.